E-pistolary

My Characters on Facebook: So, if you've found this site...

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...perhaps you have been friends with one of my characters on Facebook and did a Google out of curiosity and ended up here.

I created Facebook pages for my characters for a few reasons. The main one was to practice writing in their voices, in a medium that was interactive, with an element of surprise to it. Meaning: I discovered that I could only take the character emails so far. When you're a fiction writer creating epistolary works in your characters' voices, you're still "writing to yourself." So I created the character Facebook pages.

But I found, pretty quickly, that when the people who friended these characters on Facebook knew that they were fictional characters, the interactions were OFF.

I decided to take a leap. I wanted to see how the interactions would work if people thought that these characters were real people. It was, as I posted in the profile of one of the characters, "a literary experiment."

The main intention was, therefore, to try to create a new type of fiction in a new medium... to see what was possible, if it was possible, etc etc.

The other intention was to put my characters on Facebook so that, when my stories were published, my readers would find them online and get "a little something extra" that wasn't for sale. I wanted to find a way to present free, interactive content that would not be available anywhere else. I get tired of everything in the arts and in literature having a price tag. I wanted to provide my readers something free, unique, interactive and fun that they could never get anyplace else... something that couldn't be bought or sold.

It's unique to Facebook and that's where it's going to stay.

Now, if you've been interacting with my characters and feel duped that they aren't "real," well... my apologies.

Consider yourself a co-creator of this experimental fiction work. Please continue to interact with them.

And keep in mind that this sort of literary experiment is not without precedent:

On Halloween night, 1938, Orson Welles and his Mercury Theater Of The Air produced a radio drama of H.G. Wells' WAR OF THE WORLDS on the CBS Radio Network. Far from being a straight dramatization of the book, Welles' WAR OF THE WORLDS was, as described on Wikipedia (sorry, it's the most convenient reference I have on hand)...

presented as a series of simulated 'news bulletins,' which suggested to many listeners that an actual alien invasion by Martians was currently in progress. Compounding the issue was the fact that the Mercury Theatre on the Air was a 'sustaining show' (it ran without commercial breaks), thus adding to the program's quality of realism. Although there were sensationalist accounts in the press about a supposed panic in response to the broadcast, the precise extent of listener response has been debated. In the days following the adaptation, however, there was widespread outrage and panic by certain listeners who believed the events described in the program were real. The program's news-bulletin format was decried as cruelly deceptive by some newspapers and public figures, leading to an outcry against the perpetrators of the broadcast, but the episode secured Orson Welles' fame. Welles' adaptation was one of the Radio Project's first studies."

At the end of the show, Welles stepped out of character and read the following announcement:

This is Orson Welles, ladies and gentlemen, out of character to assure you that "The War of The Worlds" has no further significance than as the holiday offering it was intended to be. The Mercury Theatre's own radio version of dressing up in a sheet and jumping out of a bush and saying Boo! Starting now, we couldn't soap all your windows and steal all your garden gates by tomorrow night... so we did the best next thing. We annihilated the world before your very ears, and utterly destroyed the C. B. S. You will be relieved, I hope, to learn that we didn't mean it, and that both institutions are still open for business.
So goodbye everybody, and remember please, for the next day or so, the terrible lesson you learned tonight. That grinning, glowing, globular invader of your living room is an inhabitant of the pumpkin patch, and if your doorbell rings and nobody's there, that was no Martian... it's Halloween.

It's not Halloween, but, as with Welles, if anything was destroyed by this literary experiment, you will be relieved, I hope, to learn that I didn't mean it.

Any questions, email me (maxshenkwrites@aol.com).

And please continue interacting with my characters.

Max

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This site is the result of an ongoing experiment in epistolary fiction writing. A few years ago, I got the idea of writing a novel in email (xo bri xoxo me xoxoxo love you christy), written in real time using messages sent back and forth between email accounts that I created in my characters' names.

The "novel" was completed, but the experiment continues. I like my characters, and want to continue to delve into them and work with them. More than that, though, I like the epistolary format. Letters (particularly email) raise a lot of questions that I suppose I'm trying to answer by writing these messages. What gets said? What gets excluded? How are stories and events communicated (or not communicated) between characters?

And are the messages stories... or can they add up, in aggregate, to a story?

That's what I'm trying to get at here.

Every one of these messages serves as both a FUN exercise in writing and an exploration of the epistolary form. I want to keep writing these messages and see what happens, what I come up with. As I write them, I find myself learning more and more about the characters and their nuances, and of course this in turn informs and enriches my OTHER writing.

I've given up on the notion of trying to make the messages on this page add up to coherent storylines. Somehow I feel like that's not the point. I'm not sure what the point IS, but I feel like the muse is leading me... so I follow...

Hope you enjoy it.

Please read the following...

IMPORTANT NAVIGATION TIPS:
It never made any sense to me, but on this site, new posts appear at the TOP of the index page...meaning that if you want to read the posts in chronological order, you need to read them from the bottom of the page UP.

An easier way, though, is to click on the links in the UPDATES section (always immediately below this top post). Those links will open the first message of the given thread in a new window; you can then navigate the threads by clicking on the FORWARD-BACK-HOME links at the end of each message. I will also link between threads.

Let me know what you think, and thanks for reading! --Max

UPDATES:

February 4, 2009 A follow-up email which continues the thread below. Christy writes back to Margo about Marty and meds: click here for the followup, and see immediately below (February 1) for the first two messages in the thread if you missed them.

February 1, 2009 Super Bowl Sunday. Christy is up, thinking about Super Bowl parties and sinusitis and Facebook... and so she writes Margo, and Margo writes back. Click here for Good morning, I guess.
(As always, see the characters' Facebook pages for related content... and see the previous update below if you have no idea what I mean by that. --m)

January 11, 2009 It's been over three months since I really wrote any new character emails. I haven't been IDLE, mind you; I've done a lot of stuff with the characters' FACEBOOK pages... fitting, because Facebook is a somewhat shallow tool. I've felt, the last few months, like I needed to be shallow for a little bit, step back from the characters, not go too deep. Take a breath.

(Inhale. Exhale. There. That's better. Now, as you see, I write.)

Anyway... I've written this before, but if you haven't done so yet, ADD MY CHARACTERS AS FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK. I'm not saying there's a great deal of CONTENT there, but there are some things on those pages that will be alluded to in the character emails (and vice versa), and if you don't wanna be totally lost, you need to check those pages out. Plus, it's kind of fun, I think, to see status updates for the characters pop up on your HOME page.

Which now brings me to... new character emails. Three, count 'em, three... all of them really inspired by the last four months of HELL I've been through, and the way that I've dealt with it (although, really, that doesn't come out DIRECTLY). Brian, the most un-tech-geeky of all my characters (except maybe their parents) starts the ball and this new thread rolling with this message: Internet.

October 1, 2008 Some things never change. Penn State Football on the tube at Brian's parents' house is one of them. Margo asks Christy Did you hear that?

August 28, 2008 This is the first time I've posted an update consisting entirely of Facebook status updates. A continuation of the previous emails and chat. Some new emails will be coming soon; in the meantime, start out by checking Maura's Status.

August 17, 2008 As I wrote below, "Maura" has gotten four friend requests on Facebook (actually five; one of them has been withdrawn) from total strangers. Everyone keeps telling me to CONFIRM the requests and see what happens. Somehow that seems too strange a commingling of fiction and reality. However, since I have to do SOMETHING with those friend requests... the thread continues... click here. More to follow as I write it...

August 16, 2008 A couple more emails to continue the thread started on August 13 and continued the 14th. This is also the first time, really, that I've used a Facebook status update in this blog. The first message here is a screenshot of Maura's facebook page. (Click on the reduced-size screenshot to enlarge it and read the page; click your browser's BACK button to return to the page. FORWARD and BACK navigation links between emails appear under the mini-screenshot)
Maura's status update is the first new message: Maura Ann Kelly is...

August 14, 2008: Continuing the thread started on August 13th with two new messages: Christy's reply to Maura and Rae's reply to Brian.

August 13, 2008: Lots happening. First of all, I've created FACEBOOK accounts for my characters. If you want to keep up on their virtual fictitious goings-on, friend them! I created a Facebook group called Friends of Brian, Margo and Christy; the easiest way to find them is to click on that group. The Officers list on the right hand side of the page lists all of the characters with pages. You can either FRIEND me to access their pages, or FRIEND one or ALL of the characters to not only access their pages, but to get their "status" updates on your feed-homepage.

Fun. Really.

I have to mention this: I really debated whether or not to give the characters profile pictures or even avatars, but with Rita and Maura and Rae, I found, online, what I thought were suitable public domain pictures that seemed to be in character with what I'd written. Rita is the only character whose face you see; Rae's is (fittingly) blocked; and Maura... Maura, I thought, should have something a little daring and artsy... something in keeping with her established identity (on this blog) as a photographer and model.

I also started registering Maura and the other characters on Facebook groups and fan sites, just to give their pages a little more flavor... and of course, when you post on a page, your profile picture accompanies your post.

Well, apparently I chose the RIGHT PICTURE for Maura. "She" has gotten FOUR FRIEND REQUESTS so far, from people who clearly are not interested in reading my work, but who apparently think she is an ACTUAL PERSON. Probably more than an "actual person," but an artsy, bohemian, freewheeling actual FEMALE who just might... you know... be interested in...

Which Maura unequivocally would NOT be, as they would see if they read her profile. "IN A RELATIONSHIP" should tell them all they need to know; repeated references to "Todd" in her status updates might also be considered tip-offs.

Still, I apparently have created an enticing character, if the message that accompanied the friend request from one Mr. Brenno Thegreat, in Melbourne, Australia, is any indication:

Hi i like your back, wanna chat.

All of this AFTER I posted comments on Maura's page from Christy, Rita and Margo about her picture... AND after I posted a message on Margo's wall, from Rae, saying "yr niece has beautifully defined latissimus dorsi and gluteus medius muscles lol."

I don't know what to do about this. I don't think I'm going to friend them just yet. Part of me feels like what I need to do is tell them "Look, Maura's a fictional character... you aren't going to get more pics, or chat with her, or hook up with her, or have an online fling with her, or..."

But for now, I'll let it pass. It might be interesting to see how many more guys try to friend her.

Anyway...

Meanwhile, I've written a bunch of new character emails and rather than try to make coherent threads out of them, I've just posted them here in the order I wrote them. Start with this one from Maura to Rita: Monday night at Todd's, so peaceful.

July 30, 2008 This is a different twist on my character communiques (although it's one I used in the online novel): I created instant message accounts for Christy and Margo, and, with two IM windows opened onscreen, did a "chat" between them in real time. It's been a few years since I did this, and the first one I tried wasn't entirely successful (I posted it on my Deviantart page). This one, though, works a little better, so I'm posting it here. As I explained in the header of the Deviantart entry, the timestamps are real (this was written in real time); however, unlike that piece, I revised this one a little before I posted it.
I like this format because instead of the characters writing (essentially) letters, they're having a dialogue.
As with their emails, though, Christy and Margo don't use a lot of abbreviations-etc. Neither of them has (read: I HAVEN'T) bothered to learn shortcuts-abbreviations-acronyms-etc. The only ones here, really, are BRB and LOL and LMAO (or, in Fran's case, the transposed LMOA, which is an inside joke to her).
So: Christy is at home in Pleasant Gap, PA; Margo is on vacation at her parents' lakeside cottage in Ontario, with Brian and Becca; they're up in the morning, having coffee, and since cellphone roaming charges/international calls=$$$$$, they decide to communicate via Instant message.

July17, 2008 As I discovered earlier in the winter, sometimes I can't open my mouth and complain directly about certain things, but there's always my characters. Hence this new thread, two messages: Maura hurls Six F-Bombs at Rita, and Rita hurls a couple right back in her reply. Click here to read the first message.

July 9, 2008 Christy and Marty and Maggie visit Maura in Vermont. First message here: Hi from Vermont.

June 18-19, 2008 Sitting here, checking my email, eating Dulce le Leche... and I get an email from the Orioles, announcing that tomorrow night at the Yard is Nick Markakis bobblehead night. And since, in my fictional world, Rita has returned to the Warehouse to work in the Orioles' ticket and marketing office part time starting this week past, why not write an email? Thus my sitting at the computer not having a life, reading junk email and eating ice cream, becomes a new thread: Rita to Margo and Maura, telling them how Senorita gets busted by the intern and then gets the intern BUSTED!!!! with a followup from Margo.

June 3-4, 2008: It's been a long time since I introduced a new character's voice into the email storyline. But... with my novel You Don't Think She Is on its way out the door to agents (Bon voyage, o book!), I have picked up a project that I started in January 2007 and abandoned last fall: Rae, a novel featuring Brian, Margo, Christy, Marty, Becca and Maggie c. 2007. I'm about a third of the way through it, maybe... but yesterday I decided that, in order to get a better idea of what makes the character Rae tick, I'd get her hooked up with a Yahoo account and bring her into the loop.
So... without further ado, meet the title character of my novel-in-progress: Carmen McRae "Rae" Sanchez, 24-year-old former music student of Brian's at Gettysburg. Her first email, to her former prof, is Ted Kennedy surgery a success.

May 27, 2008: I'm in the process of posting a bunch of new emails, but here's a sample one... and instead of posting the FIRST in the thread, this one is the NEWEST: Maura to Rita. In the emails that precede this one, you'll find out who is Sorry and why. Click here...

March 30-April 6, 2008: First of all, heartfelt thanks, Danita and Jane, for your Facebook "Superlatives" nomination (Most likely to fall in love with a fictional character). These are all the more touching because they were submitted independent of each other.
I appreciate it. Honest, I do.
Now... in the month and a half since I posted the messages in the last thread, I have written (just counted) one hundred-eight (108) character emails. There are getting to be too many messages to post here. I need to find another way to do this, for a lot of different reasons. The physical setup of a blog (oldest messages at the bottom of a single page) is simply not conducive to what I'm doing. I'm going to start looking for a new website or venue to host these things. In the meantime... of those 108 emails, I'm going to post a thread featuring a few recent messages that will give you a hint of what's been going on in my characters' lives the last seven weeks.
The start of this new thread: Margo and Brian return from a visit to see Maura in Vermont, and Maura returns the favor with a trip back to Pennsylvania. There are some things referenced in these posts that happened in previous messages a couple years ago, most notably Maura's "night on the town" in the pickup truck, which I've linked to... uh... in the previous phrase, as well as at the top of one of the messages.
The first batch of messages in this thread was posted on March 30, and I posted followups on April 1 and 6.
So... the first message of this thread is She's here!

February 13, 2008: Two messages from Maura, about 15 minutes apart... one to her mom, one to her best friend. Start with Mommmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!

February 4, 2008: Started writing emails this morning with a message from Maura to Rita, and ended up with this mini-thread. Some stuff is alluded to here that happened in the big chunk of emails from December and January that I still haven't finished formatting and posting here. I hope it still makes sense though: Take a look at these.

January 28-February 2, 2008: Yeah, I have a big batch of new emails. Yeah, I've been writing and gathering them since before Thanksgiving. Yeah, I'm formatting them for this website, and yeah, it's a little time-consuming. But sometimes things take time because you're not really into them, as you realize when you write something you really connect with.
Like this morning. I logged into "Christy's" email account and found yet another spam to "her" about the Irish Lottery. I always wonder if these people would feel stupid at all if they knew they were trying to bamboozle a fictional character. (Every now and then I reply in my characters' voices, but I seldom get a response.)
Anyway, that spam to Christy starts this new thread: Batch: 074/05/ZY369, which I started on the 28th.

January 8, 2008: Stay tuned. Big batch of new emails coming soon. I've been writing and gathering them since before Thanksgiving. Formatting them for this website is a little time-consuming but I'm working on it, and hope to be done by week's end. (January 24: Formatting them for this website is EXTREMELY time-consuming; it's taking a lot longer than I'd anticipated... plus I'm writing new ones. So, like I said, stay tuned.)

November 22, 2007: Happy Friggin' Thanksgiving!

October 31, 2007: Life (real, mine) has settled down somewhat since I moved to Stowe, so life (virtual, characters) can continue online... this is the first new post here in over a month: Christy sends Margo online greetings for a Happy Halloween!!

September 23, 2007: I finally wrote a follow-up from Christy to Brian's e-mail Texting (see August 20 update). This email is not just a message for this blog; it's also in essence a novel excerpt: as soon as I wrote it, I plugged it into a chapter of the novel I'm working on, Rae. So here's Christy's response to Brian's Texting, imaginatively entitled... uh... Re: Texting.

September 8, 2007: The phone rings at Chez Pressley, and Becca has a boyyyyyyyyfriennnnnnnnnnd!!!!

August 23, 2007: One of the first times I've ever posted something on this site that isn't a character email, although it is an email of sorts. I was weeding through some emails in my account at my (soon-to-be-former) job, and came across this rather concise capsulization of the three main characters' traits: About the characters.

August 20, 2007: As so often happens, now these messages are becoming THREADS. I've tried to tie them together.
First, Brian obliquely responds to Margo's email below (August 13) with one of his own, to Christy: Texting. That message links to the first of two follow-ups to Rita's "So who's the baby??"... or you can start by reading Brian's reply to Rita here.

August 15, 2007: New mama Rita has a song stuck in her head: So who's the baby??

August 13, 2007: Margo to Christy: "I'm gonna get him one whether he likes it or not:" Monday

August 9, 2007: Rita's baby! IT'S A... I'M A...

August 7, 2007: "You don't always solve problems by talking about problems..." Three emails between Christy and Margo, about job offers, Maggie's three-year-old fits, and peanut butter toast, starting with: Job.

July 25, 2007: Rita's brush with greatness at the B&O Warehouse. Two messages: Rita's email to Margo, and Margo's reply. The thread starts with... Be jealous!!!!

March 11, 2007: First new content in a while... two threads that sort of lean on each other: first Christy and Margo's Happy Sunday Woman! and then Margo and Brian's The Exam

Re2: Good morning, I guess

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From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Margo Pressley (ledoux67@aol.com)
Date: Wednesday, February 4, 2009 6:55 AM
Subject: Re: Re: Good morning, I guess

Hi Margo, I'm back from my swim and enjoying the early quiet before we get Maggie moving. It's 6:30, right before when things really start moving here, I don't know why I am online trying to write an email. I don't know how I imagine I can possibly get anything of any substance written before things really start to move. Marty is already up and in the shower, getting ready for work, we get Maggie up at around 7 and one or the other of us runs her to school (ideally it's Marty, lol, but as you know the school is one direction and he goes the other, it adds ten minutes to his drive if he takes her, so usually he goes and I take her).

But I clicked the computer on, Stevie sent me some pictures of the super bowl party at mom's and I was looking at them, downloading them, and then of course I have to go on facebook and check THAT, and while I was at it, I realized that for all the times we've talked the past couple days, I still didn't really tell you what happened with Marty and his cold. It seems to have subsided but after we sent these emails back and forth on Sunday I just asked him straight out "Marty, why don't you just go get meds?" and he of course said exactly what I thought he would: "You know I can't stand taking meds. I like trying to heal things naturally." ANd I said "But it's not healing naturally. And you know as well as I do that if you let this drag out it's going to turn into a sinus infection and then you'll HAVE to go to the doctor."

"I know, I know." Getting annoyed with me. So then I got right to the heart of it. "You know Margo said Brian does the same thing. What IS it with you guys anyway?"

So now he REALLY gets his ass up in the air. "What do you mean, what is it with us guys?"

"I mean why don't you just go take care of it. Do you want ME to take care of it?"

"It's MY cold."

"Well I'm glad you're taking ownership of it" lol I thought that was pretty good "but it's driving me nuts too. I don't like seeing you sick and sniffling, I don't want you to get a sinus infection, I don't want you to get sick and maybe give MAGGIE something, and aside from all that, last night I could barely sleep with you snorting and sniffling next to me."

"Sorry."

"It's ok Marty, but I just don't know why you don't DO something about it?" And then I asked the question. "DO you want ME to do something about it? Like get you stuff for it, or make the appointment... or kill you if you don't do something about it?" lol.

And he got all bristly, which made me know I'd struck a nerve. "I don't need you to take care of me."

"OK, fine. Then take care of it yourself. But take care of it."

So now he gets all mopey and excusey, as you would say. "I just don't know what to get, that's all. I get all confused by the choices."

So I said "Do you want me to go with you and help you pick something out?"

No he didn't, you sure, no I'll go, well you haven't yet, Marty, let's just stop on the way to breakfast and get you something. OK. So long story short, since I'm looking at the time (6:40), I did what you said, we left for breakfast and the BJC early and stopped at Giant on the way into town, and I took him by the hand and marched over to the meds aisle and just asked him. "OK, what have you tried here that doesn't work? Does Robitussin work?" "For coughs yes, but not on sinus." "Well what about the tablets? Which ones have you tried?" "Sudafed makes me feel whacked." Same as you said Brian reacts. "What about Benadryl?" Anyway it turns out he's used Tylenol sinus before and it worked, so we got that and a bottle of saline spray since he wants to "heal naturally." Maggie loved that. "What do you do with THAT daddy?" "I squirt it up my nose." "EWWWW! Can I watch?" lol. So he took her back to the bathroom at the diner and squirted saline up his nose, and she comes running back out "Daddy sprayed water up his nose and it went all down his chin!" lol.

He said that the saline helped a little but that the tylenol really helped, by the time Maggie and me got back to the game (I was just going to pick him up after our afternoon together but Maggie wanted to go in and see the band so we went back for the second half, so glad we did, it was a big win and we were there, the place was rockin! Was I the one who complained about having to go to basketball games on super bowl Sunday?) he said his sinuses felt almost clear, then he kept on top of it

I'm glad we took care of it, I swear to god if I'd seen him sip one more cup of mint tea. HE DIDN'T EVEN FINISH IT! I said "Marty in order for it to do you any good you need to drink it HOT and let the steam work."

So Monday when he came home he'd gone to the health food store (SAME AS BRIAN!) and he'd gotten some kind of herb tea that his brother recommended. So I guess all I had to do was light a fire under his ass and he did the rest.

Annoying but at least he's not sick and mainly MAGGIE didn't get anything. I know you don't "catch" a sinus infection and there's more chance of her getting something at preschool than at home, but still.

It's 6:53 and I think I'm going to be a good mom and make oatmeal for my family.

Funny. I can see three clocks where I'm sitting. We have a kitchen clock on the wall, then there's the clock on the microwave, and then the time in the corner of the computer screen. The kitchen clock says 6:55, the microwave clock says 6:53 and the computer clock says 6:54. So it's 6:54.

Anyway had to tell you all that.

Talk later today probably! xoxoxoxo love you christy

P.S. thanks a whole bunch for sharing the Stalin comment with Maura, lol. I don't remember ever telling her that, she seemed to think it was funny though so no harm done.

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Re: Good morning, I guess

2009-02-01T05:09:00.000-08:00

From: ledoux67@aol.com
To: christyswims@yahoo.com
Date: Sun, 1 Feb 2009 7:49 am
Subject: Re: Good morning, I guess

First of all, facebook makes me ADD. Not "add" like add and subtract but A.D.D. As in I go on there and I see all these updates and groups and notifications and messages from people and I want to reply and before I know it, I've spent an hour online on facebook and I not only can't remember what I came online for in the FIRST place... I don't know what I've DONE in that hour that was more important. You know?

I agree that it is good for being shallow, which as you said in some cases is a blessing. How much contact do I WANT with Jen Rice, you know? Or your sisters (Kathy being the exception... I like hearing from her) all of whom friended me.

But the real issue here is...... MARTY'S SNOT!!! lmaaaao.

You KNOW what it's about, just like you know what it's "about" whenever I use to complain about Brian doing the same thing. I don't know what it is about those two with their sinuses and not wanting to just go to the doctor and smack it out of their systems with meds (or like you said even go to rite aid or CVS or bwahahaha Walmart and get something over the counter) (or go to Brian's stupid HEALTH FOOD STORE and get something, did I just call it "stupid," oopsy, baby burped, lmaaao)

(Another aside: YES, IT IS STUPID!! I like healthy food as much as the next person (if the next person is the hamburgler, lmaaao), I am all for natural food, natural remedies, no preservatives or additives, organic produce, garm raised (also FARM raised, lmaaao), free range, etc etc etc etc. Esp when it comes to putting things in Becca's body.

But try as you might and go down that path, SINUS STILL HAPPENS. And when you're there feeling like you have a bowling ball behind your nose and that flaming drippage is going down the back of your palate, who cares if it's NATURAL??? I just want it to WORK so that it ENDS!

What it comes back to for me, if you don't mind my ranting lmaaao, is what I wrote on the board at that Fresh Fields that one time that Brian got so pissed off at me about. I don't know if I told you that. We were at a Fresh Fields down in Philly when we were visiting Tony at school one time, and they had a comment board out front, and I'd just been walking around looking at all this Organic, Fresh, Good For You food that was probably raised the same way as the stuff in the Giant down the pike, but cost TWICE AS MUCH of course. And people just seemed rude, pushy... they looked like they NEEDED something like that. Anyway after seeing about twenty signs with the phrase "Good for you food" on it we checked out and as we left THAT was when I saw the comment board. So I wrote on a card: "If your food is so 'good for you' then how come everyone I saw shopping here looked so pale, pasty and miserable" lmaaao. THAT'S why it's stupid. ANd Brian got pissed that I dropped the card in the box but since then he has come to my point of view, sort of.

"It's like NPR. It doesn't make a person better. It makes them THINK they're better."

He's smart like that.

But when he gets sinus he STILL won't do the smart thing with THAT, which is make an appointment at the doctor's (and Christy, both of our husbands work at colleges... they don't even NEED to go to a doctor's... they can go to whatever free clinic is on campus and just get free meds there).

Marty does mint tea. Brian pounds down the OJ. Which, like you said, just makes him pee. Which is not a problem, because the other thing Brian does when he feels it coming on is takes showers and blows his nose down the drain (a doctor one time told him that was "the best thing to do for sinus" and gross as it sounds, it seems to work). So he just pees in the shower, lmaaao.

But he's the same: pounds down the fluids when it gets really bad, but he won't go for meds. And sometimes the shower therapy works, but sometimes it doesn't.

WHich brings us to what you said about Marty, and your solution, what you said you know will happen. It's a rock and a hard place, Christy. He says he doesn't want meds, and you know whatever you bring back if you buy it for him he will have a problem with. BUT IF YOU DON'T DO SOMETHING, HE WON'T EITHER, AND HE WILL DRIVE YOU NUTS. And then get sick.

It's not the sort of thing you can say "Fine, if you want to suffer, suffer" because as you found out last night, when he suffers, you suffer right alongside him.

So you need to do what I did with Brian first time he got really bad sinus. You have to be the mommy on this one. You need to DRIVE HIM to Rite Aid-CVS-Giant-Target-Walmart-whatever and walk him to the cold meds section and ask him which one he wants YOU to GET HIM. That way next time it happens you will know. Example: Brian can't do sudafed; that's what I get, and it doesn't bother me, but it makes him feel crawly and nuts. So I know that I need to get him something without the med that's in sudafed (pseudoephedrine, I think it's called. This is why I'm an LCSW and not a psychiatrist, lmaaao... I can't keep meds straight).

Anyway, once I did that, we didn't even need to get into the whole argument anymore. When I notice it coming on I just do what I would do with Becca: "Do you need meds? Does what you had before work? Why don't you go get in the shower? You need some saline spray?" Usually it doesn't even get to "You want me to call and make the appointment or are you going to go yourself?" (Have you tried THAT tack? Maybe just the THREAT of you calling FOR him will make him make the call himself.)

THIS is what bugs me Christy: you know, we ALL had our moms take care of us when we were little and we got sick, but why is it that when we grow up, we MOMS can take care of ourselves but the DADS still want MOM???

Anyway, do it now. Do it this morning. Before breakfast, YOU DRIVE the three of you to whatever pharmacy is on the way and pick out something while he's there. Because if he's sniffling and rattling (coughing?) all night then he is well on the way to a sinus INFECTION. So now is the time to knock it out of his system.

Of course maybe if you slug him in the jaw really hard THAT might knock it out of his face too, lmaaao.

Anyway, after typing all this I tried calling again and your phone is still off. So I'll just hit send.

We REALLY wish you could come down today but I totally get what you're saying. I know what you mean about not wanting Maggie to miss school. (I will ignore your sniping comments about me, lmaaao) And yeah, you and Marty and Maggie are a family unto yourselves, but that doesn't mean you don't want the BIGGER family around on special occasions.

Instead of saying what you know, which is "I wish you lived closer too," I'll ask: has Marty continued the job search or is he going to stay put up there?

Anyway, we'll miss you today. It's barely 7:45 am and already it smells beefy here, lmaaao. Brian has already browned the beef (four pounds) and he has two big pots of chili rollin'. We will have the usual guest list: Danny and Ronnie and their two, Dan and Laura, Mom and Dad, Karen, Roy, Tony and Rita and Dannydan. Should be a blast.

Wait a sec... BRB.

Back. WHen I hear the word FUCK! being hurled from the kitchen, I know there's a problem. Brian soaked the beans overnight but he forgot that you need to COOK them after you soak them. So no biggie. He just has to let them roll for 90 minutes... they'll be fine. But he's like me; any excuse to hurl an f-bomb when Becca's still in bed, lmaaao.

We were just talking in the kitchen... he was thinking he might ask his dad if he wanted to come out early to watch PSU-MSU but I said "Brian, do you want your parents here from noon till 10 pm when the football game ends?"

When the question, or the proclamation, is really "Brian, I do NOT want your parents here from noon till 10 pm when the football game ends!!!" lmaaao.

Anyway, it was a nice thought, but that's not happening.

Anyway... if Brian's f-bomb didn't get Becca moving, we'll get her up soon... the chili's rolling so we'll wait for the beans to cook and then dump 'em in the pots, put them on low and go into town and meet Mom and Dad for breakfast at the Avenue, then come back out and get everything straightened up for the game.

We'll miss you and wish you were here and of course I understand... but if you guys change your mind at the last minute (you did a couple years ago) just call and come down. Like Brian said he told you, you can stay here. But I don't blame you for not wanting to make the drive-have Maggie miss school etc.

Talk later today. Do what I said with Marty and let me know what happens! xoxoxoxo me!!

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2009-02-01T05:04:00.000-08:00

From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Margo Pressley (ledoux67@aol.com)
Date: Sun, 1 Feb 2009 6:29 am
Subject: Good morning, I guess

Hi Margo, it's early, 5:25 (funny, I always get up to look at the clock, forgetting that there's one right in the corner of the computer) and here I am, up and wide awake. The coffee was a part of that, lol, but mainly it's just like I always say, I am so used to Mon-Sat getting up at 4:30 am to get into the Y that Sundays I can't even sleep in. Esp this morning, or last night, Marty has bad sinus and his nasal passages were rattling all night. HE can't hear it of course but I was right next to him, kept waking me up. So when I got up and saw it was 4:25 I thought "Well at least I can go swim" and then realized, D'OH!!! Sunday.

So I went online and glanced at facebook. You know, that's fun for what it is and it's gotten me back in touch with so many people, and god knows it's a lot less painful to glance at my updates page and see "Mary Ann Kelly Harper is watching THE VIEW! Go Elizabeth!" (one of her actual updates last week) than it is to call Mary up and spend a half hour of my life TRYING to talk to her and getting half answers, half her attention because she IS watching the view, go Elizabeth, blah blah blah.

When I saw "Go ELizabeth" I thought "Why is she calling Betsy by her full name?" I'm just not tuned in.

Anyway for that it's been great, getting in touch with people and keeping in touch with other people who I'd rather keep at arm's length most of the time, God forgive me for saying that.

But I'm noticing that I'm leaning on it too much to keep in touch with some people I really WANT to be in touch with, Maura of course, and a little bit you and Brian. I'm not writing as much and that's what I LIKE to do. THe phone calls too of course but lots of times I don't feel like they're totally convenient. I know you say "call anytime" and you always pick up, but if you're at school I don't like to pester you, and then if you're driving home in winter I just think of you heading down 233 (? I can never remember route numbers) past the fairground and along the creek, just picture you trying to handle the cell phone and dealing with Becca and next thing we know, you're hurtling down through the pines and over the rocks into the icy cold water, lol. Another "worst case scenario" but you know how it is with the phone. It IS like Brian always said: just because you HAVE one doesn't give you license to interrupt someone's life with it. Just because I want to talk doesn't mean it's convenient for YOU.

And I know that the two people I talk most to (well two of the four anyway, along with Maura and Mom) you and Kath both have no problem saying "Chris, I can't talk right now" or "Woman can you call back?" But sometimes I don't even bother making the call if I think you or her MIGHT be busy.

So that's another reason to facebook.

But lately all it seems is we've been trading stupid lists and smartassed comments, which make me laugh but I miss real contact.

And that brings me to what is REALLY upsetting me, lol, here it is, another super bowl Sunday and Mom is having a big party in Fairfield, you guys are having a big party where YOU are, and what do WE have to do? Marty has blue band pep band for PSU Michigan at the BJC.

(I said "Michigan," actually it's Michigan State)

So that ties up the afternoon, and it's an early start time (noon) so we could do what we did a couple years ago and drive down for your party and the game, which was fun but getting back late is exhausting, it's hard to get back in the groove Monday, don't want to call out and have Maggie miss school, she likes school and esp likes MOndays believe it or not because she's been doing all these things all weekend and missing her friends and wants to see them and catch up. I remember that feeling even in high school. You hated getting up but you couldn't wait to see everyone. Even you, lol.

SO all weekend between his sinus and him having to do the band this afternoon I've just been in a pissy mood. I guess that should have been my facebook update huh, "Christine is in a pissy mood." Then everybody could comment on THAT.

As you can see I am STILL in a pissy mood.

ANyway, I would like to be coming down there for your party but we won't be, we will go out for breakfast, drop Marty at the BJC and then go to the bookstore and have a hot chocolate and look at books, I think they might even have storytime this afternoon at 1, then run over to giant and get some things for the game, come back in and get Marty and have our own super bowl party, which is fine, it's family, but there's another thing about facebook, it makes me MISS EVERYONE WHOS FAR AWAY EVEN MORE!!!

Maura posted that list of hers (and that picture composite, did you see that? Had to put her bare boob on there, lol) and I read it and had to call her, it made me cry, not that I was sad or anything, just made me emotional and made me love her, but made me WANT TO GIVE HER A HUG AND BE CLOSE TO HER, AND THERE SHE IS, FOUR HUNDRED MILES AWAY IN FUCKING VERMONT!!!! And Kath down in Harrisburg (she is working today during the game) and Stevie and John and Mom and everyone getting together at Mom's. Marty's parents probably won't watch it, they don't care, I think actually he has a concert tonight.

And then you, my other family, getting together there at your place, which is always fun, or at least it was last time the Steelers went to the super bowl.

And here we are, up here.

That's what it is, again. I love it up here until something is happening where I want to BE WITH people I love, and I feel cut off. Shouldn't Maggie and Marty be enough? BUt I want them to be with people I love too.

ANd now my coffee's cold. BRB.

Back and now it's too hot, lol. I'm like GOldilocks, I want it to be JUST RIGHT.

It is so quiet here, I know you don't want to hear that, lol, given how LOUD you said it was yesterday. THat was kind of how I felt yesterday morning. I was bugged about a million other things (all this that I just whined about) and then Maggie was making noise, Marty was playing records, the TV was going (its funny how no matter how many times I turn it off, it seems to come back on), I talked to Kath and missed her, talked to Maura and missed her. Then Marty and his sinuses, he's just like Brian, will NOT just suck it up and go to the dr and get meds and knock it out of his system, he has to suffer through it, which means we ALL have to suffer through it. I hate how that sounds, it's his cold so it's worst for him, but he could make it easier by just going and doing what I do, or what WE would do for Maggie, just go to the dr and get some antibiotics.

"But I don't like putting that stuff in my system." Fine, be homeopathic, (is that the word I want? No, I just looked it up online. You know what I mean, though, try NATURAL healing. But he DOESN'T. Except for seeing him drinking big mugs of mint tea all day, he doesn't DO anything. Except pee, lol, maybe he thinks it'll drain through his penis, lol, I don't know.

THat's one reason I wish Kath would come up. All I'd have to do is mention it to her and she'd come up with a handful of samples for him.

I swear what it is is that he wants to be babied, and I'm not doing it. He wants ME to call and make the appointment, wants ME to get him some kind of meds or treatment or something. Doesn't want to go to the bother. But instead makes himself miserable and DRIVES ME NUTS AND KEEPS ME UP ALL NIGHT SO I CAN'T SLEEP! AGHHHHHHH!!!

So it took me a half hour of typing to get to the point, but there it is.

I'm going to ask him "Marty, what do you want me to do here? Why don't you just go to the doctor?"

"I don't like going to the doctor. I don't like taking antibiotics."

"Then why don't you just run to Rite aid and get some saline spray and some tylenol and robitussin instead of DRINKING A GALLON OF MINT TEA (which he lets get COLD half the time anyway, which defeats the point) and peeing all day???"

Watch what will happen Margo. THat'll be one of our stops while he's at the game today, Maggie and me, we'll go to rite aid or to the pharmacy at Giant and get him saline spray and robitussin and some kind of antihistimine tabs.

He should get them BEFORE the game.

But if I get them for him, then they'll be wrong. "I can't take that kind, it keeps me up." "That kind doesn't work."

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH again.

So how are you doing? lol.

ANyway wish we could be there today. Your super bowl parties are always so much fun and I hate to miss it. But it's just too hard to make the drive down and back.

If we were just 45 minutes closer. Wish he could find a job in say Carlisle.

I just looked at my facebook page and saw that Brian is up browning the beef already for the chili. "Why don'tchall come down after the game? You could still make kickoff and stay here overnight if you want."

Let's see... I'll reply "Because that bitch of a wife of yours wouldn't go for it" lol.

I replied but he's not online anymore.

FUnny how facebook also gives you insight into how people are online and when. You are on all day, I click on anytime during the day between 8-3 and you're online. Brian seems to come on first thing in the morning or when he goes to work, and then last thing in the afternoon and maybe last thing at night. Kath's times match her shifts. She does her three 12 hour days ON and then three days off. She is never online those days that she's on at work but then the days off she is sometimes on CONSTANTLY even when she's sleeping. Mary and Betsy and Paul are on all the time, again even when they're sleeping. They just leave their computers on 24-7. Maura goes on for an hour before she goes to work and then maybe when she comes home.

And I don't know what I do, lol.

Wow. Hard to believe it is only 6:25, it seems like I have been typing forever.

I put FRANK SINATRA AND ANTONIO CARLOS JOBIM on thinking that "One Note Samba" was on it and it's not, that's a short album, ten songs but I swear it's not more than 25 minutes long. Anyway I put it on when I nuked my coffee and it's already done playing, now it is totally quiet again. Are you jealous, lol?

WISH WE WERE THERE today and hope you have a good one, a fun party. Maggie and I will have fun while daddy's at the game and then we'll have our own little party up here. Sorry we won't see you, tell your folks and all we said HI.

Talk later I'm sure. xoxoxoxoxo love you christy

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Maura's birthday

2009-01-12T07:39:00.000-08:00

From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Margo (ledoux67@aol.com)
Date: Monday, January 12, 2009 10:18 AM
Subject: Maura's birthday

Hi Margo, feeling a little sad and lonely today, miss Maura and wish she was here so we could have cake (and then go out for a beer or have a glass of wine) to celebrate together. She is such a great young woman, I am so proud of her, I feel sad for her lately because she is alone, I get the feeling she really loved Todd and just couldn't find a way to make it work. Don't think she really wanted to break up with him. But like leaving the restaurant she had to do it to move forward in another way.

I sent her a card and put money in it so she could go out, I know she had friends up there, I hope she doesn't feel funny that I sent her money. Just love her and wanted to buy her a drink or dinner (she'll be able to buy more than that though, maybe she'll go get some chemicals for her darkroom).

Maggie misses her and last week made her a card at preschool and we sent that too, hope she gets them today. Nothing worse than not getting cards on your birthday, esp when you're far away from home.

I have the feeling she misses it "down here," I would love for her to move back but don't want to tell her that, I'm afraid she MIGHT instead of doing what she wants and needs to do which is trying to establish her own identity in a place of her choosing, not a "home" that her mom picked for HER reasons. (one of those reasons of course BEING Maura way back when)

ANyway that is what I'm thinking and feeling today and what is between the lines of all those things I put on facebook today, just didn't want to post them on a public message board. I mean you see all of the "friends" Maura has? They can read everything we post and I don't want that, I don't know who these people are. I don't think SHE does either, people who like her butt, probably.

Don't tell her this but I'm glad she changed that photo.

She said she got a friend request from someone that said "Are you into porn?" And I said "And???" "I didn't answer it." "Well did you DELETE it?" "Not yet." So who knows what she's thinking?

All I know is I love her and I miss her and feel sad that I can't give her a birthday hug today.

But as Kathy asked me and she's right, "it feels different from all those years you were having trouble with her, doesn't it?" Yeah, so that's nice.

Funny though how I can go online and have this casual contact with people through email facebook etc etc, and I express things I'm feeling, but then when I turn the computer off I'm just as alone, missing them, as I was before. Maybe that's why people turn the computer on and leave it on and check it constantly.

Dryer just buzzed. Yes, I'm doing laundry. Do you want me to wash your snuggie, lol

Talk soon and hope you have a good work week. I miss you too, always makes me happy to see a little comment or message from you on facebook (and of course to talk to you, I'm glad we still are so close, I love you Margo)

Talk later! xoxoxoxo love you christy

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2009-01-12T07:34:00.000-08:00

From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Margo Pressley (ledoux67@aol.com), Rita LeDoux (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com), Brian Pressley (brianpressley14@aol.com)
Date: Monday, January 12, 2009 9:47 AM
Subject: Re: Internet

I waste too much time on here, particularly on facebook, I got so into the habit of having the computer on constantly when I was working at the Y. I'm not as bad as I used to be now that I have Maggie, I spend my mornings usually doing other things while she's at school and in the afternoons we do things together, but a lot of mornings (like today) when I'm feeling a little blue (missing Maura, today's her birthday) I turn it on out of boredom for companionship, just clicking around, and next thing I know the morning's gone and Maggie's home.

Fortunately that doesn't happen too often.

As we've talked about my sisters (Mary and Betsy) are online ALL THE TIME. Like I said, they have it on at work and then come home and turn it on, keep it on all night until they go to bed and are checking it constantly, even when they're on the phone. I call them and I can hear the keys and the mouse clicking in the background. Plus they just get that creepy preoccupied detached tone to their voice like they're hearing you but not really listening, their mind is somewhere else, in cyberspace, except like Kath said once, they're not really paying full attention to THAT either. It's like they don't want to be ANYWHERE.

I just signed on this morning to wish my daughter a happy birthday and now an hour later all I've done is post stupid comments on facebook pages, lol. Not that I think there's anything wrong with that, it's fun. But I don't see how people spend all that time in front of it either, no.

Anyway. Go Steelers, lol. You think it will be a turnpike super bowl? See if it is, they should have the game in Happy Valley, not California or whereever it's going to be. Stevie and I were talking and he said he thinks that they shouldn't announce the location of the game until the two final teams have been determined, then they should put it at a neutral site that is close to being midway between the two places. Something else for our new president to straighten out, lol.

Talk soon all! Or see you online, I have it on all day, lol. xoxoxoxo love you christy

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2009-01-12T07:31:00.000-08:00

From: brianpressley14@aol.com
To: Ledoux67@aol.com, ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com, christyswims@yahoo.com
Date: Tuesday, January 6, 2009 8:53 AM
Subject: Internet

No, I just don't get it. I hate to sound like the luddite I used to profess to be, but I just don't get it. I just can't sit at the computer like this, clicking and surfing. I was on Facebook this morning looking at "groups" and "pages" for solar, wind power, electric cars, tree farms, music etc, all of the things I'm interested in, and THAT lasted about ten minutes.

Because... I would rather be out DOING those things than sitting at a computer reading about them or writing comments about them.

I dunno. It's just a big bore to me.

About the only thing I like about it is that I can complain easily to you all about it, haha.

Talk later! xoxoxo bri

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IMPORTANT UPDATE!!!

2008-10-01T22:27:00.000-07:00

For those of you who don't know, my laptop is currently out of commission. Until I can get it fixed, I'm limited to half-hour blocks of internet time at the public library. Therefore, I'm not updating this site as often as I'd like.

We hope to have these technical difficulties resolved as soon as possible, and thank you for your patience, haha.

In the meantime, FRIEND MY CHARACTERS ON FACEBOOK! The characters with Facebook pages are as follows:

Margo Pressley
Brian Pressley
Christine Kelly-Morone
Maura Ann Kelly
Rita Pressley LeDoux
Rae Sanchez

I've been getting a lot of, uhhh, WEIRD friend requests (particularly from SINGLE MALES who think that Rita and Maura and the other female characters are REAL WOMEN who want to chat, no, I'm not kidding), so to weed these out, when you submit a friend request, just put EPISTOLARY in the message box. That way, I'll know your request is legitimate.

I feel badly that I haven't been able to keep up on this the way I'd like to, but in other ways, it's given me a nice "break" that I think I needed. Every now and then, you just need to recharge your creative juices. Now is such a time, I suppose.

Thanks for your support and keep reading! :-) Max Harrick Shenk

Did you hear that?

2008-10-01T07:35:00.000-07:00

From: ledoux67@aol.com
To: christyswims@yahoo.com
Date: Sun, 28 Sep 2008 11:55 am
Subject: Did you hear that??

Or feel a gust of wind from the southeast around the time of that fourth quarter holding call last night?? lmaaao

SO in answer to your question "How was it watching the game at Brian's parents" here's what happened: we go over to Dan and Laura's to watch the Penn State game, and as it progresses and Brian has had a few Circus Boys, he starts to nod off, and of course me, as the designated driver, I am sober and awake and alert, but except for watching-listening for the band to see if I can spot Marty, I am not really paying attention... Laura meanwhile is in her little study, doing whatever SHE does while Dan and company watch the game... but Dan is nodding off too... I looked over a few times in the fourth quarter and his chin was getting heavy... kind of bobbing, you know? But there with the TV sound turned down and Jack Ham doing the play by play through the static on the rahdio.

Anyway... with about two minutes to go, fourth quarter, I am quietly looking at that Washington Post weekly and Brian's asleep and Dan LOOKS like he's asleep, and as I look up from the paper, on the tube, I see the ref tossing a flag, and just as it happens, Brian's dad, I swear to GOd, SNAPS UP to attention and sits STRAIGHT UP and screams "WHAT IN THE HELL YA CALLIN' HOLDING SO LATE IN THE GAME FOR?? JEE-zus CHRIIIIST!!!" lmaaaao

Jesus Christ is right... scared the SHIT out of me... woke Brian up... "Wha? Huh?"

And then of course the capper was: from the other room, Laura thinks he's calling to HER: "What, Dan?" LMAAAAAO!!!

So then Dan gets all agitee... he looks at me and goes "For cryin' out LOUD, Margo, she ALWAYS does that." and then YELLS back at Laura "I'm NOT TALKIN' TO YOU!!! Jeezus..." lmaaaaao

In other words, watching the Penn State game at Brian's parents' was the same as ever.

Didn't spot you or Kathy or your mom on the tube... and how did Maggie handle having the sitter?

And what do you MEAN they tore down the old hospital in Carlisle??? That's where Tony was born!! Did they put up a plaque??? lmaao

FUnny... a few Fridays ago when we went up to the H.A. Milton for hotchis, as we were leaving town I was thinking "We never drive by the old hospital... we ought to go by and check it out." Guess there wouldn't have been anything there to SEE, huh?

Anyway... kind of a chill day. We will be watching the last Orioles game of the season this afternoon... Becca wants to go to the lake. Nope. Nope. And nope. Aside from the homework, all the rain this past week has probably pushed the water temperature down to about 47 degrees... so, again, nope.

Brian says HI and when are you gonna call him? Careful how you answer that, lmaaao.

Chat later woman! xoxoxoxoxo me!!

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Sunday morning at Venti Schmenti

2008-08-17T08:34:00.000-07:00

From: "Rita Pressley LeDoux" (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
To: "Maura Kelly" (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
Date: Sunday, August 17, 2008 11:13 AM
Subject: Sunday morning at Venti Schmenti

OK, Mauramodel, so here's how Senortia's Sunday has gone so far (and I DO mean "Senortia" ): she gets UP first thing this AM at 5:15 to FIVE voicemail messages since 10 pm last night from you, each one drunker than the last... listens to them and can see how your Sat night progressed.... a quick shower and it's off across the hood to the cafe, where I worked from 6-10.... then Tonybaloney and Dannydan met me here at the end of my shift, with snuck-in bagels from across the street at Sam's... watching Dannydan gnaw the garlic and onions and sesames and salt off the everything... now he is on the floor with Tony, rolling a truck.

We pride ourselves on our family friendy atmosphere here at Cafe Venti Schmenti

Anyhoo... first message from you: clouds, cool... yes, yes, you'll scan and send. You're only about twenty photo forays behind on sending me pics, you do realize. Second... of COURSE Jill booked the resto solid right up to 8:45. She is, after all, a DINGDONG!!!! Third message... this is where things start to look foreboding. "Heavyweight Red???" Is that the actual NAME of the vino or just the EFFECT it has. (Judging from your facebook status as I type this --"crushing sulfite headache"-- I would guess the latter.) Fourth message: ok, a loud WE'RE AT THE SHED! SAY HI, MISSY! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO! is always a good sign. But then what's this LAST one... about Darren The Great and facebook and friend requests and all???

Maura Maura Maura... I have wanted to say this for a long time. I admire your artsiness and your boldness... you express and DO things that I (and most people) would just be afraid to do. You're OUT THERE and I like it, admire you for it, even (I hope this doesn't make you feel weird) live a little vicariously through it.

But THIS is what I've been itching to say: I know the friend requests bug you and make you feel weird, but Maura... WHEN YOU POST A PROFILE PICTURE OF YOU BARE NAKED, EVEN FROM THE BACK AND NOT REALLY SHOWING ANYTHING EXCEPT THE TOP OF YOUR BUTT, WEIRD GUYS ARE GONNA CREEP OUT OF THE WOODWORK AND TRY TO FRIEND YOU!!!!

Just like "When you post a profile on Facebook and are a former major league ballgrrrl, guys are going to creep out of the woodwork and try to friend you." That's MY cross to bear.

BRB

Back. Dannydan was crying. Tony took him back to change him. "No, no, keep typing Rita." Awwww, and without a hint of sarcasm, too. I's in yuv!!!

ANyhoo.... the point being, guys will try to friend you... guys you don't know... guys who see your picture and want to SEE MORE. Want to see more, want to chat, want to meet, want to god knows what else?

You DID the thing with the privacy settings. That's good.

Now... on the FRIEND REQUESTS... have you noticed that there is a little button you can click, right next to where it says CONFIRM, that says... uhhhhhh... what is the word on that little button... IGNORE?? Is it IGNORE???

Maura, you don't HAVE to reply or confirm these weirdos requests. You can hit IGNORE and be rid of them forever.

Why haven't you, sweetie???

Are you, perchance, given all that you've been telling me about Todd and "not feeling ready to be a married mom of two" (your words) and not wanting "an instant family" (your words) and "not being sure" (your words) and feeling torn (my words, a paraphrase)... given all that, are you perchance seeking attention online? Seeking dalliances?

Want to keep your options open (even if the only people who are taking you up on it are guys who "like your back")????

Mauramodel, if you don't want to be bothered by these guys, DON'T BE BOTHERED. Click IGNORE. They will never bother you again. But you said you still have them on your friend request screen. How come??

Just makes me wonder how annoyed it really makes you?

Sorry... I am psychoanalyzing, I guess... but as the shrink in my family says, you are what you do. If you are annoyed, then be rid of the requests. Hit IGNORE. Ignore them, Maura, and in this case, they'll go away.

Unless... you really don't WANT to????????

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

OK... Dannydan is about to meltdown. I can see. Tony is not keeping his attention. I need to hit send, log off, and leave NOW!!!!

Want a slightly slobbery everything bagel with all of the stuff nibbled off it??

Annnnnnnnd... there we go! Gotta run! Love you Maura! Bye!
Senorita

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so u freinded me

2008-08-17T06:14:00.000-07:00

mauramodel [2:44 AM]: hello!
darinthegreat [2:46 AM]: hi!
darinthegreat [2:46 AM]: so u freinded me.
mauramodel [2:46 AM]: yeah!
darinthegreat [2:46 AM]: cool.
darinthegreat [2:46 AM]: i liked ur back!
mauramodel [2:47 AM]: thx!
mauramodel [2:47 AM]: so where r u?
darinthegreat [2:48 AM]: minnesota, near st cloud
darinthegreat [2:48 AM]: u?
mauramodel [2:48 AM]: vermont
darinthegreat [2:48 AM]: i really liked yr pic
mauramodel [2:49 AM]: i know! u said! :P
darinthegreat [2:49 AM]: no its really hott
darinthegreat [2:49 AM]: is that u in the pic?
mauramodel [2:49 AM]: yeah! who else?
darinthegreat [2:49 AM]: well u know could be sum1 else
mauramodel [2:49 AM]: no its me.
darinthegreat [2:49 AM]: who took it?
darinthegreat [2:50 AM]: self shot?
mauramodel [2:50 AM]: lol no, that would be 2 much work
mauramodel [2:50 AM]: no a photog in wv took, i used 2 model 4 him
darinthegreat [2:50 AM]: do u have more?
mauramodel [2:50 AM]: lots
mauramodel [2:51 AM]: i'm a model, did that about 2 yrs
mauramodel [2:51 AM]: mainly artsy stuff
darinthegreat [2:51 AM]: mainly but some other?
mauramodel [2:52 AM]: some other yeah ;-)
darinthegreat [2:52 AM]: r they online?
mauramodel [2:52 AM]: a few but most not, not anymore
darinthegreat [2:52 AM]: r there more like that one but from front?
mauramodel [2:53 AM]: lol.
darinthegreat [2:53 AM]: seriuos are there?
mauramodel [2:54 AM]: go to aperture.com and search ron snyder, he was the photog
darinthegreat [2:55 AM]: why not just send me sum?
mauramodel [2:55 AM]: damn slow down!
mauramodel [2:55 AM]: dont u wanna buy me a drink first??
darinthegreat [2:56 AM]: lol
darinthegreat [2:56 AM]: sorry
darinthegreat [2:56 AM]: just liked yr pic
mauramodel [2:57 AM]: iknow, you said
darinthegreat [2:57 AM]: so what r u wearing now?
darinthegreat [2:58 AM]: r u like u were in the pic?
darinthegreat [2:59 AM]: hello?
mauramodel [2:59 AM]: brb
darinthegreat [3:02 AM]: u still there?

mauramodel signed off at 3:03 AM

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Knock knock

2008-08-17T06:11:00.001-07:00

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You have four friend requests...

2008-08-17T06:03:00.001-07:00

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Re: Rita Pressley LeDoux wrote on your Wall...

2008-08-16T06:50:00.000-07:00

From: "Maura Kelly" (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: "Rita Pressley LeDoux" (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Friday, August 15, 2008 12:14 PM
Subject: Re: Rita Pressley LeDoux wrote on your Wall...

Sorry, part of me felt like I just shouldve never put that as my status but I needed to vent somehow and get sympathy!!!! :-) Figured if I put that you'd reply, lol.

It's just this Rita: I KNOW that Todd "comes with the kids" and that there are ways around them being there and all that, ways that we can get together time, etc etc etc all that. What I guess I'm saying is part of me is really feeling kind of weird and scared about Todd, like I LOVE HIM but I DON'T KNOW IF I AM READY TO BE A MARRIED MOM OF TWO KIDS which is what it feels like sometimes when we are together. Makes me feel weird. I don't know, not "old" but like we're skipping over steps or something. I know it sounds selfish but I liked the feeling of him sleeping over at my place when the kids were at his parents down in WRJ.

And sad because when I think about it, it's really not the way things really were you know? He wasn't/isn't a single guy, he's a dad.

Love him so much but that part of the equation makes me feel scared and I don't know why, makes me feel like for as much as I love him I don't want to be with him. But I DO. And it's not like I don't like his kids either, I DO!!! I feel all divided, like it doesn't make sense. I want different things all at once.

Which is why I said people don't get me, but I don't get me either. I'm kind of ungettable right now. It's nobody's fault. Just love.

I am drowsy and was going to take a nap but it is sunny out, as I look out toward Morrisville (kind of northeast) I see spectacular clouds so I think what I am going to do is take my camera and ride out to the notch and take pics. Not working at the resto tonight (Todd is). Think I need to be alone or something.

Hope your afternoon goes well and talk tonight sometime, if not email back when you can! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo love you maura k

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Rita Pressley LeDoux wrote on your Wall...

2008-08-16T06:41:00.000-07:00

From: "Facebook" (wallmaster+kabrkg2x@facebookmail.com)
To: "Maura Ann Kelly" (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
Date: Friday, August 15, 2008 12:00 PM
Subject: Rita Pressley LeDoux wrote on your Wall...

Rita wrote on your Wall:

"Awwwwww whatsamatter???? What don't we GET, Mauramodel????
xo Senorita"

To see your Wall or to write on Rita's Wall, follow the link below:
http://www.facebook.com/n/?profile.php&id=1231110358#wall

Thanks,
The Facebook Team

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Status update: Maura Ann Kelly is...

2008-08-16T06:36:00.001-07:00

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Re2: howdy dr p

2008-08-14T06:57:00.000-07:00

From: "Carmen McRae Sanchez" (raesancheztralala@yahoo.com)
To: "Brian Pressley" (brianpressley14@aol.com)
Date: Thursday, August 14, 2008 9:42 am
Subject: Re: re: howdy dr p

ok dr p, well every time we talk or u send me a msg, there is 1 THING u say that gets me thinkin n realizin... n this time that 1 thing was n i quoth:

When I started out, incidentally, my answer was I DON'T KNOW! I AM DOING THIS TO FIND OUT!!!

this
shit! how do i turn the itals off??? im hittin the slanty i button n still its on. ok, good, i didnt want this 2 b an email ABOUT email, i have ISSUES to discuss n the sun's up, its gettin hot out, i play at the restaurant 2nite.

I AM A BUSY IMPORTANT PERSON AND MY TIME IS VALUABLE!!!!!!!!! goddammit haha

ne way THIS (or THAT) what u said is exactly how i feel.................

i do NOT know what i want, what "direction i wanna go," what "i wanna do with it." mainly just wanna go deeper in2 it n find out. bcuz what i've done (take a few classes, take lessons, play gigs) aint enough. its fun but its not enough, it just makes me wanna do MORE. makes me wanna delve in2 it n SEE WHAT the direction is.

i feel like theres some way i need 2 go that i haven't seen yet.

long ago figured out that whatever i wanted 2 do, fucking around playing gigs in smelly clubs or even sanitized clean tourist restaurants wasnt it, or wasnt ALL of it. its SOME of it. teaching is SOME of it. composition is SOME of it.

i havent put the pieces together. want to explore it n see what the pieces ARE.

and its like u n yr wifey say: it aint trade school. part of doing school IS to find out what u wanna do. one reason y i took 6 yrs 2 get a degree that shouldve taken me 4.

or 3 since i am a genius haha.

so just that little thing u wrote made me realize..... i felt kinda funny about it, hesitant 2 take th next step n go this fall like i really want 2 bcuz part of me doesnt know where 2 begin.

but yr saying there's nothing wrong w goin into it not knowing.

still think im goin 2 take the fall off, its been a long 6 years n i wanna have more of a vaca.

plus th chad factor, yes i admit, this is a factor. love th asshole n would love 2 be closer 2 him even if we r "just friends." just dont know if i wanna move 2 fucking MAINE. would be easier if he'd move down again so i could go 2 peabody or temple or someplace like that. miss palling around w him.

he'll learn.

but no contact recently, no. keep thinkin hell (hell, haha, theres a great one, i mean he will) send me an email or facebook me but no. n i dont wanna be th 1 2 contact him. n hes prob up there thinkin 'i dont wanna be th 1 2 contact her.' so no idea what hes up2 .

have his snail addy n will maybe send him a postcard.

or maybe not.

so part of th decision is a kind of WAIT AND SEE w him. im not much of a wait n see person, im more of a MAKE IT HAPPEN person. but got tired of slapping him around. n then of course when i really NEEDED him he tra la la'd off.

so n e way....

love th offer 2 come sleep over camp out whatever, labor day it will NOT be happening but maybe th week AFTER labor day, once "the offseason" has started n before im really NEEDED where im gonna be working. i of course am caretaker n so have 2 stay on during th week but on weekends theyll b here so............

its fucking 9:41 n im indoors. no more of this!!!!!

thx for yr email, it made me think n realize n feel better about feeling stuck, which i realize im not as much as i thought i was!!!!!

so over and out for now.... this is CARMEN MCRAE SANCHEZ about to go out into the bright sunny cape may day.........................................

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Re: Thanks mom!

2008-08-14T05:24:00.000-07:00

From: "Christine Kelly-Morone" (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: "Maura Kelly" (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
Date: Thursday, August 14, 2008 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: Thanks mom!

HI sweetie, I loved talking to you, loved having the phone ring in the car and see it was you, of course first thought when it rings that early is that there's some kind of an emergency but I know you know I'm just up now. This is my ME time, Marty's not up yet, Maggie's either not up or she's up looking at books or playing in her room. After 8 or so is when the shit hits the fan, so yeah, 4:30-8 is the time to call.

I always want to talk to you sweetie so never hesitate.

So as for you and Todd, I know that you guys need privacy to discuss adult things, finances, etc, lol, yeah, that's tricky.

Honey let me give you a different perspective. How did YOU feel when I was seeing Marty (or Brian for that matter those few months we were back in Gettysburg??)?? This will give you a clue to how to act, what to do around TOdd's kids, what THEY might be feeling. That's the answer to "You must've run into something like that." Of course I did but I was the one with the family, Marty was the one who was used to his independence and coming INTO the instant famly as you put it. I know he felt a little awkward, wanted you to like him etc etc.

The privacy thing, well, I can't speak to that, since as you know when Marty and I got married I was still a virgin on our wedding night lol.

Seriously I get exactly what you're saying sweetie. You are used to seeing Todd, being with Todd in a certain way, you want to enjoy that part of him and you two together WITHOUT kids. But honey it's not going to happen, he is a dad, he comes with the kids, he cares for them deeply and puts them first, and part of what you love about him after all IS that he is a dad, just as the part of him that is a dad loves the part of you that is fiercely independent.

Sounds to me like the way you described it that the physical space (their rooms on the upstairs floor, his room down on the second) makes privacy easier. At least if you two are together you do not have to worry about them hearing you move around through the wall or the ceiling if you know what I mean. But yeah it's not YOUR space and you can't drift around naked from room to room with your coffee, the kids are there and you have to deal with them, as you will have to deal with them if you two decide to take it further.

They LIKE you right? And you like them?

Sounds to me like you just want to have sleepovers at your place. In which case I say make it easier for Todd, if you want to have him over then find a sitter and pay for the sitter. But even withut doing that you can find ways around this. They have just moved to town so probably do not have friends there yet they can do things with. Dropping them at the library or at a movie or stuff will give you guys a couple hours. Come on Maura, you remember all the "activities" you had going, friends you did things with at night etc etc. You think Marty and I were sitting reading the bible while you were out?? These are little windows that will give you opportunities for togetherness even if the only togetherness you get is sitting and having a cup of coffee or watching tv etc, doing something where you are you two and not FOUR.

Keep in mind too that SCHOOL STARTS in less than three weeks, they will be there during the day. That means you and Todd will have your days free. He can come over to your place in the morning and you discuss finances and adult things till you're blue in the face, lol. School years have a different feel and flow to them than summer days do. As much as I am sad that Maggie is going off to pre-K half days this year, there's also a part of me that is singing Handel because that will give me four hours every morning where I will have the house to myself, will be able to get stuff done, catch up on things, work a couple mornings at the Y, and THEN when she comes home it will be all the more sweet.

With Todd's kids (still love his son's name, Neil Young) a lot of it right now is that they are new to town and living in what sounds like kind of a remote area, so Todd has to be involved with them, plus like I said it's their summer vacation but more than that it's a NEW HOME for them and they need him to feel safe, grounded, etc.

Probably need YOU too, like I said think about how you felt when I started seeing Marty. How did you feel about moving up here from Gettysburg (a year after we'd moved down THERE from State College?), how did you feel about me seeing this man, how did you feel about him? Did you want him to like you, did you like that I loved him and that he loved me, were you happy for me, jealous, angry, etc etc? Think about those things, remember how they felt to you, and that will give you a key to how they feel and how to handle all these things.

I don't think you're being whiny or selfish WANTING privacy and to be with him "without the kids." You had that and you miss it. And now that they're there, you're just going to have to take it when you can get it, find ways.

Best advice as Margo Pressley would put it would be to JUST FLOW WITH IT. Flow with it and love him and love them, BE PATIENT and realize that as their new lives in their new home unfold and they start meeting other kids and doing other things, stuff will happen.

And be glad he lives in a place where the kids rooms are on one floor and you two are on another, lol. Remember that place we had around the corner from our house now? Your room right outside mine and connected actually by the bathroom? That was a logistical nightmare when Marty would come over. And we just learned to "talk quietly."

I get what you're saying though, you want him to be over there with you. Be patient and find ways to make it happen, sweetie, it will.

Marty is up and now downstairs asking me why there's no coffee. Why it's around the corner at unimart, lol.

Difference between summer and band-football season: in summer, it's "Chris, you want some coffee?" In fall it's "Chris, where's the coffee?"

I probably should have started it but I wanted a cup of tea. He doesn't have to leave the house for another hour, he can get it going. Then I can ask HIM where it is.

I'm going to log off and go discuss adult things with my husband lol. Love talking to you sweetie, I'm glad you feel like you can talk to me, I miss you, so great to hear your voice and more than that to feel like I can help you through things, at least I hope I do.

Thinking of you and chat later I hope! xoxoxoxoxoxo love you mom

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Todd and etc etc etc

2008-08-13T07:29:00.000-07:00

From: "Maura Kelly" (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: "Rita Pressley LeDoux" (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Wednesday, August 13, 2008 5:49 AM
Subject: Todd and etc etc etc

Hi Rita. Just talked to MOM, I was up at 4 working on some prints, knew she'd be up and in the car at around 4:45 running to the pool to do her swim, so called her and we chatted a little bit.

BRB

OK, I was going to type you a long email about all this but TODD just called, wanted to know if I wanted to "sneak out and have an early breakfast." I am wondering if that means breakfast or BREAKFAST??? Anyway he's coming over, going to meet me at 6, I guess the kids are in bed. So I will just paste in what I wrote mom. We can talk later. Got some prints done and don't know if he means ACTUAL breakfast but if he does, that's good because I am hungry, if he means "breakfast" then that is good too because then I will be HUNGRIER

So talk later, I'm out!

OH! Did Tony start football practices yet? I saw an article on the front of the paper the other day, they've already started up here. Thought of him. Tell him hi, kiss Dannydan for me. xoxoxoxoxoxo love you maura k

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Thanks mom!

2008-08-13T07:26:00.000-07:00

From: "Maura Kelly" (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: christyswims@yahoo.com
Date: Wednesday, August 13, 2008 5:43 AM
Subject: Thanks mom!

I knew you'd be in the car!!!! Yeah, I was up working, just did a couple prints, some cloud pictures I took last week. Went a couple days ago up to Burlington and bought paper and some chemicals I needed and now feel like I can print print print print print again. But wanted to call, just feel a little bad like I said about how things are shaking out since TOdd moved. We spend time together but it's not like it's him and me alone, the kids are a much bigger factor. When he was down in WRJ his parents watched them and he stayed with me, we'd have alone time. Now it's trickier, he can't come over to MY place and stay unless he has a sitter for them, and as I type this part of me can't believe I'm telling you this. WOuld you have told your mom this? But I don't feel funny telling you these things, I know you care and I know you just want me to be happy.

So it's hard to get any privacy with him and I was NOT counting on the kids being such a big part of the mix. And don't get me wrong, I like Neil and Nikki, they're sweethearts, they love me and we all get along. But if I go over there I know that they're going to be there and it makes certain situations a little awkward if you know what I mean. I'm starting to feel weird about it around them you know??

Love Todd and do not want to feel like his kids get in the way, he comes with them so if I am going to be with him, I am going to be with them. Which of course brings up a question I push from my mind as soon as it comes up, do I WANT to be with him or not? Answer is that I want to be with HIM but not sure I want an instant family you know???

So how does that work?? You must've run into something like that.

Anyway I'm glad we talked and I'm sorry if I made you late for your swim. I know how I get (got) when I swam, wanted to be there right at 5 when the pool opened and snag my favorite lane (sounds stupid but I don't like swimming against a wall), get my laps done before everyone came in so I could be OUT of there as they were stumbling in in a trance before work.

So I'm glad you took a few minutes and talked to me and I hope we talk more later.

Saw your facebook status and had to put on mine that I haven't even been watching the olympics, first of all no tv here, well I have a tv but the ONE station I get doesn't get the olympics, but also just am out of touch with stuff like that. But can't believe I'm not really even interested or curious. Todd had it on and the four of us (see??) were watching it the other day but it might as well have been an old movie. Gymnastics, yeah, they're in great shape, but I was just killing time. Would rather have been out DOING something.

Anyway, talk later. I love you mom. Thanks for chatting and give Maggie a kiss and Marty a hug for me! xoxoxoxoxo maura

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2008-08-13T07:21:00.000-07:00

From: "brianpressley14@aol.com" (brianpressley14@aol.com)
To: raesancheztralala@yahoo.com
Date: Tuesday, August 12, 2008 8:29 PM
Subject: Re: howdy dr p

Hey my one and only!!! It must be late October because I'm writing you back, haha.

Sorry we weren't home but late July-early August is our time up at Margo's parents' cottage. It is the perfect setting, the perfect place for decompressing... for swimming in fresh water and boating and stargazing and midnight swims and sitting on the porch watching the sunset and drinking Canadian beer (my favorite: Unibroue, I think it's called... let's do a google and see... yeah, that's it... try and find some Blanche de Chambly, which I cannot pronounce, and which of course Wifey just lets me butcher and LAUGHS at me instead of saying "No, sweetie, it's blahsnh-deh-shahm-blee," which is what the Unibroue website says, and why IT can help me with my French and my wife CAN'T, the world will never know, except to add that Margo's MOM does the same thing to her DAD, her meaning MARGO and not Margo's MOM, or in other words Mrs. LeDoux does the same thing to Mr. LeDoux, which is: just let him butcher the francais and then laugh at him.

But I digress.)

Anyway, now that I'm on facebook, I don't find it any more useful than the pages I have at the college, which is to say I don't find any advantage to it over email, and I CERTAINLY don't find it "addictive," don't see what people find addictive about it... it IS kind of cool to see little blurbs about what everyone's up to... kind of.

But I like my contact to be a little more substantive than that.

Which leads me to your visit when we weren't home... I'm sorry we weren't here. If you need to talk, call my cell... now that I'm back in the states and not out of range (no roaming charges in Canada on my pay as you go phone; just no service!) I can talk. If I don't pick up, leave a message and let me know when's a good time to call you back. You know me; I don't always pick up, but I always call back.

I can see why you are staying on at the beach through the fall. I did the same thing after my senior year... did I tell you that? Except my beach was Ocean City NJ. Sounds like a good gig. Can't wait to hear more.

Now....you're not thrilled with your options... what are those options at the moment? Maine, right? Southern Maine? To be near Chad. (Admit it.) (Have you heard from Stu Sutton lately?)

Where else? Temple... runs in my mind you told me Temple. I know Ray McClure there... he'd talk to you.

Where else??

I guess the biggy though is: which direction do you want to take this, Rae, is what I'm wondering? Jazz studies? Music ed? Music therapy perhaps? What are you thinking of doing with it once you get out? AGGGGHHHH! I hate that question. But think about it and answer it honestly. I'm not trying to push you to give a practical answer ("I'm going to get my Doctorate and get a cushy university job and get tenure and stay there with benefits forever and ever and ever")... I'm just trying to get you to visualize where you see yourself with it in five years, ten years, twenty years? What do you want to do with music?

When I started out, incidentally, my answer was I DON'T KNOW! I AM DOING THIS TO FIND OUT!!! Which drove my mom and dad nuts. But from the little I know you, I'm guessing that this isn't factoring into your decision, is it?

Listen: I know you probably have to work Labor Day weekend and all, but if you want to cruise to Gettysburg again and stay the night here with us, you're welcome to. If it's still kind of warm out, camping out with Becca in the clubhouse is fun (she said "Tell Rae there are no bats out there anymore!" I hate to tell her this, but I can't guarantee that...) and of course we have a guest room too. Then we could all talk this over. Talking to Margo might help too. I mean, she does get PAID for this sort of thing (albeit helping high school students... but she knows schools and also is good at picking peoples' brains and getting them to think things over in ways they didn't before.

Think about it, Sanchez.

In any case, I'm sending you positive vibes for CLARITY and again CALL CALL CALL and if you want, visit and we'll chew it over in person.

Hard to believe it is just 8:22 and I'm ready for bed, but... it's 8:22 and I'm ready for bed.

I think I know the place in Cape May of which you speak, where you can see the tide through the floorboards. Or am I thinking of a place in Ocean City (Bob's Grill? Or Taylor Pork Roll? Or Mack and Manco? I'm getting myself confused in my tiredness...).

Just occurred to me: are you sure you wanna stay there through the fall??? Or are you perchance delaying something?

THat's all out of me. I'm gonna log off this here computer. Hope we can talk soon and I can help you work this through. Take it easy and keep in touch, here or there or on the phone or something... and I'm serious about the invite. Think it over.

Later Sanchez! :-) Brian, aka Dr P

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Last night here

2008-08-13T07:13:00.000-07:00

From: "ledoux67@aol.com" (ledoux67@aol.com)
To: christyswims@yahoo.com
Date: Sunday, August 10, 2008 9:50 PM
Subject: Last night here

She would NOT go to bed, Christy... hence the bodyslam, as mentioned on facebook, lmaao. We were laughing the whole time but I slammed her onto the mattress and said GO TO SLEEP NOW!!!!!!!!!

She doesn't wanna go hommmmme.... I mean, I don't want to leave either, but tomorrow at 7 am we wanna be on the road, heading south... and if she doesn't sleep tonight, she'll... uhhh... sleep in the car...

Be right back, lmaaaao.

No, it's been a full busy day... she's asleep and I'm about to join her. We are heading south tomorrow AWAY FROM THE RAIN!!! Never glad to leave opinicon but the last week was brutal rainy... and the worst thing was, it was rainy days punctuated by nice warm bright clear blue days, where you'd feel like WOO HOO! SWIMMING! but the rain water made the lake ICE COLD!!!!!

Of course, being used to that refrigerated pond also known as Laurel Lake, Becca was in the drink every day... I think if we'd let her go down in the rain, she would of done that. But there was also lightning, which doesn't bode well.

So the last two weeks were fun, but damn! Too... much... f...n... rain!

And going back of course means we are getting closer to the start of school. I have this week and two days next week and then it's back into the air conditioned warehouse we call the high school for inservice... then before we know it, the kids will be back.

WHy does it feel like we hardly had a summer??

Of course, I've been saying that since kindergarten, lmaaao.

Christy... I am TIRED but since tomorrow we will be on the road early and I know you get up and check your email early, I figured I'd fire one off to you before I hit the sack. Then we can yammer when we cross into the states... we want to leave at 7, but if I know us, seven will turn to eight then nine, and we'll be hitting the road after yunch, lmaaao.

Yawwwwwn... nighty nighty night... xoxoxoxoxo me!!

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howdy dr p

2008-08-13T06:38:00.000-07:00

From: Carmen McRae Sanchez (raesancheztralala@yahoo.com)
To: brianpressley14@aol.com
Date: Saturday, August 9, 2008 7:42 PM
Subject: howdy dr p

i would b willing 2 put $ down on when u read this, let alone respond. my guess=oct 28 lol.

tis i carmen mcrae sanchez, not working on a sat nite so i spread th joy 2 u.

so CANADA. yr in canada! guess that was why when i stalked u earlier this week u were not home lol. see i called n left msg at yr home, tried yr cell n got a weird message ('th user of this number is currently out of range' WHERE in th fuck is out of range ne more thought i? well where u r, in canada. NE way...) but remembered u n yr wifey said jest stop in if yr in the neighborhood, figured id just pop by n if u were not home leave a note, which i did. but i could tell as soon as i pulled in yr driveway u were not at home n prob not just at th lake or out 4 groceries, on vaca.

ne way then pop online 2 email u n a msg from yr wifey telling me 2 check out her facebook acct, but i cannot get in2 my facebook acct becuz FUCKING GETTYSBURG COLLEGE CLOSED MY FUCKING ACCOUNT DUE TO FUCKING INACTIVITY is that a conundrum or an oxymoron??? fucking facebook is ABOUT inactivity lol.

ne way went online n created a new account n again a message came up, margo pressley wants 2 add u as a friend. that was right magnanimous of her lol.

so we are friends n i need to build my friend list up from zero. so friend me. i so need friends lol.

th news here is that i am staying on thru jan. or dec n e way. found a bed n brek that needs help 4 fall after labor day, open sept oct and then in nov dec closed so they need an onsite caretaker.

free housing plus salary. not bad.

i basically provide a body inna house during th week in offseason n then help out during weekends.

BIG PIANO and a pump organ which will be rockin during the week!!!!!

love it here n it will give me a couple months 2 figure out th next move, not happy w my options as we discussed.

damn was really hoping u would be home when i came back, wanted 2 c u in person n talk 2 u about this all, get some face time. we will need 2 talk on phone so get ready.

i need icecream, ran on th beach this morning n have been hungry ever since, may go to that little grill on the boards, u sit in yr seat n can look down thru the slats at the tide coming in underneath. love it love it here.

call when u get back 2 th states or email me, friend me, sumpn.

i remain yr one n only..............

CARMEN MCRAE SANCHEZ!!!!!!

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Re: Check out my Facebook profile

2008-08-13T06:37:00.000-07:00

From: "Carmen McRae Sanchez" (raesancheztralala@yahoo.com)
To: "Margo Pressley" (ledoux67@aol.com)
CC: brianpressley14@aol.com
Date: Saturday, August 9, 2008 6:55 PM
Subject: Re: Check out my Facebook profile

lol ok wifey ill join, nuthin better 2do on a sat nite at the beach haha.

hay where R U guyz? wuz back in gburg earlier this week n stopped up since thats what u said 2 do if i wuz ever in th hood. called n no reply, drove out n place looked like u r on vaca. n when i called yr hubs cell got this weird "out of range" message.

r u in canada? maybe ill cruise on up n visit lol

NE way ill email him but if hes like he is when not on vaca wont hold my breath.

pretty cool nite in cape may. what m i doin indoors??????

talk soon and ill facebook ya. bet yr hub doesnt join in the fun. n tell yr girl HI from the punk rocker!

signed sincerely
rae sanchez the first!!!!!

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Check out my Facebook profile

2008-08-13T06:35:00.000-07:00

From: Margo Pressley
Subject: Check out my Facebook profile
To: "raesancheztralala" (raesancheztralala@yahoo.com)
Date: Thursday, August 7, 2008, 10:30 AM

facebook

Margo Pressley has:

3 friends
2 wall posts
2 groups

Check out my Facebook profile

I set up a Facebook profile where I can post my pictures, videos and events and I want to add you as a friend so you can see it. First, you need to join Facebook! Once you join, you can also create your own profile.

Thanks,
Margo

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Re2: Argument

2008-08-13T06:34:00.000-07:00

From: "Maura Kelly" (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: "Rita Pressley LeDoux" (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com
Date: Friday, August 8, 2008 9:26 PM
Subject: Re: Re: Argument

God, someone must've noticed the butt pic, as Todd calls it, I got friended by some guy in New Orleans, he's a photographer. Fortunately I don't have to friend HIM, not going to.

What are you supposed to do on Facebook? Nothing really. Just update your status, join groups, waste time at work, lol.

Speaking of which, I was really bummin out that I was not working with Todd tonight, used to like our Friday nights together but lately dingdong has been scheduling me Thurs-Sat-Sun, which is ok, I get two big dinner nights and my Fridays free, but Todd works Mon-Wed-Fri-Sat nights so we don't get to work together except Sat night. Miss him since we kissed and made up and was sort of bummed about that, well I got in the car and drove out to the market to get a cappucino before they closed and Rita the clouds were AMAZING, just freaking unbelieveably cool. It wasn't FOG, but the clouds were literally hanging over the treetops and the fields, some places I drove by the clouds were suspended 20 yards or less above the ground, looked like they were coming up OUT of the ground.

So cool and of course I ran right home for my SRT, took two rolls of film, developed the negs and will scan them and send a few along later. IF I get to it before I run to see Todd, who will be done sometime between 10-11.

HA! He just called, Dingdong went home at 9:15 ("Did she say good night? No.") and he said come down to the resto if I want a shift meal. No, not hungry, lol, forget it. No actually I'll go down and see him and the girls and sit and have a glass of vino with them while they eat, clean up, fold napkins etc etc, then ride to his place with him.

So I'm off. You'll get those pics when you get them, lol. xoxoxoxo love you maura k!!

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Re: Argument

2008-08-13T06:33:00.000-07:00

From: "Rita Pressley LeDoux" (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
To: "Maura Kelly" (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
Date: Wednesday, August 6, 2008 10:32 AM
Subject: Re: Argument

"I want him but I want ME too." And what's wrong with that??? Nothing, but that's the big problem I ran into with Tony... feeling like I was expected to JUST want him and us and put ME aside. And sounds like what you're running into with Toddytodd: it's not that he doesn't want you to do what you want, it's that you THINK he doesn't want you to do what you want. RIght?

But also, face it Mauramodel: moving DOES suck and it puts you in this stressed overwhelmed frame of mind for weeks leading up to and days after, and especially DURING. And who can blame you for wanting to just GET AWAY from that???

I don't. So by extension, neither should he!

ANyhoo.... glad you talked and had a little roll in the hay once you finally got it out.

As for the other deeper stuff you were saying... I dunno if it "means" that you really don't want to be involved with him. I mean, how DO you feel now that he's closer with his kids and not "away" half the week? Didn't sound to me like you had any problem with it.

Sometimes honey, I mean I love you like a sister and all , but sometimes honey you just THINK TOO MUCH. As we all do. But trust your gut. You want to be with him, you be with him.... you want to back off, you back off. You love him, you tell him. This is what I hear you saying and doing and feeling. Why take it that extra step and think that if you're doing something, that it REALLY means that you feel deep down something ELSE that's not being expressed? What you REALLY want and REALLY need gets expressed in your actions, right??????

Not that you won't have doubts fears worries etc etc etc. I still do and I'm HAPPILY MARRIED WITH A BABY BOY!!!! And I AM happily married with a baby boy, happy to be a mom. But that doesn't mean that sometimes I don't want to drive far far far away from (on alternate days) Tonybaloney or Dannydan or both. So just because you're with someone you love doesn't mean that you're always going to have things perfect. But one thing you have going for you... ok, make that TWO things you have going for you. One is that you don't have any trouble backing off and speaking up and taking time for yourself when you need it. Two is that HE understands that you need that and doesn't hold it against you. (OK, just this weekend, but that was the exception to the rule. I think you two figured that one out.) I think we are both lucky that way.

I am actually here at the cafe, sucking down a grapefruit izze... worked from 6-10 this morning. Tonybaloney and Dannydan are walking over here; he's running a little late.

And there he is, so................ sayonara for now.

AWWWWWW... you should've seen it! Dannydan was sitting in his stroller looking through the window at me, waving.... big big big big big big smile. Now he is at the counter with Tony, looking over his shoulder... gotta go gotta go gotta go.

I am in love!!!

Talk later Mauramodel... working at the warehouse tomorrow PM fyi!

Love
Senorita! and in line ordering hot chocolate and a muffin, Tonybaloney and Dannydan

P.S. WHat should I do on facebook anyway??? And what do your mom-Todd-TODD'S KIDS think of your pic? That was the only thing I wondered. Aside from "God, she's bolder than I am, putting one of those pics up..." Made me want to change my picture to me in an anorak and sunglasses

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Argument

2008-08-13T06:30:00.000-07:00

From: "Maura Kelly" (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: "Rita Pressley LeDoux" (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Tuesday, August 5, 2008 9:03 PM
Subject: Argument

Yeah it was really lousy and tiring, but at least we stayed up till we got it all out, made love really nice afterwards, but still Rita I just feel lately like I want to be to myself. He is working tonight and I could do what I did last night and go over there, watch the kids, be waiting naked in his bed when he gets home, but I don't feel like it, feel like keeping to myself.

And it's not that he doesn't want me to, he does and I can't get used to that, and then Saturday night was the one time that he wanted me there and I just felt like I needed to get away.

I think what he said is mainly right though, moving is hard and we didn't make it any easier did we? No.

Sigh.

Still feel guilty when I decide to take off on my own, I don't like that feeling.

Anyway not getting anything done tonight. Went down to the market for dinner late, around 6:30, Todd's friend who's name I still don't know, he's bald and a writer, anyway he was working with two college guys and they had Boston and Bruce Springsteen blasting loud on the radio. One of the kids spilled a big flat pack of blueberrys inside the door bringing them inside to the cooler. He started sweeping them up and I said NO NO STOP STOP! LET ME PICK THROUGH THOSE! Got about a pint of berries that were fine, they just had to be rinsed off. Also got penne salad and some St Andre cheese, really nice, soft and buttery. And a six of Harpoon Cider, and lightweight me, I had ONE and then cracked open a second KNOWING that it'd be too much and I'd be under the table, wouldn't finish it. And I was right, there it sits.

SIgh.

I am glad that Todd is no longer down in WRJ, I hated him having to make that drive every night, worried about him making the drive. Also always felt like when he stayed here it was a treat, something special. And now he just lives across town, it's almost too easy. He lives on the second floor of this place, Neil and Nikki's rooms are upstairs and so we have privacy if we want it.

I don't know. I can't figure me out. I want him but I want ME too. You know???

Anyway thanks for talking through all of this with me this afternoon, know you go to bed early when you work at the cafe Weds so don't want to call again. But typing it makes me see it clearer too.

I am kind of drunk and am going to bed. NOT going to drive over there. (Maybe!)

Later Senorita. xoxoxoxoxoxo love you maura k

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Monday nite at Todd's, so peaceful here

2008-08-13T06:28:00.000-07:00

From: "Maura Kelly" (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: "Rita Pressley LeDoux" (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Monday, August 4, 2008 8:37 PM
Subject: Monday nite at Todd's, so peaceful here

Wow Rita, did Todd hit the jackpot with this place. Renting the second floor of this house out on Worcester Rd, which is north of town off of Mansfield View Rd, which I know means nothing to you, lol. No it IS north of Stowe, I live WEST of town on Mountain Rd, on the money funnel as Todd calls it, and I like where I am but I live above a resto and also on the main road between Stowe and the resort, so there is TRAFFIC all the time. But his house is on a wooded lot, so I am right now sitting on the porch of his place, looking over the woods, totally quiet except for crickets and some birds calling back and forth. If you listen very closely you can hear very very distant traffic but it's nothing like what you hear at my place.

He is working tonight and Nikki and Neil are home, I am babysitting them so to speak although really I don't need to do anything, Nikki is reading a book and Neil is watching the Red Sox game. I think, at least that's what he SAID he was going to do.

Their dad will be home by 10:30 or so but by then they will be in bed. And even though we had that stupid fight Sat night I will prob wait in HIS bed for HIM to get home. Miss him and love him and feel pretty sure that it was just us being tired from the day, all the work and kind of taking it out on each other. He called yest to say he was sorry, I was still pissed at him and did not pick up, got the message last nite and called him, HE was pissed that I didn't pick up earlier, so we didn't see each other last nite, then this morning he calls and says "I guess you aren't going to come over and watch Nikki and Neil for me tonight are you?" And I said "Todd just because you piss me off doesn't mean I became an asshole, of course I'll be there."

And when I came the kids were both here and we didn't say much of anything, he hugged me and we bumped lips like a fighting married couple. And he went off to the resto.

Could text him and say I'm sorry or call him but want him to say it first, prob he wants me to say it to HIM first too. And it could go on a long time as you know, but what will prob happen is that he'll come into the place, the lights will be out, those two will be in bed and I will be waiting for him, he'll take off his clothes and slip into the covers and we'll get all close and warm and kiss and whichever one can say it first will say we're sorry (him lol) and that will get the ball rolling and then we'll have a nice makeup screw and it'll all be good.

I have thought a little bit about moving in here with him, there's plenty of room but I like my place, like my privacy, like my autonomy (is that the right word?). LIKE MY DARKROOM and like living on the rec path so I can walk bike rollerblade snowshoe xc ski etc into town. So prob not. But I HAVE thought about it.

And I am getting eaten alive by skeeters so I am going inside, gonna browse around on facebook, maybe recrop my profile pic so my WHOLE butt is showing, lol.

Know you're busy but call when you get a chance, I miss you! xoxoxoxoxo love you maura k

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Instant message

2008-07-30T07:11:00.000-07:00

christyswims@yahoo.com (6:53:03 AM): Knock knock!!!
Ledoux67 (6:56:20 AM): Ahhhhh, whaddaYOU want???
christyswims@yahoo.com (6:56:47 AM): lol, I'm up and back from swimming, checking my email and saw you were online.
christyswims@yahoo.com (6:56:55 AM): Did you swim yet?
Ledoux67 (6:57:04 AM): Amazingly no
christyswims@yahoo.com (6:57:14 AM): lol
Ledoux67 (6:57:34 AM): unless you count going in the drink last night after dark
christyswims@yahoo.com (6:57:48 AM): starlight?
Ledoux67 (6:58:26 AM): no actually hazy and very very cold. but we'd polished off that bottle of wine and it seemed like a good idea
christyswims@yahoo.com (6:58:55 AM): yeah, we recommend that at the y all the time, get drunk and then take a dip in a dark lake on a cold night, lol
Ledoux67 (6:59:38 AM): hahahaha
Ledoux67 (6:59:47 AM): bitch
christyswims@yahoo.com (6:59:55 AM): lol
Ledoux67 (7:00:32 AM): sorry i'm delayed here... mom made muffins and i've got butter all over my fingers...
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:00:44 AM): mmmmmmm... what kind???
Ledoux67 (7:01:04 AM): just melted butter... the kind that you get at a store
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:01:08 AM): lol
Ledoux67 (7:01:25 AM): but cereally folks....
Ledoux67 (7:01:35 AM): raisin bran muffins
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:01:41 AM): kaboom!
Ledoux67 (7:02:03 AM): haha... that's what dad said but you know they don't affect me that way.
Ledoux67 (7:02:21 AM): Brian either.
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:02:24 AM): What about Brian?
Ledoux67 (7:02:54 AM): I said BRIAN EITHER!!!
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:02:58 AM): We crossed!! lol
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:03:23 AM): they don't affect me that way either, hot coffee on the other hand
Ledoux67 (7:03:39 AM): yeah, tell me about it.
Ledoux67 (7:03:59 AM): brb... I have to run to the head...
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:04:12 AM): lol
Ledoux67 (7:11:47 AM): Back!
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:11:56 AM): Oh so you weren't kidding??
Ledoux67 (7:12:12 AM): No.... kaBOOOOM!!!
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:12:20 AM): lol
Ledoux67 (7:12:50 AM): No, I just peed but also was talking to mom... she says HI!
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:13:00 AM): Hi Fran!
Ledoux67 (7:13:24 AM): Allo christykelly morone!
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:13:35 AM): is that you Fran??
Ledoux67 (7:13:59 AM): ouais! how are you??
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:14:29 AM): good, just got back from swimming and enjoying the quiet house for a little bit.
Ledoux67 (7:14:41 AM): doyou want a mufin?
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:14:52 AM): lol sure, send me one.
Ledoux67 (7:15:18 AM): it might be stale by the time youget it.
Ledoux67 (7:15:31 AM): how is maggie? and marty?
Ledoux67 (7:15:40 AM): how are lmoa
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:17:08 AM): lol, good, Maggie's a handful, can't believe she is starting pre-k this fall, I've been sad about that, Marty meanwhile has already started with the band, he's in there all morning and all night and some afternoons. so it feels like fall has already begun.
Ledoux67 (7:18:23 AM): marguerite said
it is hardto say them go off to school, hard to see them grown older, i creied all day when jompaw went off since he was my youngest, felt like his childhood had ended
Ledoux67 (7:18:42 AM): when marguerite went we had a party
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:18:51 AM): lol
Ledoux67 (7:18:57 AM): lmoa
Ledoux67 (7:19:30 AM): and how is maura the swimgirl???
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:20:04 AM): happy, busy every time i call, working at work plus working on her photography and seeing this guy she really likes
Ledoux67 (7:20:18 AM): i heard about him, todd the difl
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:20:39 AM): lol, i just sprayed coffee on the screen
Ledoux67 (7:21:13 AM): sorry
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:21:24 AM): is this really fran??
Ledoux67 (7:21:50 AM): ouais it is, do you wanto ask me a secret question?
Ledoux67 (7:22:29 AM): marguerite is standing overmyshoulder and laughing at my typing, she just told me what dilf is
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:22:43 AM): are you shocked???
Ledoux67 (7:23:02 AM): i will wait to see a picture of this boy and then let you know
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:23:08 AM): lol
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:24:11 AM): he's a nice guy, 32 yo, two kids, sweet guy and really loves maura and encourages her to do her photography, etc etc.
Ledoux67 (7:24:42 AM): what is yo??
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:25:35 AM): he's moving into an apt this weekend nearer to her because his kids were in school down south in the state, he was basically living with his parents but now that they are more serious they want to be closer and maura says he was kind of looking for an excuse to move anyway, so
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:25:51 AM): yo = "years old" 32 years old.
Ledoux67 (7:26:06 AM): ahhhhh so she is datring an older man!!!!!
Ledoux67 (7:26:19 AM): exotic, so in character
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:26:40 AM): yeah lol I didn't think of it like that but yeah.
Ledoux67 (7:27:06 AM): she is so mature she always seems to me like she would be the older one in any couple
Ledoux67 (7:27:32 AM): i am giving you back to marguerite, the busser just went off and more muffins coming out
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:27:48 AM): lol ok, nice talking to you.
Ledoux67 (7:28:01 AM): je t'aime christy!!!
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:28:19 AM): aww thank you, je t'aime to you too mrs. ledoux!!!!!
Ledoux67 (7:28:58 AM): SHE TYPED DIFL CHRISTY hahahahahaha
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:29:17 AM): lol stop making fun of your mom, she got up to make you muffins!!
Ledoux67 (7:29:28 AM): we were laughing so hard here!
Ledoux67 (7:29:50 AM): I said "Mom when you make a mistake why don't you go back and fix it?"
Ledoux67 (7:30:07 AM): "ohhh she knows what I mean, is not worth it"
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:30:33 AM): i love your mom
Ledoux67 (7:30:48 AM): yeah me too:-)
Ledoux67 (7:31:27 AM): she always says you're like her second daughter
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:31:32 AM): awwwww that's nice
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:31:49 AM): that's why I say don't make fun of her
Ledoux67 (7:32:07 AM): what and let her just go make that crack about the party???
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:32:16 AM): lol
Ledoux67 (7:32:33 AM): she just types that stuff because i'm sitting here.
Ledoux67 (7:32:41 AM): and MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:32:49 AM): what??
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:33:10 AM): warm muffin???8-)
Ledoux67 (7:33:26 AM): HOT muffin
Ledoux67 (7:33:43 AM): so hot I almost can't handle it....
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:33:56 AM): mmmmmmmm
Ledoux67 (7:34:11 AM): wow... talk about kaboom...i'm gonna have to swim with a depends on.
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:34:24 AM): lol
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:35:00 AM): I still haven't had breakfast, maggie and i usually walk to the bakery after daddy leaves
Ledoux67 (7:35:21 AM): Well, tell him to get the hell outta the house!
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:35:35 AM): lol I don't even think he's up yet.
Ledoux67 (7:35:46 AM): What time does he go in there??
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:36:10 AM): This morning 9 am, I think. If it was 8 he'd be gone already.
Ledoux67 (7:36:51 AM): Brian just came in
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:37:10 AM): hi Brian!!!! :-)
Ledoux67 (7:37:27 AM): He says HI but he's going for the muffins
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:37:37 AM): lol i bet he is
Ledoux67 (7:37:56 AM): no he tried going for those last night and was rebuffed!
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:38:05 AM): lol
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:38:15 AM): good word by the way
Ledoux67 (7:38:31 AM): thank you. I am after all an educator.
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:38:39 AM): lol
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:38:53 AM): so did you guys skinny dip when you went in last night???
Ledoux67 (7:39:02 AM): ewwwww
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:39:21 AM): ewwww what??? what's wrong with skinny dipping???
Ledoux67 (7:39:30 AM): hahaha no
Ledoux67 (7:39:48 AM): Brian has a big cut on his calf.
Ledoux67 (7:40:00 AM): I don't remember THAT happening.
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:40:09 AM): Does he???
Ledoux67 (7:40:32 AM): "Unfortunately yes."
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:40:43 AM): from last night??
Ledoux67 (7:41:11 AM): He says when he got out of the water last night he cut it on the dock
Ledoux67 (7:41:31 AM): and in answer to your question, yes of course skinny dipping
Ledoux67 (7:41:51 AM): that was the only thing that kept us warm, was each other. COLLLLLLD in that water.
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:42:06 AM): i could've told you THAT
Ledoux67 (7:42:33 AM): Brian is reading over my shoulder but making ME type....
Ledoux67 (7:42:52 AM): "Actually the water wasn't that bad... it was the cold air that was bad."
Ledoux67 (7:43:00 AM): he's right again.
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:43:09 AM): lol same as always
Ledoux67 (7:43:19 AM): ok....
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:43:28 AM): what???
Ledoux67 (7:43:58 AM): well, up close it's not THAT bad a cut... just looked kind of nasty because he just took a shower and rubbed it open I guess
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:44:10 AM): Brian took a shower up there????
Ledoux67 (7:44:19 AM): Yeah... will wonders cease?
Ledoux67 (7:44:33 AM): I guess he thinks we're going into town or something.
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:44:42 AM): lol
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:44:48 AM): brb
Ledoux67 (7:47:35 AM): "Tall and tan and young and lovelyyyy..."
Ledoux67 (7:50:14 AM): ohhhhhh.... but I don't even know jouuuuuuuu
Ledoux67 (7:50:44 AM): howwwwwwwwww.... can i tell jou i lovvvvve jouuuuuuuu...
Ledoux67 (7:51:23 AM): tall and tan and young and lovely...
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:51:35 AM): lol i'm back... don't you know any other hold muzak?
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:54:19 AM): hello????
Ledoux67 (7:54:42 AM): haha... i'm here... i ran to get another muffin. that's three now!
Ledoux67 (7:54:50 AM): so good!
Ledoux67 (7:55:20 AM): and JESUS! Brian must of put a whole stick of butter on his.
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:56:22 AM): marty is up, he has to be in at 8:30 and is rushing all over the place
Ledoux67 (7:56:42 AM): Stay out of his way!
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:56:59 AM): believe me, I learned THAT lesson when we were engaged.
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:57:27 AM): just hope he doesn't draw Maggie out, that is the big wild card when he's trying to get going, she gets up and wants his attention.
Ledoux67 (7:57:58 AM): yeah, that was how becca was.
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:58:17 AM): brb again
christyswims@yahoo.com (7:58:31 AM): pick a different song this time lol
Ledoux67 (7:59:26 AM): well up here...
Ledoux67 (7:59:53 AM): Becca is up and she and her grandpa are down shooting hoops already.
Ledoux67 (8:00:18 AM): She's got a mean hookshot and fadeaway jumper Christy!
Ledoux67 (8:01:04 AM): I was kind of surprised that she wanted to play little league this spring because she never really expressed any interest...
Ledoux67 (8:01:17 AM): maybe she'll start playing hoops too.
Ledoux67 (8:01:42 AM): And mom has the effin' radio turned up TOO LOUD. Some French shit, lmaaao.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:02:10 AM): lol, wouldn't that be called merde??
Ledoux67 (8:02:19 AM): I guess.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:02:48 AM): Marty took off, I offered to make him scrambed eggs and he said "no, I'll just stop at sheetz and get a shmuffin"
Ledoux67 (8:03:00 AM): Ewwwww. God.
Ledoux67 (8:03:15 AM): I think I just puked in my mouth a little when I read that.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:03:46 AM): lol well I think i puked a little in my mouth when he SAID it.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:04:18 AM): But he says he's gotta get going, he's in a rush, yadayadayada
Ledoux67 (8:05:46 AM): It would take him as much OR LESS time to have you MAKE him something than it would for him to stop in there and grab it on the fly, PLUS it'll be better
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:05:51 AM): I told him that it'd take just as much time for me to make him something as it would for him to stop, but the whole issue is that he's gotta RUSH so I didn't argue, go on ahead, have a shmuffin, see if I care.
Ledoux67 (8:06:06 AM): WE CROSSED!!!
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:06:26 AM): lol
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:06:51 AM): it's like i said to kath....
Ledoux67 (8:07:22 AM): ......
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:07:44 AM): these are the kind of arguments I have with MAGGIE, I'm not going to waste my energy arguing about it with HIM.
Ledoux67 (8:08:13 AM): Haha
Ledoux67 (8:09:16 AM): Well like you said, the whole point is that he feels like he's gotta rush and if he lets you take five minutes to whoop him up some scrambles then that countermands the whole I AM IN TOO MUCH OF A HURRY TO SIT AND HAVE BREAKFAST thing.
Ledoux67 (8:09:36 AM): Brian agrees by the way.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:09:40 AM): Yeah.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:09:47 AM): THanks Brian.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:10:04 AM): Cross!!
Ledoux67 (8:10:06 AM): CROSS
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:10:51 AM): Well you know he DOESN'T have time to sit and have breakfast but he doesn't have time to stop at a crowded sheetz during rush hour either, either way he'll be late so why not have something GOOD.
Ledoux67 (8:11:28 AM): He probably won't stop at all.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:12:29 AM): No you're right, he definitely won't, he's just saying that so he can get out of the house. LIKE I'M GOING TO SCOLD HIM AND SAY "YOU CAN'T LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT HAVING BREAKFAST!!!" Why can't he just say "I'm running late, I'll just skip breakfast."
Ledoux67 (8:12:41 AM): Who knows? F him
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:12:47 AM): lol
Ledoux67 (8:13:07 AM): HE'S the one who's gonna be hungry... don't worry about it.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:13:54 AM): yeah I know, I just don't want him to eat junk that's all.
Ledoux67 (8:14:27 AM): Well, maybe he can do like Brian did and have a tiny muffin with a half a stick of butter smeared on it. Jesus...
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:14:41 AM): lol
Ledoux67 (8:14:58 AM): I swear... he just had his daily allotment of dairy.
Ledoux67 (8:15:12 AM): Now mom'll have to go churn more.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:15:24 AM): lol, have Becca do it.
Ledoux67 (8:15:34 AM): Oh yeah...
Ledoux67 (8:15:44 AM): could you see if we had to do THAT????
Ledoux67 (8:15:58 AM): TSK! I DON'T EVEN LIKE STUPID BUTTER.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:16:25 AM): lol
Ledoux67 (8:16:39 AM): She should be saying a prayer of gratitude every morning that we're not AMISH
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:17:06 AM): lol
Ledoux67 (8:17:21 AM): Thank you! You're a wonderful audience!
Ledoux67 (8:17:28 AM): So....
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:17:34 AM): so???
Ledoux67 (8:17:54 AM): When is Todd moving? Where? What's the latest word on that??
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:19:52 AM): Well I talked to Maura last night, and she said Todd's lease starts at the new place on Aug 1, so he's going to START moving things in then. GOing to take his time over the next few weeks getting set up and then by the time the school year starts have his kids move in.
Ledoux67 (8:20:18 AM): Never understood why he had them down there anyway.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:21:05 AM): well the biggie was that his ex was still in Stowe area and he didn't want them to be in the same area as her, but apparently she moved to maine, so that's no problem anymore.
Ledoux67 (8:21:21 AM): You think Maura will move in with him?
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:21:28 AM): No.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:21:35 AM): Not yet.
Ledoux67 (8:21:43 AM): You seem sure.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:22:16 AM): Well I didn't ask and she didn't say but you saw her place, she gets a lot of work done on her photography, that extra bedroom is a darkroom.
Ledoux67 (8:23:04 AM): Rita said she said something to her like "You two could move in together. He could move into your place" and she said "Yeah, but then I'd lose my darkroom."
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:23:25 AM): Probably down the road if they continue to see each other they will get a house.
Ledoux67 (8:23:43 AM): Do you think they wil?
Ledoux67 (8:23:49 AM): L
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:23:55 AM): lol
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:24:40 AM): I don't know, if she wants to probably, he's a nice guy and she loves him, loves his kids, but she's so....
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:25:11 AM): trying to think of words
Ledoux67 (8:25:16 AM): Independent. Yeah.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:25:26 AM): no not independent
Ledoux67 (8:25:42 AM): Maybe not "independent" but...
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:25:48 AM): lol
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:26:21 AM): she just would need to be able to keep doing what she's doing, be autonomous while with him, if they got a place together she wouldn't want to GIVE UP anything.
Ledoux67 (8:26:48 AM): Of course she doesn't HAVE to.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:27:38 AM): no and she wouldn't.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:28:18 AM): but she worries that she would
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:28:23 AM): brb
Ledoux67 (8:28:35 AM): CRIMINY! WHAT NOW???
Ledoux67 (8:29:20 AM): Just wanted to let you know that this SECOND batch of muffins isn't a RAISIN bran... it's a BLUEBERRY bran...
Ledoux67 (8:29:48 AM): There is no butter left in the house, by the way.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:30:32 AM): lol, back, just heard Maggie rocking upstairs and went up to give her a kiss.
Ledoux67 (8:30:46 AM): how is her rocking at night?
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:31:38 AM): better, she is ok, the weekend seems to calm her down because then we are all together.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:32:08 AM): and blueberry bran sounds good, I am so hungry
Ledoux67 (8:32:31 AM): Well woman, you offered to make MARTY scrambles, why don't you make yourself some???
Ledoux67 (8:32:40 AM): You did SWIM this morning.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:32:58 AM): I had some yogurt, we'll be walking to the bakery here in a little bit.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:33:13 AM): I'll get a couple sticks of butter there and I'll be fine, lol
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:33:31 AM): I'm going to get her ready and going.
Ledoux67 (8:33:44 AM): OK.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:33:54 AM): Talk later??
Ledoux67 (8:34:18 AM): Yeah, I'll call during her naptime this afternoon and we can chat. OR we can do this again, up to you.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:34:35 AM): Whichever is fine with me. This costs you less.
Ledoux67 (8:34:49 AM): I don't care about that.
Ledoux67 (8:35:03 AM): I'll call.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:35:05 AM): Then call.
Ledoux67 (8:35:15 AM): CROSS
Ledoux67 (8:35:24 AM): I think.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:35:37 AM): lol I can't even tell anymore.
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:35:51 AM): OK, so I'm gonna get Maggie moving. Enjoy the morning guys!
Ledoux67 (8:36:01 AM): You too!
Ledoux67 (8:36:20 AM): Becca is in and says HI and "Say HI to Maggie for me!"
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:36:40 AM): Hi Becca! :-) I will!!!
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:36:50 AM): Later gator!
Ledoux67 (8:36:57 AM): Later woman!
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:37:05 AM): Love you! Bye!
Ledoux67 (8:37:21 AM): Love you too! xoxoxoxoxo me!!
Ledoux67 (8:37:37 AM): bye
christyswims@yahoo.com (8:37:48 AM): bye!!! xoxoxo

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Re: Six F bombs

2008-07-17T05:56:00.000-07:00

From: Rita Pressley-LeDoux (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)

To: Maura (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)

Date: Thursday, July 17, 2008 8:37 AM
Subject: Re: Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Well, first of all, as Margo told my brother one evening, if you need a jump that bad, go play checkers

Mauramodel, not to make light of your pain and angst about work, but really, that has to be one of the best subject lines I've ever received. And yet it WASN'T FLAGGED!!!! Congratulations! If six f-bombs don't get stopped by Da Yahoo Copz, what WILL??? THat's MY question.

Anyway, sorry to make fun... I know you like working there except for dealing with her ditzballiness. It's like I said about Frank all the time: Dingdong might own the place, and she might take care of and CONTROL certain things, manage certain things (stock, menu, etc) but that doesn't mean she knows how to MANAGE PEOPLE, which is a big difference. But I don't get the whole "keeping you and Todd apart." This isn't ROMEO AND JULIET, Maura. Do you really think that's what's going on? Unless... someone else at the resto has her ear and has given her the idea that you two need to be kept apart... unless for reasons of her own that maybe have nothing at all to do with running a professional establishment (that sounds like a euphemism for a whorehouse ) she wants to keep you away from Todd.

As for the giving you a hard time about the one thing you missed when you closed while overlooking all the things you got done, yeah, that's the sign of a bad manager. (Along with being so far behind on the books after a busy season that you have thirty days worth of guest checks and credit card receipts sitting in your office waiting to be reconciled) Not mentioning to employees when they do something RIGHT but only mentioning the stuff they MISS. That used to piss me off when I closed at Frank's too. Always the next day, I could count on his fat greasy goombah face sputtering "You know, you guys gotta stop rushing outta here at night... you left the lights on over the bar." THAT was what made me wanna strangle him. It was never something big like, say, "The back door wasn't locked" or "The alarm wasn't armed" or "THere was cash missing from the till" etc etc etc. No... it was always NITPICKY LITTLE SHIT like "You didn't empty the trash in the bathroom... you didn't turn the dishwasher off... you forgot to put the recycling out." WELL, WHY DON'T YOU JUST STAY LATE AT "YOUR" RESTAURANT AND PUT THE REFUCKINGCYCLING OUT YOURSELF???!!!!!!????!!!!

And what got me most was, that could have very easily have been negated by him if he'd just NOTICED WHEN I DID GOOD WORK. Like said "Great job handling that rush, Rita" or "Good work getting that bar order out there" or "Thanks for checking the towels in the rest room" or "Thanks for bussing that bus pan when we got busy out there" or something dumb like that. Noticing things that I DID WITHOUT HIM ASKING ME, that I really didn't NEED to do, that weren't my JOB but I did them because there I was, someone had to do them, etc etc. Instead of telling me the freakin' takeout containers needed restocked. Please.

It's that whole thing that really just makes you feel like "OK, this job obviously means more to ME than I mean to THEM, so now what?" You know? So I really didn't feel all that bad when I left. You didn't know me back then but I barely gave my two weeks. I don't ever just walk out of jobs but it was all I could to not just walk out of that one. And it wasn't any one thing; it was all those little things that you describe that just day after day, week after week, added up, till I didn't care that I was taking home a hunnerd fiddy bucks a night in tips.

And so I quit that job, and I moved to Bawlmore with Tony, and we lived happily ever after, and here I sit, it's not even 8:30 and Dannydan has puked already.

Some kinda bug. He's snoozing away. Margo said she had a touch of something earlier this week and I felt a little gnarly myself yesterday. Wonder if something's going around.

Big heat wave coming and I'm not gonna make it worse for the fella by turning the air off, that's for sure. Nope, it's frosty cold in here. I don't know what it's like outside and I don't CARE. I'm in here. Bwah hahahahahaha...

No work at the warehouse this week. I work an afternoon game on Sunday, then Monday and Wednesday. And I'm working at the cafe tomorrow midday. That should be fun.

I mean that.

See because the cafe is managed the way Frank's and Dingdong's (MAYBE THEY SHOULD OPEN A PLACE TOGETHER!!!!) should have been managed. Or maybe it's just that I'm not there full time and I don't see all the bullshit. I'm not there relying on the hours I get to support myself and my family. I just come in on Friday mornings, maybe a Tuesday or Wednesday morning, and when I show up I'm usually covering for someone who can't make it, so I'm like the cavalry riding over the hills. I'm greeted as a hero. And then, just as the place is starting to get to me and I'm thinking "OK, if I have to whip up ONE MORE frappin' frappe, I think that I may EXPLODE here," guess what? MY SHIFT IS OVER! and I can go home to a puking baby!

ANyhoo... I'm sorry you have to put up with that right now. You talked about finding something else. Are you keeping your eyes opened?

Tony's up. He slept in. I can hear him moving around. Wonder if he has a touch of it.

I'm gonna hit SEND and will call you later. Not working today, you know...

Later sweetie!
Love
Senorita

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Six F bombs

2008-07-17T05:51:00.000-07:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)

To: Rita Pressley LeDoux (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Wednesday, July 16, 2008 9:41 PM
Subject: Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

RIta it pisses me off so much, I just need to vent. I am so fucking tired of working these DEAD WEDNESDAY NIGHTS and TODD DOESN'T WORK WEDNESDAYS, she's just scheduling me when he's not on to "keep us apart" like we're little kids and don't know how to behave when we're together. And I make NO tips Wed (well not NONE but compared to Fri nite which I WON'T be working it's nothing). And then I'm on Sat and Sun. Pisses me the fuck off. Fucking ding dong.

I didn't even have a shift meal, told Ryan to leave a note for Todd that I didn't eat anything and bring me something home tomorrow night. Ryan was cute, he said "don't you like my cooking" and I said "it's not that, sweetie, I just have to get the freak outta here." "Get the freak outta here huh? You mean fuck?" lol

This on top of her giving me a hard time about what WASN'T done that night I closed by myself. Didn't get into all of the stuff about how the drawer was counted down the deposit made, all the doors locked, everything in the resto checked. "There weren't really any linens in the dry sink upstairs by the bar." FUCK YOU!! I've got your fucking linens RIGHT HERE CUNT!!!!

Bitch.

OK, I feel a little better now but now that ranting made me HUNGRY lol.

I wish Todd was here. He's still up in the air re his move but at least come labor day I will know he is nearby and not down there, up here, whereever.

And my feet are so sore, the arches in my left foot killing me. I had a blister on the outside of my left sole from my rollerblades (from my socks actually) and a couple nights ago scratched it open, it was sore and I was walking favoring THAT, and now the OTHER side of my foot hurts. I need a foot massage! HELLLLP!!!!

We are going camping next week and it cannot come soon enough. I need a good jump!

So how are you???

Did you work at all over the all star break??? When are you in next at the cafe??

I almost called tonight but thought it'd be too late, hope your week is going better than mine, sorry to swear at you but I needed to vent and it made me feel better. Hope it did you too, lol xoxoxoxoxox love you maura k

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Re: Hi from Vermont

2008-07-09T05:30:00.000-07:00

From:	ledoux67@aol.com
To:	christyswims@yahoo.com
Subject:	Re: Hi from Vermont
Date:	Wed, 9 Jul 2008 8:11 am

Well, first of all let me say that the picture of the two of them you took last night is SO CUTE! He is a HUNK!! WOW! Give your sister a slap when you see her next time... she is wrong... "DILF" is just too gay a word to describe him. He reminds me of Dennis Wilson circa 1970, seriously. And the two of them together just made me go awwwwwwww. Just all happy and young and Maura is so glowy. So DARK. She tans dark like you. I thought you irish girls were supposed to be all pale and fair and BURN easily.

She looks great except there's a little fleck of blue cheese on her lower lip, lmaaao.

How WERE those burgers anyway? I can't remember if you said in fact you went to the restaurant (or "resto" as Maura says) and had a meal. We did... awesome. Except the night we went Todd wasn't working.

And I'm sure that Maura reviewed this with you but dingdong's name is Jill. I met her. She IS a dingdong. You can tell from the moment you meet her. Flighty. And Maura said SO disorganized, or looks that way, but somehow things get done.

Anyway don't get too carried away with the whole "little Mauras" thing... you know what I mean. As one who pressured Rita and Tony low those many years... except look... now they're married with a baby boy. So never mind... get carried away, lmaaaao. Apparently it WORKS.

So anyway... I got up at 5:30 am and was enjoying the quiet of the house, thought I'd sit in the cool and watch the sun come out but decided to check my email. Which was my big mistake. You know, everyone always says about how great Firefox is, it's so much better than internet explorer, all that, but now this morning is the SIXTH TIME that I've lost ALL OF MY BOOKMARKS AND PASSWORDS on Firefox. I have no idea why it happens. Online I read that it can happen if you shut your computer down without closing firefox but I don't do that. It's really annoying and it happens so often that now I actually know where to click to FIND the old bookmarks and reinstate them. But I could not find my passwords so now every time I go to a site I have to reregister. Fortunately I use the same password for all of them so it's no biggie. But just an annoying pain in the ass, not what I want to do with my quiet time on an early morning in July. And of course I went on to a couple message boards I post on so I could plug my passwords etc in and had to cruise the messages and reply to THOSE. So I ended up wasting all this time. And now it's almost 8 and Brian's up, Becca's up, and all I did was sit on the computer.

It is hazy here and will probably be hot and humid AGAIN today. We didn't get to the lake yesterday (didn't go to the movie either)... just went into town and hung out at mom and dad's. They're going up to Canada this weekend and will probably be there the next three weeks so we wanted to get some time in with them. One reason they are going up now is that the Nationals are out of town the next few weeks and they will only miss one game if they go up now (they have that Sunday season ticket plan). They offered us the tix for this Sunday and we haven't decided if we're going or not. We can't take Becca if we do. It's not like at the old stadium where we all could go with them on the spur of the moment if we wanted to. They have two tickets and that means if Brian and me want to go we need to drop Becca someplace (Dan and Laura's or Danny and Ronnie's or Rita and TOny's... there are options but then she wants to know why she can't go with).

We will probably go anyway though for a couple reasons, the main one being that if Danny and Ronnie take her Sunday they have the pool at their place. And it's Houston, which means I get to go and boo Miguel Tejada, lmaaao.

So we'll see.

Brian's up and wants to make pancakes. Talk about lite fare, lmaaao. Not exactly pancake weather but we have all these fresh strawberries, so I guess he's amped to make strawberry pancakes. So I will let him.

Tell Mauramodel HI and Marty too and kiss Maggie Kay for me... and do whatever you want to do to TODD on my behalf, lmaaao. Like I said, Kathy is wrong. He's not a "dilf." He's too cute and woodsy and earthy to be a dilf.

They look happy and sweet and their eyes all sparkly. I just need to remember how to get the picture over to my laptop.

Have a fun day and we'll talk later, I'm sure. xoxoxoxoxoxo me!!

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Hi from Vermont

2008-07-09T05:25:00.000-07:00

From:	Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To:	Margo Pressley (ledoux67@aol.com)
Subject:	Hi from Vermont
Date:	Tue, 8 Jul 2008 9:53 pm

Hi Margo, guess you guys went to that movie after all, huh? Hope you didn't have your phone on in the theater, lol.

We are here, hot and humid today but a lovely night. Maura worked tonight so we had an evening on our own, just took a long walk down the rec path near her house, took Maggie mini golfing which was where I called you from, brought her back and put her down and opened a bottle of white wine which Todd recommended.

He is a SWEETHEART and I am really happy that Maura and he are involved. Told you all this but just like typing it, lol, they are a lovely couple, and I like typing that too, they just look natural together. I hate to say it but I look at them together and see little Mauras.

As long as they stay away from Grandma while they're going through middle school, lol.

Anyway like I said she worked tonight but just called and said that they "got rid of the last table" about five minutes ago. THere's a winning attitude toward your customers, lol, "got rid of them." No she told us exactly what happened, they had no one in the place most of the evening and just as they were breaking everything down cleaning etc a couple came in FIFTEEN MINUTES BEFORE CLOSING and of course the owner of the place ("Ding dong," Maura calls her, i don't even know what the woman's real name is, lol) let them in and "fell all over herself seating them" and then what else?? TOOK OFF AT NINE (closing time), "so she let these people in and left the three of us holding the bag."

But they're gone and a good thing too, Marty and me are starving, lol. No, Maura said she'd have Todd make Marty and me shift meals, and she called to tell us get ready, it's burgers with blue cheese and bacon, sweet potato fries and mixed green salad. Nice light fare, just what I need at 10 pm, lol, anyway she said she's going to finish up and say good night to Todd and then come home.

Like I told you a nice day, really nice to be up here with her again, and Marty loves it of course, Maggie of course is so happy to see her sister. She is doing what Becca did when you guys came up here, sleeping in the futon with Maura out in the main room while Marty and I take the bed in the bedroom.

She's here already! WIth Todd!

So I'm hitting send. I'll call tomorrow morning but just wanted to say HI, in case I didn't say we will be back in Pleasant Gap Thursday night sometime, that way we'll have all day Friday and the weekend before Marty starts in with the band on Monday, can't believe football season practices are already here but next week, there we go.

And then Maggie starts pre K. NOOOOOOO!

Maybe I'll call later or something, or YOU can call me, but everyone here says nighty night if we don't talk till tomorrow. xoxoxoxoxo love you christy

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Re: Senorita gets busted by the intern and then gets the intern BUSTED!!!!

2008-06-19T06:24:00.000-07:00

From:	ledoux67@aol.com
To:	ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com; mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com
Subject:	Re: Senorita gets busted by the intern and then gets the intern BUSTED!!!!
Date:	Thu, 19 Jun 2008 8:53 am

Rita, I take it this is your birthday card. Now, I don't mean to lecture you, but your mother in law really prefers a traditional SNAIL MAIL card, or that having been failed, one of those cheezy e cards.

I guess this'll do though, lmaao.

Hi (it's my birthday) Maura (it's my birthday)... how's things (it's my birthday) in (it's my birthday) Vermont??

Yeah, your mom is here. She's here all right. Yeesh. Rebecca Christine Morone is the guest who will not leave. She is the "best friend" who comes down for "a night or two" and next thing you know, a week later you're running into her coming up the hallway in the middle of the night after she's raided the refrigerator, lmaaao.

She is here today... BUT WE HAVE SERVED NOTICED!!!!!!

No, today's my birthday... we'll boot her out tomorrow.

She's sitting here right next to me. She says "Hi sweetie. How was breakfast?" Everyone loves making breakfast jokes at Maura's expense. And Jake's.

Todd? Christy says it's Todd. Sorry.

Maura, your mom is gonna pee herself laughing. "Where'd you get JAKE??"

Now Becca and Maggie are investigating. GO BACK TO THE KITCHEN AND FINISH YOUR YOGURT!!!!

Anyway...she and Marty and Maggie came down last weekend (Friday... you see where this is heading, lmaaao) because we got together to plan stuff for our (AGHHHHHHH! SHOOT ME!!) THIRTIETH high school reunion, which we did on Saturday. And one of us (she says ME, I say HER) said it was a shame we didn't plan all that for THIS weekend, seeing as her birthday was yesterday and mine is today (did I mention that, lmaaao) but LAST weekend was the weekend that the bitch-er, CLASSMATE of ours who is organizing things for this one was FLYING IN FROM SEATTLE. What effing sense does that make? We are all trying to figure out how someone who lives in SEATTLE got the job of organizing our reunion??? If this was our 25th, the answer would be "Well, she may be in Seattle... but WE'RE in Pennsylvania. Get it?" But somehow SHE is doing all the heavy lifting.

I used to wonder why our class always does things that way and then wonders why no one shows. But then talking to Danny's class, Tony's class, Rita's class... EVERYONE'S class seems to do things that way. Half assed. Except Brian's dad's class. They always seem to have these huge turnouts... but maybe it's like he said: at that age, half of them are dead, lmaaao. "I guess those of us who are still alive are so happy to still be around that we'll go anyplace" lmaaao.

Anyway... this time, Saturday there were 20 people here, I'd say... we all talked and looked at yearbooks and scrapbooks and old school papers and drank vino and woodchuck cider... did burgers on that effing BODY GRILL that Brian has behind the clubhouse... played music loud. It turned into a big party. So... Christy and family stay the night. Sunday they go down to see Katie, which turns into Monday as well, then Tuesday down to see Marty's family... and then yesterday back to Katie's where she made them a big dinner and cake and two of her brothers and two of her sisters and their families were there (Steve and John and Kathy and Betsy)... then she and they came back up here so we could have MY birthday here all together and they're gonna take off tomorrow morning, not a moment too soon, lmaaao.

We miss you, Maura, and you and Tony too, Rita.

Christy is not sitting here at the moment so I can say what I really think about her lmaaao.

Actually she is back going through my closet looking for something to wear today. HA! As if! I am flattered, but she's gonna look like a circus clown wearing anything that fits ME. She thinks it's still high school when we all could trade. That was 30 years, 30 pounds ago.

Whoa. Actually she just came back out and has a nice blouse that somehow fits her.

(That one was marked for the rescue mission... take it.)

Funny how I always feel like I'm in such great shape until your mom shows up, Maura... damn, I can't wait for her to pack up and head north again, lmaaao.

WE'VE HAD A GREAT TIME. Maura, your grandma made such a great dinner last night (roast beef. Christy said "Mom always makes these meals that make me want to move back home") (maybe THAT'S the plan, lmaaao) and then we came up here and stayed up talking LATE... so that was HER birthday, and now we got up first thing this morning and it's MY birthday. We're all cruising into town to mom and dad's... she made bagels this morning. I guess I'll force one down, lmaaao.

Opened my pretty cards from Brian and Becca.

Funny story about the intern, Rita. GOod thing he didn't find your cashe of stolen office supplies, lmaao.

Anyway we're supposed to be at mom's at 9:30... and it's 8:45 now... so... there are girls to get ready... so... I'm going to SEND.

We all say HI and are going to get going on our day... later guys! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo Margo the Birthday Girl!!!

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Senorita gets busted by the intern and then gets the intern BUSTED!!!!

2008-06-18T17:15:00.000-07:00

From:	Rita Pressley
To:	Margo Pressley ; Maura Kelly
Subject:	Senorita gets busted by the intern and then gets the intern BUSTED!!!!
Date:	Wed, 18 Jun 2008 8:09 pm

OK... so.... Senorita is back at work at the warehouse... nice to see everyone... low stress so far this week... five hours a day, 9 till 2... get to stop at the market BEFORE I go in and get donuts... then AFTERWARDS stop again for my Faidley's fix... Tuesday took Dannydan in who except for one feeding just the whole time... everyone loved seeing him (who DOESN'T love a baby? Dr. Mengele, of course! But he doesn't WORK for the Orioles. And as usual I digress!)

So... this morning, I stumble across the usual stack of STAFF FREEBIES for the latest giveaway tomorrow night, which is the NICK MARKAKIS BOBBLEHEAD, which is a handsome item for what it is (a cheap plastic figurine of a player with a ginormous elephantiasisized head) but which as usual looks so unlike whatever player it's supposedly depicting, you wonder what the appeal is, but the appeal of course is that they are COLLECTIBLE (or is it COLLECTABLE) and so I figured I'd snag a couple for relatives and friends (that's YOU Margo)... but since I've only been back working there three days, I feel funnier than usual grabbing a handful and scurrying off to my office with them.

SIOo... I go all over the place trying to finnd ANdreaa

--YOU'LL EXCUSE MY TYPOES. I AM TRYING TO EAT ICE CREAM WITH ONE HAND WHILE TYPING WITH THE OTHER.

(Dulce le leche. You have me hooked, Margo.)

--so I can ask permission to take THREE bobbleheads. Can't find her. So... knowing that if I ~~ HAD ~~ found her, the response would have been "Oh, God, Rita, go ahead. Is three enough? Doesn't Tony know anyone at work who'd want one? Take a case."

Well I didn't take a case, but having received, in her mind, tacit permission to go Apeshit Wid Da Bobblehedz, Senorita goes back to the staff stash, rips open a case and as she's standing there Snagging Freebies, she feels like she's being watched...

I look up and it's this KID!!!! With ZITS!!!! He looked like he should've been running the smoothie bar at a cafe, but there he is with his white shirt and his clipon tie and his dockers and he's EYING me. "Can I help you with something?"

I said "No, I can steal these fine without you."

"Steal?"

"Yeah."

Well... HE must've gone back to whomever he's interning for (Percy) and said THERE'S SOME WOMAN OUT HERE STEALING BOBBLEHEADS because after a few minutes I hear some DISCUSSION down the hall and then, five minutes later, there's Percy at my door.

"Sorry, Rita."

"Sorry? For what?"

"That Nate was giving you a hard time about the bobbleheads."

"He wasn't really."

"No, no, it's ok. He's... he's"

PERCY IS STAMMERING! HA-HAH!!!!

"uh uh uh he's our intern from uh from UMBC... just... he uh he he... he didn't KNOW who uh who uh who you were."

And before it could be discussed further, back down the hall Percy went.

I have NO IDEA what Nate said to Percy and what Percy said to Nate. I got out of there before I saw either of them again. They were back, marketing away.

But that was how I met the new intern.

Hope I didn't make the little fella sprout more zits.

Anyhoo... I have your birthday gift now, Margo: a Markakis bobblehead. So don't say I never gave you nothin'.

Are you guys coming down for the game tomorrow or is Christy... uh, ARE Christy and Marty and Maggie still there? It's her birthday too this week, right?

Anyhoo two... I am NOT at the warehouse tomorrow or all weekend... just doing Mon Tues Wed... however, guess what? I am working at the cafe Friday morning!! Really looking forward to that, to seeing everyone again and getting dollar bills tossed at me while people don't say PLEASE and then tossing seven cents in the tip jar for a double mocha latte, not that I'm COMPLAINING, mind you...

Talk later! Maura... how's Todd's apartment hunt going??? Have breakfast lately??

Love you both!

Senorita

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Re2: Ted Kennedy surgery a success

2008-06-04T09:06:00.000-07:00

From: Carmen McRae Sanchez (raesancheztralala@yahoo.com)
To: brianpressley14@aol.com
Date: Wednesday, June 4, 2008 6:19 AM
Re: Re: Ted Kennedy surgery a success

that was fast, what do u live on yr computer lol

i also cant believe u use real words, punctuation etc etc etc. it must take u hrs 2 type 1 of those.

devoid of darkness lol just 1 thing 2 say 2 that, sumpn i could not say in class many times i was tempted, n thats FUCK YOU BALDIE!!!!!! lol

i wish it was devoid of darkness here right now. i am up n want 2 SLEEP IN but noise noise noise got me up, tyler in rm next door workin a breakfast shift n BANGING AROUND as he got ready, banging th bafroom door. one of those LOOK AT ME PITY ME I HAVE 2 GET UP N WORK EARLY dealies u know?? i yelled at him once, DUDE, SOME OF US R TRYIN 2 SLEEP!!!! think he liked me but doesnt now, tuf sheet, lol. let me sleep n i'm a pussycat, if thats what u want. must not be what he wants. wants to perform the drama of the gifted child, act 5: I HAVE 2 TAKE A SHITTY JOB I HATE N GET UP EARLIER THAN I WANT N I WANT EVERYONE AROUND ME 2 KNOW IT N HAVE PITY ON POOR ME!!!!!!!

anyway he was gone long ago, i went back 2 bed n could not sleep, figured why fight it, why shouldnt 4 hrs sleep be enuf 4 any normal person. why not check email???

if he apologizes l8r after his double ill say dude no prob, i just slept on the beach all day, lol.

playing places here a little, with ron gone 2 from whence she came no band (tried 2 get her 2 follow as u know)

i kinder keep my eyes ears heart soul open 4 sympaticoes at parties etc etc but nothing yet, but a little resto downtown has me on their calendar 4 next tues nite, not a showcase evening, tips and playing piano. wanted me 2 wear a cocktail dress, "where am i supposed 2 get 1 of THOSE?" lol. almost lost job at that moment. but want 2 play as u know, so will get 1 sumwheres.

think when they saw me they were preparing 4 th worst but as u say, just play n they shut up. i will play from that NEW REAL BOOK u gave me, love that thing. ordered another from amazon n am waiting 4 it 2 come, hopefully by next tues. i picked FREE SUPERSAVER SHIPPING which is always a mistake if u WANT something fast.

so n e way, yeah, one gig certain which may lead 2 more at same place. thks to u n gettin me in2 jazz. funny i always think of what u said: "u can play this music rae, u just don't think u can." n u were right lol.

n u know someone said go north n get a casino card n play AC but no no no no no way, talk about darkness, yes i want 2 play music 4 a living but AC scary, scary scary. just do not want 2 be there n take that money. might as well be a ho as do that. i just think of where that money's BEEN n where most of its going. brrrrrrr. no.

besides by the time i got a casino card from what i hear, i will be well on the way north, 2 vt or me. leaning twrd maine. Chad? who he? some kid i use 2 know lol. i would NEVER move 2 anyplace 2 be near him n u heard it here first. don't forget it.

i am leaning toward maine for other reasons which i will think of if u give me time lol.

so now subj change. glad yr wifey luvs the cds. i know i don't know her at all, not like i know u n e way, but th lil bit i met her really liked her n see how u 2 fit 2gether. like u 2 have always been that way n hard 2 believe that it hasn't always been that way.

i made another disc 4 her n will send along, have yr snailmail addy right here, maybe that was why i got up, 2 get 2 th p o good n early, beat the 8 am rush, camp out like chad n me did for phish tix in high school.

phish. chad. funny things that just come up when writing a friend. hard 2 believe we were so in2 that in hs but we were, both of us, both of us were really real n in2 that. if we had been doing it w other people we wouldve been doing fake things but we were th ones who did the REAL THINGS 2gether. i would apologize 2 every1 i know now 4 following phish in hs but not him.

not you either funnily enuf.

lol i just went downstairs 2 th donut place 2 get coffee, cute grrrrl at counter, hs kid, has 2 b, sweetie, reminded me of me back then lol.

n e way came back up n grabbed first mug i could grab 4 coffee n its that little gettysburg mug u gave me. n i never really LOOKED at it but it has all th landmarks on it, th copse of trees n eternal light n jenny wade etc etc etc etc (ross's conspicuously absent from mug lol) but then a drawing of lincoln and it doesn't say "lincoln" or "president" or even "cemetary" under his face, it says "four score and seven years ago" lol like that was his name. 2 funny. or am i just giddy tired???

think it is time 2 hit send so that is what i will do. may finish this coffee n go 2 the pancake place n TAUNT TYLER :P :P :P

attached as many mp3s as i could squeeze on here. n sending a real cd or 3 snailmail 4 u n yr wifey n kid.

having fun in the sun wish u were here lol. seriously so great 2 hear from u n write back!!!

carmen mcrae sanchez the first!!!!!!!!!!

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Re: Ted Kennedy surgery a success

2008-06-03T09:05:00.000-07:00

From: brianpressley14@aol.com
To: raesancheztralala@yahoo.com
Date: Monday, June 2, 2008 8:16 PM
Re: Ted Kennedy surgery a success

RAE SANCHEZ AS I LIVE AND BREATHE!!!!! Ha hahaa... I was just thinking about you this afternoon when I bellied on up to the juice bar for a booster... the place just seemed devoid of, uhhh, darkness, hahaha.

No... I miss you and was wondering how your summer was going... if you'd stayed in Pittsburgh or decided to "run for the chopper at the shore" like you said.

Your email made me laugh out loud (once I ran it through babelfish, haha)... first at your Kennedy joke (when I hear it repeated over the next week, I'll say I heard it from you first) and then at your description of the fly on your Goddam Tuna Salad. I have seen flies the size of hummingbirds, sparrows, but never one the size of a Tufted Titmouse.

It could have been a bat.

Anyway... are you playing places at Cape May?

I AM on Facebook and you can friend me if you like BUT I never go on there. I have a faculty page through the college but never check it, never go on there.

Friend me though. See what good it does you, haha.

Margo says HI and "Kanye and Madonna? New? Where's SHE been? THAT song's been on BECCA'S ipod since before we went up to Vermont." Anyway, yeah, you know what I think of Mo, but actually kinda liked that one... even when we played Becca's ipod in the car and heard Kanye's "Sheeeeet" at the end of it. Don't want to be Da Kine Of Parents who pull tracks like that from their kids' iPods, and it's not like Becca doesn't know That Word anyway... but before I could even blink, Margo said "Did you hear him swear, Becca?" And Becca said "Yeah. I hate when they talk like that. I just like it when they sing." So that was the end of that. No lecture necessary. Phew.

Re your school choices... like I told you, both schools are great for what you want to do. I think Burlington is probably a little more happening than, uh, Orono, Maine, but... it's all down to what you want.

Chad is in Maine, right? Or is he still He Who Shall Remain Nameless??

Margo just came in and offered me Raisinets, and I would be a fool to decline.

Anyway, yeah, thank you, send me that track and any others you can think of that I-she-we might like. We still play those CDs you made us in the car. Margo copied a few of them for her work too. "Tell her I love that 'Hummingbirds' song."

She loves that "Hummingbirds" song, haha.

Great to hear from you... tis hot and humid here, but sans beach. And yet my home is cool and comfortable, even in early June.

Talk later Sanchez... keep in touch... virtual juice appreciated... without you, the booster just lacks boost! :-) Dr P aka Brian

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Ted Kennedy surgery a success

2008-06-03T09:01:00.000-07:00

From: Carmen McRae Sanchez (raesancheztralala@yahoo.com)
To: brianpressley14@aol.com
Date: Monday, June 2, 2008 5:43 PM
Subject: Ted Kennedy surgery a success

Only thing that will be effected drs say is his ability 2 drive lol.

n how r U dr p???????????????????

n how is the cafe??? miss my JUICES??? O how i miss making the goddam things lol.

YOURS I didnt mind, it was when 18 people would come in at once wanting them at 9:50 right before PAUL came in, rrrrrrrrrrrrr.

hey great track u need to hunt down 4 yr wifey (she loves euro disco right??) "sometimes I" by laura critchley. heard on upop (xm29). NOT on itunes yet, can't seem 2 find download anywhere. had 2 buy the cd single but will rip n email you the mp3 illegally when i get the disc lol. great track.

what do you think of mo's new 1 w kanye??? know how you like mo lol.

feeling good, weird 2 b outta gburg, a shame 2 as another year n they wouldve named the dorm wing after me, lol

nice 2 feel like i have a break, cape may great as ever, still up in the air 4 tha fall, la de da, what else is new??? maine? uvm? in both places but both expensive for a nonres, just need 2 decide decide decide decide decide!!!

hope yr summer is going well, just was thinking of u n missed u, thought i'd say hi n send u a virtual juice.

btw r u on facebook? i'm not it's gay lol but if u r maybe ill friend you. but i didn't say that lol.

there is a FLY THE SIZE OF A TUFTED TITMOUSE BUZZING AROUND MY GODDAM TUNA SALAD!!!!! GAH! KILL!!!! lol

n e way later byeeee

RAE!!!!!

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Re3: Sorry

2008-05-27T13:51:00.000-07:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Rita Pressley (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Tue, 27 May 2008 12:40:27 pm EDT
Subject: Re: Sorry

Ha, well if something like tings and coke are a meal, then I won't need another meal the rest of the day. Not eating tings and drinking coke, but having a 7 layer bar from the market (btw THEY MADE BANANA CRUNCH MUFFINS THIS WEEKEND!!! ) and a coffee, this is my third one of the morning. (7 layer bar) and all free!! Yesterday Todd called me and said "Maura if you want cheap food get to the market at 3, all of the baked stuff and entrees will be half off." Because they close during the week and can't keep the stuff around for 4 days till they reopen.

So I went there, Todd was in WRJ but his friend (Matt? Mac? Some "ma" name ) who works there said "You're Todd's friend right?" And I was picking out all this stuff for half off and he said "If you want to get it free come back at 5:30, 'cause whatever's left we'll just be throwing out." And I said "Well how do I know that what I want will still be here at 5:30?" And he said "Trust me, it will." So I picked out all this stuff that I wanted and he boxed it up for me, put it aside and at 5:25 I came back and picked it up. Four seven layer bars (the ones with the choco chips and coconut and graham crackers and butterscotch, I realize that's only four layers but still), three blondies, two brownies, a broken oatmeal raisin cookie that I felt bad for a cheddar bacon scone, and that is just the baked goods, I also snagged a quart container of maple bbq chicken salad, a quart of pasta salad, half a quart of sugar snap peas, four rounds of goat cheese with garlic and olives, a serving of mussel salad (awesome, SO glad I don't have shellfish allergies) and 10 spears of asparagus. All free, "we're just going to throw it out."

But thought it was really really cool that he'd put it aside for me and give it to me even though he could have made me pay for it at half off.

My rent is due at the end of the week and I do not work till Thurs nite, so no shift meals all week and I felt like I was scraping for cash a little bit. This food with the stuff I had in the fridge-freezer will get me through till my next payday.

So wooooooot!!!!

So that's lunch. Two seven layer bars, that one after the one I had for breakfast. So I have one left for later. And then I can start in on the veggies.

It was an overcast rainy morning here and I took the camera out because the clouds over the mountain were awesome. It's hard to say "over" the mountain because the clouds sometimes look like they are clinging to the face of the mountain, contained by the mountain, spawned by the mountain. Anyway a few weeks ago I found a nice vantage point on the rec path that I set my camera up at and this AM I took a roll there, just 35mm nothing special, I developed the negs but the 7 layer bars were calling me and I didn't get around to making any prints, just stuffing my face and surfing the net.

Really looking forward to the next two weeks and raking in some tips so I can FINALLY ride up to Burlington and get that negative scanner I had my eye on before the resto closed. Then I can examine these negatives on the screen without making contact sheets, which I like in some ways but with the scans I can see details that I can't see on a contact sheet, plus I don't waste paper then, do you get ANY of this???

I had something really cool happen this morning. I was sitting on the stoop drinking my coffee, thinking about Todd, missing him, and while I sat there I heard a BUZZZZ! BUZZZZ! in the lilac bush by the door. Knew what it was but each time didn't look fast enough to catch him. Well the third BUZZZZZ! I looked and there he was, a hummingbird going from lilac cluster to lilac cluster, filling up with nectar as he buzzed. Little thing, moved so fast. He was reddish brown with a white band around the neck. Anyway it would have been enough to have just seen him flitting around the bush (those last four words make me think of Todd too ) but then he buzzed off and through the thicket in front of me, stopped a few times like he was looking for more lilac, then came RIGHT OUT to the stoop and hovered about three feet over my head to my right, like he was checking me out. I said "Hi fella, good morning" and he BUZZZZZED! off around the lilac bush and back to whereever he came from.

Reading what you wrote me because I feel like I didn't respond to any of it, but we talked about all this.

No I don't feel funny telling mom or at least confirming mom's suspicions re Todd and me. It doesn't make me feel weird. I went a long time feeling like with sex, there was something f'd up about it, one night stands like truckfuck or just feeling like a sneaky kid like I did with Luke. Something about being with Todd though makes me feel like it's on the up and up, you know? Like he's a good person for me to be with and I want mom to know how serious I feel about him.

It's so funny, it wasn't "love at first sight" and I didn't feel like we hit it off totally, I still feel like I crack jokes or say things sometimes and he's like "Huh?" Or silent or one of these . Like in a few ways we're not on the same wavelength. But I don't know, I just feel in my heart like he's right for me and I can't explain it. I did almost from the moment I met him, I can't put it into words. But there are things I've done in the past that felt like my head's solution to problems, and then there are things I've done that feel like my HEART'S and my SPIRIT'S solution to problems, and with Todd, I've always felt it in my heart and spirit.

Felt like "This is someone I could fall in love with." And now I am.

That he's gorgeous too helped, I was attracted physically of course, but after initially meeting him it was less that than it was that I felt like my heart and spirit NEEDED him. Like he was some future that I wanted to be a part of. Does that make sense?

Anyway being with him in bed being his lover just feels so natural and right that I don't feel shy about it, I feel like I want to guard it, but it feels deep and serious and like a part of the whole picture, and I'm not blabbering about it to mom (or Margo) but I do feel like I don't mind them (or you or Jen or Missy) knowing that that's what's up. It just feels right and makes me more than happy, makes me feel deep and contented and full. Full, that's a good word.

And I love his kids, Nikki a sweetheart, Neil too. I am really hoping they will move up here this fall, Todd likes working up here and has been seeking full time someplace. (He gets only about 24 hrs a week at the resto) He hates to move out of WRJ, the kids have friends there, his parents are there and they do a lot for the kids. But like I told him, a lot of the problems you deal with are created by going back and forth. I am not stuck in Stowe and would move down there to be near him, but I like it here, like that it's close to Burlington and Montpelier, love the mountains and the setting, really loved the winter here and I know he does too.

He told me that HER family is up here and that's one reason he resists moving the kids to Stowe, to not be around all THEM. Big reason I guess.

ANyway it feels so good to talk about these things with them and be involved and feel like I'm making a difference, not just making him feel better but helping to impact his kids too.

I am just happy at the moment.

Except I only have one 7 layer bar left I guess I can eat a brownie. Or some veggies.

So I am off tonight and tomorrow, work Thurs night, off Fri and work Sat Sun. Todd will be down Fri night and staying over!!!!

Talk soon Rita! I love you! xoxoxoxoxoxo maura k

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Re3: It was good

2008-04-06T17:18:00.000-07:00

From: Rita Pressley LeDoux (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
To: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
Date: Sun, 6 Apr 2008 8:04:53 pm EDT
Subject: Re: It was good

Ahhhhhh, I am snookered Maura yes WHAT HAPPENED TO MY COLORS}S??????????? OK, nothings right, everything's f;d up here, hahahahahahahaha!!!!! Guess who's hitting the hot toddies??? Waiut a s=ec..............................
Almost
Ok. Phew.

Now... had this been an actual emergency, the announcers would have informed you where to tune in your area for up to the minute news and bulletins.

OK, like I said, I have had two hot toddies withthe wild orage tea and feel snookered, and guess what else????? MUSICANEX!! IN THE MEDICINE CABINET!!! I had a bottle from last winter that I was afraid to use since I was preggers with the dannster and HOLY SHIT! I JUST USED THE TERM "THE DANNSTER" FOR MY SON!! I AM GOING TO HELL!!!!!!!!
Cereally as I say I had musicnex from when I was preggers with Dannydan (who at that time was still BABY X) and was afriad to use it, so into the med cab it went (I also can't believe I just typed "med cab") and guess what? Unopened with expiration date 08/22/09. So I took your advice and I also took two of those pills and you are right. They work and they work fast.

So thank you.

Maura maura maura, I love you and i loved your email because you said some things that were so wise and insightful (yes, there is a part of me that holds back from my mom, yes I can see that there's a lot of my good qualities that come from her as well as the drive me nuts qualities etc etc, all of that stuff you wrote is why I love you so much) but then aslo you PISS ME OFF: ARE YOU A SLUT? ARE YOU A GIRL WITH A SLUTTY PAST? I DON'T THINK SO! AS I ALSO SAY, STOP TALKING ABOUT MY BEST FRIEND LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You had some hard things happen to you (like the bed of a pickup truck hahahaha, sorry but I couldn't resist) but this whole thing is about the way you REACTED when you didn't feel like you had any other alternatives. You have spent the last 10 years of your life in some ways like someone who's been running away from an attack but not looking around while you run to see that there are people who want to help you. Who feels like it was their fault and has been getting comfortable with the idea of slowly realizing that it wasn't.

I hope you talk to Todd tonight and you find out what's up, and when you do, the answer is I bet he didn't quite know how to approach you and maybe you felt a little vulnerable and needy too THAT DOESN" T MEAN YOU WERE WRONG just that it made you expect more. I bet when you see him tonight he comes to YOU and gives you a big wet smooch full-o-tongue and you'll be all luvyduvy looking at each other through the little order window again all night.

I think even though you can't read this yet that you ought to tell him that what you wished was what you told me, that he'd come back to your place and just hold you all night like your mom did. OK, maybe not tell him that but you know. Just let him know you NEEDED him is all.

Of course if he's getting pulled in directions by kids then maybe who knows, it could also be that he pulled back because he doesn't want to get pulled in another direction. But see this is why TALK!!!!!!

I know you are tonight and I can't wait to hear how it goes.

Meanwhile the dannster is in bed. And I'm not far behind myself

Call me when you can or if it's too late (like not in the next ten minutes email me.

I love you and hope you don't mind the drunken tone of this email. I'm just giddy from not COUGHING!!!
Love
Senorita!!!!!!!!!!

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Re3: GOing to vermont

2008-04-06T10:15:00.001-07:00

From: ledoux67@aol.com
To: christyswims@yahoo.com
Date: Sun, 6 Apr 2008 10:09 am
Subject: Re: GOIng to vermont

Hi woman! Sometimes seems so EXTRANEOUS to email, given that we talk all the time, but sometimes I just get up and it's a nice quiet Sunday morning and our breakfast plans get skuttled and I don't feel like yakkin' on the phone, so I log in and I write to you. I am in the house alone; Brian is out with Becca doing something in the backyard (I'm looking; they're filling the bird feeders, which should actually be called the SQUIRREL feeders, the little bastards, lmaaao). We were going to meet Mom and Dad for brunch but now Dad has this same cough and cold that everyone's been passing around, and they're just not up for it. So I made us pancakes; we demolished them and now those two are out there and I'm in here.

Now that I'm typing, I'm not even sure what I wanted to type ABOUT.

Maura, mainly, and Marty and Maggie. The three Ms in your life, aside from moi, lmaaao.

You asked me Friday if she'd ever "let on about any of this." Maura has confided in me about a lot of things, and she DID show me the website pics and those pool pics before she showed you, but she never let on that they were taken when she was 15 years old, no, no, no, no, no way. Especially not back that one year you guys lived here and she was one of my counselees. No. Never let on that anything happened with that coach. Never really mentioned much at all about being up there except the infamous "God, mom moves us from one loserville high school to another" comment lmaaao.

And "Just because YOU two went here doesn't make it any better than where I WAS" lmaaao

Her take on it was what you said back then: that she was being moved away from Tom Stewart and "kids I got in trouble with up there." That's what I remember. I didn't press the issue. Almost every time we talked they weren't formal appointments so much as her just popping in my office and saying hi, sitting and talking, opening up to me. Almost like she was feeling me out and seeing if she could confide in me. But she never confided any of all THIS that came out this past week.

It's hard to say looking back now and knowing the whole story, because Maura WAS so troubled back then, and it'd be so so so so easy to say OH! THAT'S WHAT IT WAS! YOU KNOW, I THOUGHT THAT SOMETHING LIKE THAT WAS GOING ON. But really I wasn't thinking abuse at the hands of a coach. I just thought "Weirdo mean asshole of an absentee dad who knows what strings to pull to use Maura to get AT you." So no, she never let on or even mentioned it. But then of course the things that are most troubling, the things you want to hide most and want people to see least, those are the things you DON'T mention.

I'm not surprised that she told Rita, and, no, Rita never told me either. I have heard nothing from Rita about anything Maura's said to her about anything; it's all been "I told Rita" from Maura you know? Meaning that they're tight and they don't chatter to everyone else like you and I do, lmaaao.

Thing you told me that she said that I think explains a lot: "I guess I figured if we moved away, it'd be done and then when we moved back and I beat his teams, I felt like 'fuck you, loser.'" She found ways to deal with it. But it still happened and I'm not surprised it took her this long to come to the realization that it was not HER FAULT. I think all of the things she's done since then have been "about" her taking control of it. You know?

We talked about all this already but I like typing it. When I type it, I re-read it, and when I re-read it, I see how insightful and brilliant I am, lmaaao.

Speaking of my insightful brilliance (or brilliant insight), we now come to the other two Ms, Marty and Maggie. I loved seeing them on Wednesday night and the best thing about it was that you weren't here, lmaaaao. Seriously, I missed you, and it was kind of weird at first to see Maggie without you... but then it also drove home what you always say, about how she is SUCH a daddy's girl. He TAMES her, Christy. Really. Not that she didn't have her three-year-old moments but it's just like when Brian is out with Becca. There's a different dad-daughter dynamic than there is mother-daughter. (I HATE the word "dynamic" lmaaao) Somehow she's more placid with him than with me.

So that was cool, seeing Marty in action as a dad without you, realizing that yeah, he's not just a good dad and husband because he works hard and brings home the bacon and all that, but because he is a good dad and loves Maggie and knows how to handle her.

We talked about all this with him, and that was the main thing that was nice about Wed night: WE TALKED TO MARTY. Not talked AT Marty, or talked AROUND Marty, but conversed WITH him, engaged him, exchanged ideas, got to pick his brain and actually KNOW him. Or at least I did. Brian of course talks to him all the time and they know each other pretty well. But he has always been shy around me and I always feel frustrated about it. But not Wed night.

It took a little pushing, as I told you, but...

Basically what I said was "Marty, Brian and me have been best friends for 40 years. Your wife and me have been best friends for 35 years. Your wife and Brian, I hate to say this, but they have their bond, whatever the hell it is lmaaao that goes back about that far too. I mean those two took the plunge YOUNG, Marty." Which was when the whole "I know, and I always hated him for it" thing came up. A surprising revelation to me, but surprising too that Brian and Marty have talked about it already.

ANyway my upshot was, and he got it: we don't push him to talk or open up or discuss things to "take sides" or "get stuff on him to report to Christy" etc etc but because we all love each other and we're all on the side of getting along and feeling better.

It was fun to try to get him to discuss the sex stuff, Christy. He SQUIRMS lmaaaao. He starts out with that whole "Well, it's private" thing and yeah, it is, but he feels like he's disrespecting YOU by talking about it. And I said "Marty, your wife and I have talked about everything there is to talk about regarding me, you, Brian, Scott Perry, Tom Stewart, Ernie Wise, Ginny Long, Darrell Hampton, Steve Kelly, Tara Longbaugh. Anyone either of us was involved with or might have even thought about being involved with. Sometimes it seems like we don't make a move unless we talk about it first. That's what WE'RE used to." I don't know why he still can't get used to the idea of talking through something to find the answer to it, but I told him that if he thought there was anything that he could tell me about you that would surprise or shock me, I'd pay him twenty five bucks.

And he said "You were involved with Tara Longbaugh?" lmaaao

And of course then that's Brian's prompt to bring up the sleepover. Yeeshus, any time we mention Tara Longbaugh, he HAS TO MENTION THE SLEEPOVER. "Tell Marty what you guys did with the Tickle uh huh huh huh." Pig. I swear, ONE IFFY THING happens at ONE JUNIOR HIGH SLUMBER PARTY and you never hear the end of it, lmaaaao.

I said "ONE MORE TIME, Brian: we had a sleepover, and while we were getting changed Tara and I started having a deodorant fight and she painted around my boobs with Tickle. It was just funny until later when it turned out she was a lesbo and Christy got all freaked out. She was all 'Ewwwww....you think she wanted to paint around MY boobs?'"

And of course your husband's response: "So Chris was AT that slumber party?" lmaaao.

So maybe THAT'S what he was thinking about Friday night. Tickle.

No, what he was thinking was that he loves you and missed you and "It really just blows my mind that she would make that trip. I just feel bad that I couldn't, but Maggie wouldn't have handled it well."

Revelation from Wed night: that he has not smoked weed since Maggie was conceived! "I figured I'd better give that up." Wow. I had no idea. I guess he just naturally looks stoned, lmaaao. And he said you didn't read him the riot act about it; he just decided on his own.

Brian and Becca are back in, so I'm going to hit SEND. This email is pretty much open ended, I guess. We can pick up the thread when we talk. Or not, lmaaaao.

Not sure what we're going to do the rest of the day... Mom was talking about running up 15 to Country Market for flats but that was before they bagged out on brunch. SHE might still want to; I'll have to call and see.

If you leave now, we can meet you around 1, lmaaaao.

Talk to ya later, woman... tell Marty and Maggie HI... xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo me!!

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2008-04-06T09:40:00.000-07:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Rita Pressley LeDoux (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Sun, 6 Apr 2008 05:38:55 am EDT
Subject: Re: It was good

Rita re your cold, I keep telling you, I know you hate taking meds but MUCINEX, that fixed me right up. A couple days of intermittant coughing after I started taking it and then I was healed. My coughs were "more productive" (that was what the box says ), I hacked a little first thing in the AM and then the rest of the day was good. And after a few days nothing, back to normal.

As you can see I am up, I am up because it was an early night, it was an early night because it wasn't busy and because Todd and I did NOT really see each other or do anything. I don't know Rita, I have a bad feeling. I opened up to him and told him all this shit after mom left Thurs night, talked a LONG time on the phone and told him basically all the stuff that happened that I told her about, plus a lot of other stuff, just opened up to him, felt like I could. Noticed as we talked that he didn't seem to have much to say about it, but then when I saw him Fri he just seemed DISTANT, and same last night, just distant. We hugged and he kissed me almost too quick, or maybe it was just me needing more and feeling like ANY way he kissed me would be too quick, I don't know.

I just worry that I told him too much, opened up too much, like now he saw a side of me that he didn't realize was there, that now he thinks I'm some SLUT and not the nice girl he thought, but some girl with a slutty past.

I just wanted to take his hand and bring him back to my place last night and have him hold me all night on my bed the way mom held me when she came up Monday. But he had to go take care of his kids.

I just wonder if anything can happen with him.

He says he will be up here all summer once the kids school ends.

Or maybe he was preoccupied with something too.

JUst hard for me not to think that it wasn't responding to me and what I told him since that's the only thing I know that changed between us, is that I told him about the modeling and the website and asshole coach taking the pictures and truckfuck and all of it.

And couldn't sleep for it either, went to bed at 10:30 when I got back, tossed and turned, took basically a bunch of naps through the night and now it's 5 am.

I don't even feel like taking the fucking camera out.

Life sucks at the moment.

I know I'm confused and distraught when I start thinking and wondering about LUKE, who I also told this stuff to, but who didn't freak out or get distant about it, maybe because he knew the stuff about the modeling going in, that was how he FOUND me, and we did a lot of that artsy modeling TOGETHER, if it hadn't been for that, we wouldn't have met. Pissed at him that he was such a big baby and then think "well look at what you were carrying around inside you Maura, how can you blame him?"

Listening to the girls talking about "how guys are" at work last night and thinking why do women always take that same old tack of bullshit of complaining about "how guys are" like ALL GUYS are ONE WAY, act one way. But then the whole time feeling distant from Todd, thinking "he's not that way" and yet he's some other way that made me feel distant.

Sometimes I just don't know if it's me or him or what.

I feel something for him and that something said to tell him what I was going through because he said that if I needed him, needed to be with him, call him, I could come down, all that. That made me think he was there for me, but then when I just needed to feel normal around him the last two nights, I just felt weird.

Was it me or him, do you think? SHould I have opened up to him?

I'm reading what you wrote so I get out of myself. I'm sorry you are not close to your mom, Rita. I know you've figured out that she tries and gives you what she can in her own way. And you have said she is better since you had Dannydan. I think that mom and me had a breakthrough because in a lot of ways I was holding back from her. Are you holding anything back from your mom? Or do you think maybe vice versa?

But like you say you have always had Margo to talk to, and your brothers. I like the way you put it one time: "I'm just guy oriented." See my dad was in my life intermittently and he was f'd up, but I thought he was normal, thing was he f'd ME up, till I realized that MOM was the normal loving one and HE was poison. YOU though had two loving parents and I know you say you have always been closer to your dad and to Brian and Danny (brother) (I still am not sure when I say "Danny" if you're sure I mean your brother or your son) and of course your best friend /husband is also a man, but your mom also made you who you were. I see that with my dad. I hate to say it but he made me a lot of who I am. He was kind of artsy (painter) and so I always kind of saw that as something cool that I wanted to do myself.

He just didn't want to have anything to do with the work of having me as a daughter. If he could just have me on the weekend and send me home, that was good enough for him, and like I've told you a million times, those weekends I'd visit him, it was like I didn't even see him, I'd just eat there and then go hang out.

So getting back on track here, just the little I know your mom I see a lot of her in you, and not just "bad things" (you know what I mean, the things that you do that annoy you, that make you scream I'M JUST LIKE MY MOTHER!! to yourself) but your gentleness, the way you give to people around you like you say she does.

If there's something that you feel like you need her to hold you for and make you feel better about, maybe the way you need to get her to do it is to take the risk and open up to her and that will give her the window, the opportunity to get closer. Maybe she doesn't even know you NEED that. probably she misses being close to you as much as you miss being close to her. That was the one thing that mom kept saying most of all: "I miss you so much sweetie." I miss her too.

There was something else but I lost my train of thought. I'm going to go nuke my coffee and see if it comes back to me.

It didn't

I could keep whining and writing but we will talk later today and it's better to whine interactively so I'll save it

Just glad that Tony did the right thing and made you feel better when he got home and fixed you up with toddies!!! It's almost like he has someone here helping give him ideas Those always fixed me up when I was sick but the best thing like I said is Mucinex. You take just two doses (four tabs) of those and soon you won't even REMEMBER what a cough IS.

Hope little Dannydan doesn't get the cold and that you are feeling better and that you enjoy your Sunday morning, I always like thinking of you guys walking through your pretty green neighborhood (it's melting and muddy and yucky up here!) on Sunday mornings, walking for your bagels and then sneaking them into the cafe across the street so you can have "good coffee." I love mom and like seeing my aunt and all but next trip south is going to be "just for you guys," ok? I would like 3 or 4 days there, if you can stand it.

Talk to you later today Rita, I love you! Kiss and hug Tony and Danny for me! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo maura k

P.S. Thanks for snagging me a couple beanies, one can never have too many of such things

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2008-04-06T09:28:00.000-07:00

From: Rita Pressley LeDoux (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
To: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
Date: Fri, 4 Apr 2008 7:23:16 pm EDT
Subject: Re: It was good

Last things first Mauramodel: yes, not only do I still have connections for giveaway items, but have already MAILED the beanie to you! Two in fact... one for you, and one for that... special someone!!!!!

I called the girls and had them put a dozen or so aside for me. KNEW no way in hell I'd be down there tonight.

Because... ALL DAY I HAVE BEEN FUCKING MISERABLE AND FED UP AND HAD IT WITH THIS FUCKING COLD AND COUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

How miserable? Let's examine, shall we, a transcript of an email I STARTED to type to you about noon and didn't finish or send:

"What is the worst thing about being a mom??? That when you're a mom and you're sick and at home with the baby while Tha Hubbsta works, guess what??? YOU'RE STILL THE MOM!!!!! There is not a mom there to take care of YOU and the baby... YOU TAKE CARE OF THE BABY AND YOU!!!! I have been at home alone all day, coughing my effing lungs out, sucking on halls and honees, wondering why the effing meds I got from Dr. Shockley haven't knock this out of my system. I am about at the end of my rope... frustrated with Dannydan (like it's HIS fault)"

Well... then... at 2 pm, EARLY by 90 minutes because he knew I felt sick, Tonybaloney came home!!!!!!!!!

I BAWLED MY HEAD OFF, and he hugged me nice and sent me to bed and I took a nice two hour nap... then when I got up we ordered out chinese (which I could not even TASTE) but wait... it gets better...

He made me.... HOT TODDIES.

I have never had a hot toddy. When I saw Brian and Margo at the game Monday (THAT didn't help either, sitting out in that damp stadium watching the Orioles LOSE on Monday), Margo kept saying "You need to suck down a couple toddies, Senorita," and Brian and I have talked about this. Like I told him, I would if I knew what it was. Somehow the medicinal use of WHISKEY skipped a generation in our family.

Thank God that Tony knew exactly what to do. I watched. So simple: shot of whiskey, tablespoon of honey, juice from a quarter lemon, topped off with hot tea (in this case, the first one was lapsang souchong, the second wild sweet orange) and except for the cough I just coughed, I haven't coughed ONCE in the last hour.

OK. I coughed a couple times. But I didn't CARE. And I feel all warm and snugglebunnyish.

So a fucking awful day turns around 180 degrees thanks to BOOZE!!!!

But enough about moi... Maura, I know I keep saying this on the phone but I am so happy that your mom came up to see you. And I know you're amazed to hear anyone say this, but I wish I was as close to my mom as you are to yours.

I knew, knowing your mom the little I do, that it wouldn't be "three days of therapy." But in a way, it was. Not being shrunk by a shrink, but getting the kind of mental and emotional energy and attention you needed.

We will come up sometime soon. Thought it'd be over Tony's break but the tournament had other plans. Who knew his team would suck all season and then come on strong in the tournament??

Hope you get to spend quality time with Todd.

Sorry this is disjointed, but one, we talked about most of it already, and two, damm, I'm DRUNK!!!!

Love you Maura, really happy for you and will talk tomorrow, at which time I hope I'm not coughing like a dying smoker. I'll try to toddy up first.

Love
Rita and Tony and Dannydan

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It was good

2008-04-06T09:21:00.000-07:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Rita Pressley LeDoux (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Fri, 4 Apr 2008 11:46:51 am EDT
Subject: It was good

Hi Rita. Mom just left for PA, we had breakfast at the Green Goddess and then she hit the road right from there.

It was a really good couple days, a good visit, not intense except for the first night when she got here, where I just let it all out with her and we laid on the bed and talked, actually fell asleep on my bed (felt a little funny sleeping with my mom but it also felt good, like it was just what I needed), then got up the next morning and just felt refreshed and like I had ENERGY. Took the camera out with her in tow and took shots down by the stream, didn't really do much of anything that I wouldn't have done normally except the difference was she was here and it felt so nice to feel like she cared, wanted to be there, all that. I know that sounds stupid but I always wondered growing up if she really loved me, if she didn't blame me for having to be a single mom, all that, and then with stuff that dumb fuck my "dad" Tom Stewart used to say about her, always questioning her parenting skills and abilities and whether or not she wanted to be a parent, I just always felt like an unwanted kid. But that she would come up here and spend three days with me, that just made me feel so good.

And I was really worried like I told you on the phone Monday that it was going to end up being three days of therapy, you know, too intense, "talking about things" constantly and just feeling stirred up, but really it was just the opposite. We got it all out when she got here Mon night, talked about it and fell asleep, got up the next morning and except for a couple conversations here and there we mainly just did other things.

Best thing is that we LAUGH so much, she is so funny and says "No one makes me laugh like you Maura, god." Went out to the nail (the Rusty Nail, a pickup joint here) on Wed nite and a couple guys were hitting on us, "You two are sisters, come on" etc THAT old line. And just laughing so hard, really my face hurt, just so much fun, so funny.

Cereally as you would say I miss her so much, so nice to have her up here and I love her, means so much to me that she would travel up here and do that.

So much more that I could say and I will when we talk but just wanted to let you know that it went the opposite of what I was afraid of, really made me feel better and close to her and so glad she came up. Had fun and got stuff out and all of it.

Still do not know what I want to DO about it. It's a real weird shift, going from feeling like I was the dumb bad girl who did something wrong naughty stupid etc by posing for those pics, not pushing his hand away, etc etc etc that it was therefore ALL MY FAULT, to realizing that HE was the one who took advantage, pushed me, and that legally its HIS fault.

Margo sent me links about all this though to read up on, I started looking at a couple but really just couldn't process.

And still could not give a LOT of details to mom.

She said "It's hard for me to not go forward and turn him in but if it's going to happen you're the one who's going to have to do it Maura, I'm not the one to decide."

But both of them telling me the same thing, there's nothing to be afraid of here.

And also what I thought, that if it happened to me, am I the only swimmer he's ever tried this shit on in twenty some years of coaching??

Skeeveball motherfucker.

OK anyway, I can feel my blood starting to boil.

THe big question for you is: can you score me an ORIOLES KNIT BEANIE??? Or don't you have connections for giveaways anymore??

I am going to go make tea and dive into the darkroom, make some prints of the pics I took Tuesday AM.

Love you and hope we talk today, I go into work at 4. xoxoxoxoxoxo love you maura k

P.S. Talked to TOdd briefly a few times, need to call him, seemed like it rang every time we were busy. But will see him tonight!!

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2008-04-06T09:10:00.000-07:00

From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Margo Pressley (ledoux67@aol.com)
Date: Tue, 1 Apr 2008 5:53:38 pm EDT
Subject: Re: GOIng to vermont

Sweet that we slept in the same bed, I guess, lol, she kept kneeing me and she snores, lol.

I'm a little tired but wanted to check my email since you said you wrote me.

So glad I could come up and Maura was so happy to see me, we hugged each other for so long, like we just didn't want to let go, felt so good. She kept going "I'm so blown away you came up here mom." I know it's a long drive but I don't think of it as being any big deal. She is my DAUGHTER and this is one of the hardest things she has EVER gone through. If I wouldn't come up now, when would I? I love her and sometimes someone BEING THERE is the most important thing when you love someone. Didn't want to just say "I love you, I'm sorry" on the phone and leave it at that. Wanted to be there to hug her and let her FEEL that I love her. Which as I told her last night was something I didn't get enough of sometimes growing up, being one of eight with a dad who's gone in DC half the time can do that to you. I don't want to just SAY I'm there for you, I want to DO I'm there for you.

She is taking a nap right now, we might go out to supper in a little bit, I'm really not hungry yet but we'll see.

We talked for a long time last night, just laid on her bed and I held her and we talked, fell asleep doing that which was why I slept in there, just didn't feel like getting the futon ready and so we pulled the covers up and stayed put.

Today we were both a little wrung out and got up late, went to her favorite market for coffee and muffins (and BREAD!!!) and got soup for lunch. Tooled around the countryside a little, went to the base of the mountain but did not get out, just was not in the mood given the weather (it rained on and off all day, it's about 50 out probably). Good thing I decided not to strap my skis on the roof rack after all. If it's nicer tomorrow we might ride the gondola up to the peak.

My impressions of this place? Just beautiful and can see why she loves it and her apartment is HUGE. When you said it was big I was NOT picturing this and even in the pictures she sent it somehow didn't look this spacious. Love the open ceiling with the rafters and the view of the mountains.

Just feel a little woozy from everything but wanted to write you back. I'll write more when I feel like I can get my thoughts together more. Actually I may just go in and join her. If she won't knee me, lol.

She said thanks for the hug and the kiss and she'll talk to you and fill you in if I don't, lol.

Later Margo! xoxoxoxoxox love you christy

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2008-04-01T08:03:00.000-07:00

From: ledoux67@aol.com
To: christyswims@yahoo.com
Date: Tue, 1 Apr 2008 10:01 am
Subject: Re: GOIng to vermont

Hey woman. Glad to talk to you this AM and glad your trip went well... and feeling "I don't even know the word" that you made a trip up there to be there with Maura. Happy? Proud? Impressed? I know you're just doing what you need to do but I know driving seven hours like that isn't a small deal, having made the trip ourselves.

I just

Damn

OK I'm TRYING lmaao. I just keep getting interrupted by WORK.

This morning when I got in I checked my messages same as ever, went and got tea, read this, was going to reply, you called. OK, so the reply got put on hold. Then we have our Tuesday meeting first period, so couldn't type for another 45 minutes. Then had two appointments stacked up one on top of the other. Then Trish went home sick and so I was out at the desk taking my turn there. Then another appointment, three phone calls. Every time I try to write this morning

It happened again! AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

So now as I type this it's 10:35 (the clock on the computer says 9:35; they STILL have not adjusted the times here for daylight savings. I keep setting it forward and then when I come in the next morning, it's set BACK. Where are the computer geek kids to fix stuff like this when you NEED them??????

I just shut the door. They're on their own till I finish this.

I don't want to call because I know you two are probably talking doing stuff etc etc. But really so happy that Maura decided to open up to you and tell you this, which had to have been eating away at her all these years. You know, when I saw her doing that website the modelling etc etc, part of me was thinking "OK, she's really just coming into her own as a woman, it's like her piercing her own lip, maybe it's not the way WE would do things but it's something SHE needs to do," and of course then as the modelling (GO AWAY! THE DOOR IS SHUT! lmaaaao) took her in another direction, feeling like "well this is good." But still the fact that it was NUDE modelling all the time (except for the Kohl's etc stuff)... even though she was modelling for life drawing classes, even though the work she did with Ron Snyder was artsy and got her in APERTURE and all that... still in the back of my mind there was always a part of me that felt like "She's acting out. This is really about something else." Not knowing WHAT it was about. And it struck me as really... I don't know... odd... that for something she said she enjoyed so much, as soon as she started to really have success with it and could have gone in one direction with it (the APERTURE thing really still just blows my mind and I know she must've gotten approached to do more shoots after that), she decided instead to go a whole other direction with it. Taking herself out from in FRONT of the camera and being BEHIND it.

Just always had a feeling there was a deep dark secret driving this. And now we know.

Just rereading that last big paragraph (do YOU ever do that? I do that all the time: re-read and revise) and it made me realize: I never really heard Maura say she "enjoyed" it, or if she did, I don't remember it. What I remember is her saying she FELT COMFORTABLE DOING IT.

That's what I think this all was about. Ten, eleven years of feeling comfortable with herself again... to the point that she could finally tell you what really happened.

And I just noticed that AOL is flagging my word "modelling." Doesn't that have two Ls? Rrrrrrrrrr.

Anyway, I am glad you made the trip. Not so bad is it?? Beautiful drive. (Interrupted AGAIN. I guess I have to open the door.)

It's hard for me to keep my train of thought here.

I can send you guys a couple links to information about how to deal with this sort of thing. Don't know what she wants to do but I think the thing she said kind of hints at how she feels and what she'd LIKE to do. "What if he's doing that to girls now??"

Basically I think all she'd have to do is come forward with the pictures and say what happened. Then if the police do an investigation, which I'm sure they would, they would interview other girls who swam for him to see if anyone else comes forward.

Pretty sure since it happened when she was a minor that she would be protected to a point if

NOW YOU'RE INTERRUPTING ME ON THE PHONE!! CAN'T A GENIE TAKE A BAAAATHH??? lmaaao.

I'm still going to send this...

That's sweet by the way that you slept in the same bed last night. She needed her mom to give her a big all night hug. I think she's just wanted to be CLOSE to you like this for a long time and that's why even though this all sucks, it's making you two closer and that is so good. It's what you've really wanted all along, right??

Before

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I CAN'T EVEN TYPE "BEFORE SOMEONE ELSE INTERRUPTS ME" WITHOUT BEING INTERRUPTED!!!!!

I'm going to hit send now and cut my losses. Talk later! Hug and kiss your daughter for me... tell her I'm here if she needs to talk. xoxoxoxoxox me!!

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Re: Gas money

2008-04-01T07:03:00.000-07:00

From: Rita Pressley-LeDoux (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
To: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
Date: Tue, 1 Apr 2008 3:24:19 am EDT
Subject: Re: Gas money

This one almost got lost... awwwwwww... that's nice Maura. Dads are great. And Marty IS your dad now. I agree with your mom: send a card.

About ready to doze off sitting here... wow... the gelcaps don't hit me like this. I wonder if this shit has ALCOHOL in it... senorita reads label.... first ingredient... but there has to be something ELSE in it.... something that... makes me... very... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... thwak!! oiangg'90234u[-2948u6t[-429tu

Love,
Rita

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Re: Mom knows

2008-04-01T06:43:00.000-07:00

From: Rita (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
To: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
Date: Tue, 1 Apr 2008 3:21:07 am EDT
Subject: Re: Mom knows

The "only Tony gets up to feed Dannydan during the night" theory works only in THEORY, I'm here at 3 AM to tell you. GOt up about an hour ago and he was just wailing like a siren, poor little guy, and from the moment I hear him, no, I can't just stay in bed and let Tony "go take care of him" and he can't stay in bed and just let ME go take care of him. We try to stick to the "deal" but what always ends up happening is that we BOTH get up, since we both ARE up. And then once Dannydan's calmed down HE goes back to sleep (Tony) (although Dannydan does too) and ~~ I ~~ am still up.

So that's when I get up and write you.

I am fighting a cold AGAIN. Took some liquid nyquil... I am used to the gelcaps and didn't know the liquid had this pleasing LICORICE flavor. Uck.

Even though we talked yesterday I still had to write you. I'm so glad you and your mom talked... that must have been so hard and of COURSE she wanted to come up to see you and wouldn't hesitate. This is a pretty big deal, Maura... something coming out in the open that's been behind the scenes for what now... ten years? Something that she "had a feeling" was wrong and sort of suspected the worse and now she KNOWS the worse (that should be "worst" I guess, huh). I guess not every mom in the world would drive eight hours to come see her grown daughter and be there for her in a crisis but your mom is not "every mom."

Anyway I am so happy for you that she is there.

I don't know what you should do next about all this but damn, I can't believe you have the pictures. Maura, you were one ballsy girl in high school. That must've been like mission impossible, you sneaking into his office and getting those pictures off his computer. And DON'T SECOND GUESS YOURSELF. The last thing you were probably thinking back then was to report him; you just didn't want HIM having the pictures. You went with a part of you that knew SOMETHING was wrong about it even though you maybe weren't sure what to DO about it. So you were 15! You give credit to DAVE... well give YOURSELF a little credit for initiative... YOU SNUCK INTO THE PERV'S OFFICE AND HACKED HIS COMPUTER AND TOOK THE FILES!!!!!!!!! How many 15 year old girls in your shoes can do THAT??

You are one of a kind Maura.

I think it's true what you said: you'll feel better now that you've gotten it out.

And you will also feel better being with your mom, since I KNOW a lot of the distance you say you've felt with her has come from how you felt about all this and what you thought she'd think, how she'd respond, etc etc etc.

3:15. I am drowsy now... Nyquil kicking in.

I've said a lot of what I wanted to say but one more thing: so funny to me how you say there has always been DISTANCE between you and your mom, and a lot of it was from this. And look: you brought THIS out into the open and what does she do? She drives 8 hours to be with you... she closes the distance between you. A nice symbolic act as my brother would say.

Anyhoo.... I'm going back to bed. I think I was up and antsy because I just wanted to make contact with you.

The less said about that rainy drizzly debacle of a 6-2 opening day loss we went to yesterday, the better. Opening day is always fun, but it'd be funner if we would WIN. But always fun to go see my brother and Margo and Becca at the ballpark. And nice to still be able to retreat to EMPLOYEE ONLY dry areas with everyone (esp Dannydan) when it starts pouring biblically.

I watched the ballgirl sitting in my old seat by the left field tarp, getting soaked, and I thought "Damn, that was a fun summer. That was a fun job. She's soaked. Better her than me!"

Hard to believe that in a month I am going to be back working there. It's a fun job and I don't really mind. Plus it will just be part time.

OK... off to bed Maura.... I love you and I am here for you too, although I can't drive 10 hours to see you. But I am there in spirit, sister!

Love
Rita

P.S. No I don't think that you getting up this morning and saying APRIL FOOLS to your mom would be a good idea.

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GOIng to vermont

2008-04-01T06:38:00.000-07:00

From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Margo Pressley (ledoux67@aol.com)
Date: Mon, 31 Mar 2008 09:47:22 am EDT
Subject: GOIng to vermont

Quick. Had quite a call with Maura last night. Will fill you in when i call later but the upshot, I'm going up to Vermont for a few days, my daughter needs me and I need to be with her.

All I'll say for now is about Coach Fry, I was right. "Something happened" to Maura with him allright. Pretty bad stuff. I always had a feeling and she told me last night, now I know.

Feel so bad about it, can't wait to get in the car alone and cry.

Can't wait to SEE her mainly.

So I'll call (handsfree) when I'm on the road. I know you're busy today and can't talk at your leisure, that's ok. Just want to let you know I'm not home, I'm on the road, it's kind of last minute and I'll be up there till Thursday, maybe Friday.

Later! xoxoxoxoxoxo love you christy

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Re: How did you know??

2008-04-01T06:31:00.001-07:00

From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Maura (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
Date: Mon, 31 Mar 2008 09:43:58 am EDT
Subject: Re: How do you know??

Hi sweetie, we can talk more about this when I see you tonight but since you said "write back not call" and tell you, I will.

I just never had a good feeling about him. It was a vague feeling that he was up to something, that there was something not right there, just a feeling that he was someone I didn't want you around. It was just a feeling but STRONG, vague only because I couldn't put a finger on what it was but knew it was SOMETHING. Realizing what it MIGHT be came in hindsight when I was working at the Y and I saw him with his students-swim teams and felt like he was just inappropriate, patting girls on the butt occasionally and other borderline inappropriate physical contact, calling them honey baby sweetie etc. A "good coach" if girls swimming well for him, district titles, girls going to states etc is any standard, and a lot of them have gone on to bigger and better things, D1 schools, etc, but still "seeing him in action" just made me feel creepy and felt like it "connected dots" although I still didn't really KNOW anything.

Anyway I was complaining to Margo about him one time that I'd watched him at a practice, him babying and honeying these girls, just seemed wrong, anyway I told Margo about this and she said "He was Maura's coach that one year wasn't he? God it's a good thing you got her away from HIM." And that was when I realized yeah, I didn't want you around him. The vague feeling was strong enough to make me think "Get your daughter away." Not realizing.

Anyway I just didn't like him, couldn't figure it out, figured it was just that he was a lech but he wasn't the only lech I'd ever run into, why did HE rub me the wrong way so much? ANd now I know.

Maura again I am so sorry you went through this. I love you. I am your mom and at that age you were my responsibility and so it's hard for me not to feel like I failed you in some way. I saw signs and I didn't read them right, I should have protected you, I feel so awful about it honey. Love you and feel so sorry that it happened and that it fucked you up.

But you are such a great woman, a great person, so strong and someone I am so proud of. And you are that way in spite of this happening and in some ways as a result. You will be fine, I know that, I love you, I just wish I'd known and DONE something about it back then. I am so so sorry.

And so I need to come up there to be with you because I feel like I wasn't there for you back then, I guess is my answer when you said I really don't have to come up. My answer is I DO and I CAN so I AM.

Marty is going to take personal time this week and stay home with Maggie so it's not a problem. He said he might take her down to his parents for a few days, visit with them.

I'm going to go toss a suitcase together and will call when I leave the house. Should be about 45 minutes.

I will also bring my skis even though it looks like RAIN the next few days.

I love you sweetie!! Love you love you love you my daughter! xoxoxoxoxoxo Mom

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PS

2008-04-01T06:24:00.000-07:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Rita (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Mon, 31 Mar 2008 09:27:58 AM EDT
Subject: PS

Just was thinking Rita, telling mom was easier because I'd already told YOU, I felt so scared to tell you all that stuff when I told you, thought you might think I was a bad person-gross all that and not be my friend anymore, and that was BULLSHIT, and so I thought of that and thought of you when I was talking to mom and I knew since it worked out all right with you, it'd work out all right with her. I love you! Breakfast now! xoxoxoxoxo maura k

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Mom knows

2008-04-01T06:08:00.000-07:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Rita (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Mon, 31 Mar 2008 06:11:36 -0700 (PDT)
Subject: Mom knows

Mom knows what happened Rita. We were on the phone yest aft before I went to work and we were talking about thurs nite at the restaurant, seeing that guy but also about coach Fry and I was trying to make a joke of it because I kind of didn't want to talk about it, get all upset before I went in for work, and I said "You really don't like him do you mom?" And she said "no, and I realize I never had much contact with the man, just saw him at your meets but then when I took the job at the y I got to see him in action and I just always thought he was a leering transparent inappropriate pig who doesnt' respect his girls boundaries and if I didn't know better, I'd swear to god that he tried something with you back then.You know?" Well I just was quiet and she said "Maura, DID he try something?" And I just had to tell her YES. TOld her basically the whole thing, about how he started out taking pictures of me in my swimsuit and that next thing I know I'm in the locker room posing nude, going over to his house, no sex but all picture taking, that's what those "late practices" were, and then finally the pool pictures, and she just said "Oh my god. So those pictures you posted on the internet a few years ago were taken when you were 15? I thought there was something wrong about them" ANd I said YES, THERE WAS, THAT WAS WHY I TOOK THEM DOWN AND PULLED OUT OF THE SITE WITH THOSE GIRLS, BUT WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO TELL YOU THEN???

Told her about the bus ride back from districts freshman year and sitting in that little bus next to him and feeling his hand creeping up my leg and NOT STOPPING HIM.

"So I was right. I knew something happened."

She was crying, "Maura I'm so sorry, really, I'm sorry. I did what I could, I got you out of there. I just had a feeling but I didn't know for sure. I wish I'd asked, I wish I'd pushed you." And meanwhile I'm a mess, going "it's all right, I wish I'd TOLD you, I was afraid, I felt like I was already in enough trouble with you." And she said "Maura you're my daughter, you were difficult sometimes but I love you, I wanted to protect you, if I'd known that was going on I would have stood up for you."

I said "so that was why we moved to Gettysburg?" and she said "No, no, it was mainly because I wanted to get us--get you--away from your dad. But I just had this FEELING that there was something else going on that I needed to get you away from and that guy always made me feel creepy. And then a couple years ago seeing him in action at the Y, I really just came to hate him, I'd just see him with those girls and I'd think "God I'm glad Maura didn't keep swimming for him."

She said she wants to come up here, I said "Mom it's eight hours up here, what'll you do with Maggie, you can't do that." And she said "Maura I just want to be there for you." So maybe she's coming up, I don't know. I didn't talk to her today.

ANyway after THAT I had WORK. Had to pull myself together, put a face on, feeling all wrung out and drained from crying and having the truth wrung out of me (I was the one who did the wringing) (by the way I ALSO told her about screwing the guy in the pickup truck, the whole thing. I'd given her some song and dance about it back then and she knew, she said "Maura, I can always tell when your stories don't add up. I may not be able to figure out what's really going on but I know what ISN'T".

So like I said after all that, WORK. I pulled myself together, got in there about ten minutes late, thought I was doing ok, pulled together, all that, I clock in, first person I see is Todd, he looks right at me and says "Maura, are you all right?" and I just started crying again. Went back into Dingdong's office and he sat with me and held me, I didn't tell him details but he was so sweet, he held me while I cried which was just what I needed. After that I felt sort of ok and I pulled myself together AGAIN and made it through the night. Thank god it wasn't busy and we were done early, TOdd had to go back to WRJ last night but before I left he hugged me again, kissed me, said to call him at his parents if I needed him, then when I left he called from the road and said if I wanted to come down there and be with him I could, he'd give me directions. I said I didn't know, I'd think about it.

And now Mom just called and said she's booked a flight to Burlington and is coming up, Martydad is going to take a couple days off work and watch Maggie.

I love my mom but I want to be with TODD!!!!

But I think mom and me need to work this all out first.

I hate being 25 years old and feeling like I WANT MY MOMMY!!!!! I NEED MY MOMMY!!!! But I do, wouldn't want to ASK her to come up but I am so glad she is.

She said she'll call when she's on the road. Flying from Harrisburg to Philly to Burlington.

I just looked at expedia and that's $700 almost!!!! For something that's more trouble than driving.

I called her back and said "Why not drive?" and she said "I want to get up there" and I said "But look at how long the flight is, you're almost spending as much time to fly as you would to drive. If you leave now you'll be here by supper." So she cancelled the flight and is driving.

"Flying just feels faster that's all."

I'm going to get off line, Rita, it's been a hard last few days but I feel a little better, just wrung out and now also wondering what I should do about all this, should I turn the guy in, what now??

Those pictures from the pool have the time stamp (03/09/1997) right on them in the corner (when I used them for the site I cropped them) and also in the PROPERTIES of the picture. Get this, he had those pictures on the PC in his office at the school!!!! As soon as I had them taken I felt like there was something wrong, I knew a boy (David Asch) who was a computer geek who I always felt like kind of had a crush on me, and one of the things those guys did in high school was "work on faculty computers." I told him I had a problem with someone who stole files from me and had them on their computer and I wanted to get on and delete them. He said "who?" I didn't tell him WHAT specifically but told him "Coach Fry" and of course he could get user id, passwords etc for every PC in the school and he told me how to find files, copy, delete, etc etc etc. Snuck me a laptop out of the computer room so I could copy them and put them onto a CD. Did it after school one day. It took forfreakingEVER to find the pictures on his computer and the whole time I was scared someone would come in. ANyway I copied them to the laptop, deleted them from his computer and I don't know if he ever knew what happened to them. Although he probably had them at home, or maybe not.

Can you believe though that someone like that would keep that stuff on their work computer at a school? Nude pictures of an underage student???? It's almost like he WANTED to get caught. Or maybe he felt safer having them there than at home where wife might find.

I haven't thought about Dave in a long time. He could've really gotten in trouble for doing that. How did HE know what I was doing? Someone like him had to have got a lot of "requests." But he gave me the laptop, cables, a CD burner, wrote down how to do what I needed to do step by step, where to look. If it hadn't been for him I would have NOTHING on that pig.

He was an angel. I wish I could find him and say hi.

Say THANK YOU.

I am wrung out.

I need breakfast.

I need a drink. NOT a boilermaker.

Talk later Rita. I love you! xoxoxoxoxoxo maura k

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How did you know?

2008-04-01T06:04:00.000-07:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Mom (christyswims@yahoo.com)
Date: Mon, 31 Mar 2008 08:25:52 am EDT
Subject: How did you know??

My big question is, how did you KNOW "something happened" with Coach Fry??

Write back and tell me, don't call, I feel wrung out from talking and crying last nite.

I love you so much mom. xoxoxoxoxo maura

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Gas money

2008-03-30T05:14:00.000-07:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Rita Pressley (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Sun, 30 Mar 2008 06:50:50 am EDT
Subject: Gas money

So funny, had to tell you this because I just thought of it in the little email I wrote mom. Martydad when I left mom's handed me fifty bucks and said "Here, this'll get you to Albany at least." Gas money. He does NOT have to do that and more than that it's more than Tom Stewart ever would or DID do for me. He's not even my real dad but he cares for me more than my real dad ever did.

Don't even know his email address but ought to write to HIM and tell him.

Or maybe, as mom says, "Here's an idea. Buy a stamp. Send a card." Maybe.

Anyway, talk later. xoxoxoxo love you maura k

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2008-03-30T05:09:00.000-07:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Mom (christyswims@yahoo.com)
Date: Sun, 30 Mar 2008 6:48:04 am EDT
Subject: Sunday

Hi mom, up early and just thinking about you, about Thursday night. I love you so much and so glad you were there with me when I had my CLOSE ENCOUNTER. Just had to tell you that.

That and I wish we'd done the kotex thing she would have DEFINITELY helped hold him down, and probably the kids would have each taken an arm too.

I will call later today (phone is FINALLY charged, car charger in the CAR, house charger in the HOUSE ).

Tell Maggie that sissy misses her and give Martydad a big hug, tell him thanks for the gas money, that is so sweet he does that.

Later mom! I love you! xoxoxoxoxoxo maura

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Re: Where are you???

2008-03-30T05:01:00.000-07:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Rita Pressley (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Sun, 30 Mar 2008 06:38:29 am EDT
Subject: Re: Where are you???

I am fine, I am here, made it back. My phone battery died, it was low when I left mom's and I didn't have the home charger, so on the trip back it was low and finally ran down all the way but I ALSO didn't have the CAR charger, then when I got home could not find my HOME charger, just the car charger. Didn't want to plug the phone into my dash and maybe draw on the battery, so I held out and kept looking and finally found the home charger yesterday, it was in the film pack I take along with the hassleblad. Why THERE I have no idea. Probably I thought I was going to take that camera to PA with me and then changed my mind.

Anyway I had no phone yesterday and all last night, so this morning when I got up there were I think 15 messages. "Where are you, where are you, where are you, are you ok, are you all right, call me, call us" It's nice to know everyone cares and just amazing how when you're just incommunicado for just a day and a half, people get panicked.

I was going to call you from the resto last nite just to let you know I was ok, I called mom anyway, she was worried.

So I just texted you back: I'M FINE. CHECK EMAIL

I know we'll talk but I feel like writing about it so here goes. Thursday night we went out (Mom and Martydad and Maggie and me) to this restaurant up by 322, a nice place, great steaks and cozy atmosphere, but (part #1 of phone message you heard) the place where a couple winters ago when I was home on break and upset about Luke, I met that guy at the bar and got plowed on boilermakers and we went out to the parking lot and fucked in the bed of his pickup. Amazingly stupid awful drunken night that thank god led to no regrets, except for permanent pit marks on my back shoulders and ass from gravel NOT the kind of night that you want to remember. So of course we go into this resto and who is sitting at the end of the bar but Mr. Truckfuck. (Be right back, coffee is ice cold) (back, coffee is hot ) And as soon as we came in he saw ME and I could tell I looked familiar to him (intimately) and he kept looking over and I kept trying to become invisible, and of course thank god I am with mom and Martydad and Maggie, who are oblivious, so the chances of this guy coming up and saying "Hi, remember me???" are a LITTLE slim. Still I felt really weird and mom could tell, she said "What's wrong sweetie? Did you just spit up in your mouth?" lol I guess I had that look. And I said "I'll tell you then."

Well FORTUNATELY there was no wait for our table, so the hostess seats us and now comes part two. I look across the room and seated at a corner table with his wife and TWO KIDS is Coach Fry, the motherfucker who took the pool pics and diddled me on the bus back from districts in ninth grade. WITH WIFE AND KIDS. Fine upstanding citizen eh motherfucker??? Well as soon as I saw him I think actually I DID spit up in my mouth, could feel the blood rushing from my face and thank God mom was there, she said "I think we girls need to go powder our noses" (Maggie said "I can go powder MY nose too!") and we retreated to the safety of the bathroom (just me and mom, no Maggie) and when we got in there, I just felt like I could BREATHE and she gave me a big hug and said "What?" And I told her IN VERY VAGUE TERMS about Truckfuck, not saying "Well, mom, that guy at the bar and I did it in the back of his truck, blah blah blah" VERY VAGUE. And she said "Oh. I THOUGHT you maybe saw someone you recognized. So did you also see your old swim coach there?" And I said "You too?" And she said "Let's buy a kotex and go cram it down his throat You think his wife will hold him down?" She is so funny.

But I swear to god that she KNOWS something happened with me and him but she has NEVER asked and I came SO CLOSE to telling but really it would have been the wrong time, on a night out. She actually MAY have gone and tried to murder him had I told her. Anyway she said "As soon as we came in I saw him, I made sure the two of us had our backs to him so unless he looks over he won't see us. Are you ok?" And she hugged me again and I was crying a little, she wiped my cheek and then took out her compact and said "I didn't actually MEAN we were going to powder our noses" and she fixed my makeup.

I love her so much, so happy she was there when I saw him.

So it was just one of those nights when it didn't rain but it poured. And I did NOT want to go back out, was ready actually to crawl out the bathroom window but mom said "I'm here sweetie, don't worry" and we went back out, I didn't look over at him, but what I did was I picked up Maggie and took her back so I could powder HER nose, which she loved, then came back out, took my seat and within five minutes they were out the door, pretty sure he didn't see us and if he DID certainly did not approach us.

The motherfucker. I always wonder who else he did that to, he still coaches so I guess the question really is who else he is still DOING it to. With a girl high school aged and a boy probably in college.

What is WRONG with people?

What was wrong with ME for letting him? And then taking the pictures and posting them on the internet? You know though when I talked to the counselor at WVU she said about me posting the pictures that it sounded to her like I just was taking back control of them from him.

Problem with digital pics though is that he has copies. Boy would I love to see someone go through THAT hard drive.

FUnny how sick and raped and awful I felt when I saw him, but sitting there with mom reaching over and holding my hand I felt protected in a way I DEFINITELY didn't back then, and driving home thinking about it I was ANGRY, but then thought "You know, if he did that to me then, he might still be doing that to girls right now, and if so someone's gotta stop him." I don't know how you would go about it but I still have the pics and when I look at the properties of the ORIGINAL photo files, it's right there, the dates they were taken, which when you figure out my age, there it was, I was 15 when the shots at the pool were taken.

Felt so ballsy and daring and FUN and naughty when I was doing it, how did I know??

ANyway... that was what I was telling you on the choppy phone message. That I saw BOTH of them and it almost ruined the evening but didn't, mom was great, I love her, I feel like she knows more than she lets on but I don't feel like I need to tell her, but if I did it'd be all right. And at the point I called you I had kind of gotten out the anger and tears in the car and just needed to TELL someone.

And now my coffee's cold AGAIN.

And now I nuked it AGAIN along with a tollhouse (choco chip) muffin, except some of the chips stuck to the paper! THAT'S not fair!!!

So amazingly now it is 6:30, I have been sitting here typing for an hour and didn't tell you about Todd but need to save SOMETHING for our call.

Also the porn star he knows (not sure how well!) which I SWEAR I will tell you on the phone.

But this stuff I typed about was more important.

I love you Rita and was so glad I saw you and Danny. Wish I'd seen Tony too. Love all three of you and miss you and have to come down to Baltimore and JUST see you independent of a "family visit."

Talk later this morning, phone's working fine so dial and text away xoxoxoxoxoxo love you maura k

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Where are you???

2008-03-30T04:55:00.000-07:00

From: Rita Pressley (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
To: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
Date: Sat, 29 Mar 2008 7:48:20 pm EDT
Subject: Where are you???

Are you OK??? I didn't get all of your message from the road yesterday because your phone was cutting in and out, and then kept getting your voicemail even this morning.... is your phone running down?

Unfortunately the few phrases I heard loud and clear in your message didn't make me feel too great: "at the restaurant Thursday" and "that pig Coach Fry" and "fucked me in the back of his pickup" were the highlights.

I really want to find out what happened and talk to you about it... DON'T make me call you and disturb you when you're cozycozy with TODD

Just want to make sure that everything's ok.

Meanwhile, who would've thought: we are fighting about watching sports on TV but not in the HE DOESN'T WANT TO SIT AND WATCH LIFETIME WITH ME way, ha-dee-haha.

~~ I ~~ want to watch the Orioles but Tonybaloney wants to watch hoops!

Compromise: TV sound low, Orioles game on the radio. Everyone wins.

Dannydan doesn't care. He is tuned into DZT: Donkey Zebra Truck TV.

The nice thing about having the Os game on the radio is that I can play with him and still hear what's going on. Daddy's playing with us too... he's not paying TOTAL attention to the tube but is facing the tv, so I know what's going on.

Last night we were talking and he said "You know, I really don't care about what game's on when Danny's up."

Kind of tired as you can probably tell.

Anyhoo... I know you're at work now. Call tomorrow (Sunday) AM. I'll try texting you too tonight.

Later!

Love
Rita

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2008-03-30T04:45:00.000-07:00

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From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Margo Pressley (ledoux67@aol.com)
Subject: Re: She's here
Date: Fri, 28 Mar 2008 05:41:49 -0700 (PDT)

Well, she is on the road now and back to vermont. She kept saying last night how she wanted to get up and leave when I went swimming, sure enough this morning she was up before I was (4:30) getting all her stuff together and out in the car. Went into Maggie's room and gave her a hug, told her goodbye and then came out with me to the driveway and said "You know, I was going to just hit the road but I think I want to go to the pool with you." So she rode to the Y with me, we did our laps, showered up, stopped for coffee and a danish on the way back, and she hit the road from there at around 6:45.

Says she should be back in plenty of time to take a nap before work (4 pm she has to be in).

We went to Eutaw House, up by the junction with 322, great evening except for two moments when Maura looked like she had seen a ghost. The first was when we came in, there was a guy seated at the bar who kept checking her out. "I'll tell you later mom" and when we went back to the bathroom she said "A couple years ago when I was at WVU I came home for break and that guy and I sat at the bar and he kept buying me boilermakers and well...." She didn't get too deep into it but having been a confused 20 something who frequented bars once myself, I could only guess what "and well" meant and I didn't press the issue. She didn't want to tell me more and so I didn't ask.

THen when the hostess seated us, the next ghost I KNEW why it bothered her, for the same reason it bothered me. Coach Fry, her old swim coach from when we lived up here, the skeeveball who I swear if I didn't know better was fooling around with Maura at age 14,15. The one who I moved us to Gettysburg to get away from (little realizing that I would soon meet Marty and move right BACK, except this time it was to Pleasant Gap and not in the same school district as before, and as mom would say thank God for my wisdom, lol). Sitting at a table with a wife and a son and a daughter both high school age. He did NOT see us I'm pretty sure and fortunately our backs were to him so not much chance of him spotting us. But I could tell Maura remembered him and was as skeeved as I was about seeing him. I just always wondered if "something inappropriate happened" (I guess the phrase "I swear if I didn't know better he was fooling around with Maura" is more than WONDERING, huh?) and really the feeling I got from Maura, like she'd just stepped in (or rolled in) something when she saw him (like I said, looked like she was about to get sick) kind of confirmed that, but as with the guy at the bar, I didn't press the issue. Just gave her a hug in the bathroom then held her hand at the table and I could tell that made her feel a little better.

It's hard to remember and sometimes I need to consciously remind myself that yeah, Maura is this great striking self-assured smart young woman who stands on her own feet so well, had it kind of hard (or at least upsetting) growing up and came through it and is "on the other side" in so many ways and has found happiness in her life, but that she has things in her past that she did, people she knew, probably a lot of relationships and flings, that she kept from me and that still probably trouble her.

Just would love to know what happened with her and that fucking skeeveball asshole prick son of a bitch Fry. I am CERTAIN he made advances at my daughter, used his authority to at least TRY to take advantage of her. How far he may have gotten is something only Maura knows. But back then if I had felt like it was something harmless that she knew how to get herself away from herself, I wouldn't have packed the van up and moved down there. As you know. Tom Stewart was the biggest part of that equation, but Fry was the other element so to speak.

At least she kicked his team's ass in the meets she swam against them in high school. Always swam her best races/times against that pricks teams. Not that it was his GIRLS' fault he was a pig.

And seeing him sitting there with a WIFE and two kids. Well maybe he reformed. That was over ten years ago, maybe therapy works. But if those kids are that age now, then back then they were around Becca's age.

Skeeveball. I know something happened, want to know what, but again if Maura doesn't want to say, I'm not going to press her. Unless you think I should, counselor. I know I know: you would say "Make it safe for her to open up and she will but don't press her." Which was why I just hugged her, held her hand at the table, let her know I was there.

Anyway we survived that, they were on their way out and when Maura saw that she lightened up. Shared a nice bottle of zin and that made us feel giddy, Maggie was laughing at us laughing (incredibly well behaved given the wait for our food, she always seems to be on her best behavior when sissy's home). Great steaks too, all in all a nice evening that overcame the shitty start and ended up a lot of fun.

Then when we got back home Maggie and Maura watched an episode of Mr. Bean off dvd and then Maura got her sister ready for bed, read her a couple stories and then lights out. And like I said, got up first thing this AM and went into Maggie's room and kissed her, told her she was leaving and Maggie rolled over and gave her a hug and said "Noooooooo." Then went back to sleep.

Maura said "She can come live with me mom, I don't mind." I like that she feels that way.

Maybe this summer, lol.

Now I can hear moving around up above so Maggie is up. I'm going to go nuke my coffee (I poured a fresh cup right when I came online and now it's cold) and go throw some darts at my coach Fry dartboard. The fucker, I'm just glad he didn't see us. Or worse APPROACH us. Yuck.

I like that face but find I must use it sparingly, lol, that way it retains its power.

OK. As I said 20 times on the phone yesterday, I'm glad we came down and met you, thank you for hosting dinner (the restaurant would have been fine but coming out to your house was even better), it was great seeing Rita, nice to have Brian grab my ass for old time's sake, lol, etc etc etc.

And one more thing before I forget: "what the 7734 is the dump?" lol. Did Maura even know what you meant? Do calculators even DO that anymore? I just tried mine, it does. I think that was one of the first things I learned to DO on a calculator, lol.

Anyway, later gator!!! xoxoxoxoxoxo love you christy

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Re: She's here

2008-03-30T04:39:00.000-07:00

To: christyswims@yahoo.com
From: ledoux67@aol.com
Date: Tue, 25 Mar 2008 18:24:49 -0400
Subject: Re: She's here

Awwww, that's sweet, Christy, and sweet like you said that you cried when you saw her. That makes me happy for you.

I GOT A SWEATER AND A COUPLE SHIRTS FOR BECCA AT THE DUMP!!!!! The afternoon that we went to the little sandwich place in town and I had the awesome bowl of chili (probably the meatiest chili I have EVER had anywhere)... we were talking about Maura's darkroom and how much a setup like that cost (and sidenote: would you PLEASE find out from her how much the PAPER cost for all those prints she sent us? I know it had to be expensive and I want to send her a check. I know she'll probably say NO and if it was just a handful of prints, I'd be like "Fine. OK. You win." But she sent us ONE HUNDRED SIX PRINTS, Christy... a couple of them 10x16, a LOT of them (like half) 8x10s... that CAN'T be cheap and I want to give her SOME money to reimburse her. You're the mom... WORK on her, lmaaaao) (now... where was I?) (Hold on a sec) (Brian is playing Duke Ellington WAY TOO LOUD in the music room and I needed to shut at least ONE door between there and here so I could hear myself effin THINK) (NOW... where was I?) (OK, we were talking about Maura's darkroom and how much a setup like that cost, lmaaao) and she said "Well, I bought a lot of this stuff used in Morgantown, and then the shelves and the table I got at the dump" and I said "At the DUMP??? What the 7734 is the DUMP?" And she explained it the same way she did to you: that it's the recycling center for the town, "kind of like a thrift shop where you don't have to pay. You wanna stop there?" Well, of COURSE I did... I couldn't resist digging around at a place called THE DUMP lmaaao.

And get this: the place is on DUMP ROAD!!!!!

Anyway it's just two sheds inside a chain link fence, and one side of it is where you drop off your recycling and the other side is the thrift shop side... just a few shelves and a table and big boxes of clothes and appliances and all other stuff. You bring in what you want to get rid of, and you take what you need. "Karma in action" as Maura said.

Anyway we dug through the one box and there was a really really nice snowflake sweater there... acrylic but still... plus a couple t-shirts that Becca liked. (Brian struck out) So we took them back to Maura's and washed them (did woolite with the sweater. Maura was out of acrylite, lmaaao) and those pics you see of me on my skis on the mou'en the next apres noon? That is the sweater from the dump.

And when I wore it to work that following Monday (had to wash it again because it got ALL sweaty when I skied), I told all the girls "Guess where I got THIS? At the DUMP" lmaaao

Anyway... that's my dump story. I'll scan and send the pic Maura took of me standing by the DUMP ROAD sign.

Maura DOES look great, doesn't she? I did NOT say she lost weight unhealthily and it's also like I told her, it's not like she was FAT before. It's mainly like you said that she just looks HAPPY and relaxed. Brian and I had a discussion about this the first night. "She's just like her mom... she looks great without any makeup." And I said "Brian, she's not not wearing makeup." "She didn't have any makeup on!" "Yes, she did, Bri... she just knows how to apply it without looking like a ghoul or a ninth grader. Look closely." He still has not gotten used to the idea that those of us who "look great without makeup" are the ones who know how to use the stuff.

Except me, who just glows au naturel, lmaaao.

I'd write more but we already talked about most of it and besides, Becca needs to get on her homework. If she gets on it NOW she will be done by 7, and then we can ALL relax.

Call later, woman. Hope you had a nice afternoon... I'm happy for you. NOW GET THAT PRICING lmaaao. xoxoxoxoxoxo me!!

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2008-03-30T04:08:00.000-07:00

From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Margo Pressley (ledoux67@aol.com)
Date: Tue, 25 Mar 2008 1:36:13 pm EDT
Subject: She's here

Yeah, as I think I MAY have mentioned on the phone, lol, Maura is here. SO happy to see her, so happy she decided to do a surprise visit. I always say "come home anytime you want" and I'm glad she did.

Feels so good to have both my girls here. They are out now, Maura took Maggie out for lunch at the bakery so I'd have some time alone, then when they get back it will be Maggie's nap time and Maura and I will have some girl time together.

She called late on Sun night and asked if we were doing anything or going anyplace the next few days, I said "No, why?" Thinking maybe she wanted US to come up THERE, which I'm still not sure how or when we'll do. But she had some wiggle room financially and didn't have to work again till Fri night and said she misses us and wanted to come down if it wasn't too short notice. As if. All I had to do was clean all the junk out of her room, lol, you know what that room looks like and it sounds like it would be a project but it's not like she's coming up on the spur of the moment from Harrisburg. When she calls and says "I'm leaving now" I know I've got a good 8-9 hours to get my act together. To find trash bags and a dumpster, lol.

ANyway she hit the road first thing yest am and got here a little before supper last night.

Didn't tell Maggie her sister was coming before she got here, just told her we had a surprise for her. "Another easter basket?" lol. "An elephant?" Which Maura brought her BOTH of, a really beautiful easter basket (she told Maggie that the easter bunny left it in Vermont and told Maura to bring it to her sister) and a cute little top with an elephant on the front. "I found it at the dump" lol. She had to explain to me what "the dump" is, I told her I was picturing a city dump and Maura said "Yeah, that's pretty much it" lol. She said it's like a thrift shop but instead of things being cheap, they're just FREE. Said she found a toaster oven and cheap shelves for the darkroom and a clock radio and a set of wineglasses there, and also she drops stuff off all the time. "So it's like freecycle?" "Yeah." Ok, so why do they call it a dump lol. Must be some Vermont thing.

She looks so great, you're right, she's lost a lot of weight, when you said that I was thinking "Oh my god, she's not eating right, she's emaciated" but she looks so HEALTHY. Love that she is letting her hair grow out, she has always had such luxurious hair. You're right, she looks very relaxed and happy.

We went swimming together today and even though she says she doesn't swim regularly (she belongs to a pool up there but says she only goes once or twice a week) she still kicked my ass a couple times that we raced. That's ok, she's my daughter.

Then we went for coffee and talked for a while, talked about your visit and Todd and all the stuff she's doing up there.

SO nice to have her here.

I hear her out front, she is beeping the horn or Maggie is, or it's the mailman having a seizure, lol. Anyway I'm going to hit send.

Feeling happy and having a good day, I hope you are too. Talk later! xoxoxoxoxo love you christy

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RITA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-13T02:09:00.000-08:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Rita Pressley LeDoux (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Wed, 13 Feb 2008 04:33:17 am EST
Subject: RITA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELLLLLLLLLLP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I felt like all I wanted to do the last few days was stalk Luke on facebook, I wish I'd never signed up for that stupid site, I just keep looking at his friends list, all those Morgantown beeyotches POKING him + sending him HUGS + FLOWERS + KISSES + Jaime Savage SLOWDANCING w/him, I keep thinking "OK, which one's the one he left ME for????"

Made myself so exhausted w/it yesterday that I ended up going to bed early, did one of those dealies where I didn'teven log out, just pushed the button in + shut the computer off, I was so depressed, just went to bed, got up early early early this AM + TRIED to work in the darkroom but just kept messing up prints, wasting paper. Got two good ones out, one for you + one for mom. I might be losing my mind but at least I'm not losing my EYE, and am also glad that I took out the hassleblad even though its A HASSLE. The prints from the large format negs just blow away the 35mm. Which I knew but was just being lazy.

I know you don't like tech talk, sorry.

Its like I get doing that (facebook) + I know I shouldn't, know he's gone now + has his life, I just keep thinking I'll see "Luke misses Maura" or something like that. Keep thinking I'll get a valentine from him. But nothing in the mail, nothing on facebook, no email, no matter how much I keep checking nothing nothing nothing. No one, I HATE Valentines + being alone for it!!!!!!

And Jenniphyr said "Go out to the nail and meet someone, you're a beautiful woman, you could meet someone." The two times I went there it was disgusting, that was nice of her to say I'm beautiful (I guess there's always THAT ) but I don't want a PICKUP SCENE.

Don't want the same old dumb things, I know that, then all I do all night is waste my time missing Luke, checking in on Luke, seeing who's FRIENDS w/ LUKE. Working on my pictures makes me HAPPY + makes the time fly, so why do I keep picking at something that I know just is going to make me miserable???????????

And wish I'd been there for you guys birthdays.

And I'm SICK OF SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but Jenniphyr says spring weather won't be here for at least another EIGHT WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!

And I have to work tomorrow and do FIVE STRAIGHT DAYS!!!! of a HOLIDAY WEEKEND!!!!!

I almost wish I'd been working the last four days, at least it would've kept my mind off Luke. Not kept my mind off him, prob not, but at least I wouldn'tve been sitting at the computer ALL DAY, clicking on his site, clicking on the pics of his friends, clicking clicking clicking clicking.

Can't believe I'm sitting here NOW but too early (late??) to call you.

So I hope we talk today. I hope you have some wisdom for me, you always seem to.

Later Rita!!!! xoxoxoxoxoxo love you maura k

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MOMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!

2008-02-13T02:03:00.000-08:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Mom (christyswims@yahoo.com)
Date: Wed, 13 Feb 2008, 4:14:06 am EST
Subject: MOMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!

Now I'M getting spammed with all these irish lottery emails should I just email them + tell them YOU won so I don't need their money????

Its been nice having four days off, I go back tomorrow night + work 5 straight, busy weekend, by all accounts the last one of the season.

I am up early, last nite just went to bed ultra early because I could. Sinus infection seems to be healed, the problem is the baseboard heat in this place. I guess I need to run + get a humidifier huh??

ANyway went to bed early, got up about an hour ago + made myself some tea + went right into the darkroom. Printing pics, for as much of a hassle as lugging that HASSELblad out into the woods is, I'm glad I took it out. 35mm is ok for snapshots but the larger format negs are the way to go for this kind of work. I just have resisted taking it out for all different reasons (it's big, I need a tripod, the film is MUCH more expensive, etc) but it's worth it, defanetely.

I just did one for you that is drying + will send later today IF I go to the PO, right now it is (guess what) snowing hard.

OK, Just stepped outside onto the porch + it has stopped snowing, not totally quiet though, I can hear the roar of the stream.

Just was thinking of you mom, missing you Maggie + Martydad + wanted to say HI GOOD MORNING.

Miss you, love you!!!! xoxoxoxo maura

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2008-02-04T09:03:00.000-08:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Rita Pressley (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Mon, 4 Feb 2008 11:26:03 am EST
Subject: Re: Re: Take a look at these

THat's so funny, I don't think of myself as a "perfectionist" but I guess it looks that way, huh? I just want things to look the way I see them without the camera, so that when I look at them or you or mom or Tony looks at them, you guys feel the way I felt before I even used the camera, you know?? And if you don't, then it's a bad shot. Maybe I am a perfectionist because obviously even the ones that I'm not happy with, people seem to like.

I haven't gotten into CLIMBING to take shots, with the snow it's kind of tough. I got snowshoes that were supposedly for backcountry hiking but they just had no grip + I was having trouble doing anything but terrain where the slope was really gentle, any time I had to go up or down anything steep I just slid. Prob in the summer I will get into that more. And if you guys come up to visit YOU can lug the baby shit

I just don't see how you do it, being a mom. That is such a scarey thing to me. Being responsible for that little life and taking care of him, having him rely on you all that. Getting your nips bit no thanks!!!! I think about having a baby and I take EXTRA pills. Although if the right guy came along I would consider it, I guess it's not that hard when you have someone there to love you and share the burden huh? I mean I know you complain that Tony is at work during the week and tired at nights plus his games and practices from Nov-Feb make you a basketball widow, but if he didn't do what he did (work!) you wouldn't be able to do what YOU do (take care of Danny). So you both do your own things in the way you need to to get the job done. That must be nice. I could do THAT.

Getting sad just typing that, I miss Luke, sad about it and all the things he said in his letter I just don't agree with, WHY can't we have a long distance relationship? WHY can't we each live where we live and do what we do and see each other when we can? It's not perfect but it's the way it has to be now. And the answer, as pain in the ass Jenniphyr said, was because of what he's probably NOT telling me, he's prob seeing someone else or at least has his eye on someone else. WHich pissed me off and got me bummed out because she's prob right.

She's a pain in the ass but I've gotten to like her.

I remember the thing you wrote from your Ansel Adams book and went to look, that book is the same one I have!! By Barry Pritzker, it was the first photography book I ever really got, from Mom, Christmas 2000. I was 16, isn't that so funny. I had no interest in photography or art, just in posing for the swim coach (one reason I'm not interested in skeevy older men and their "figure studies") (Mom would kill me and then kill the coach, who still coaches there, if she knew that happened)

Anyway mom got me that book and I just loved the pictures of the mountains and wanted to live there and take pictures like that ever since.

So funny that she could see that and got me that book, you know how it is when you buy someone a gift, maybe she just thought nothing more than it was something I might like, but it was really the start of wanting to do what I'm doing now.

Anyway that is a nice book and the prints look good in it, although when you see one of the authorized editions you can really tell the difference. So go buy one!

Phone

HA! SPeak of mom and she's on the line. "Honey, is that a bear in that one picture??" I didn't see any bears but now I'm looking at the picture, she's right, it's a bear! I thought "No that's just a stump or a shadow" but stumps and shadows don't move 20 yards from DSCN8423 to DSCN8424.

Now she'll be worrying that I'm going to get eaten by a bear. Maybe I should have PAUL come with me next time sacrifice him to the muse.

I swear I didn't see anything when I was out there. I guess I was looking at the big frame and not at the details. But the details come out later. It kind of takes my breath away when I think about it now. Wow.

She and I are going to go to Philly sometime later this spring and see that Lee Miller exhibit at the Philly museum of art that Jeannie wanted me to go see with her. Watch, mom and I will pick a date that's the same one that Jeannie ends up going and I'll run into her.

So funny that there was a time a few years ago when I would've thought "OK, well, she says she's sorry that we had our falling out and she just wants to make it up to me and treat me to the exhibit" and I would've fallen for it. No way jose. I just think WAIT A MINUTE. WE HAD A "FALLING OUT" BECAUSE ~ YOU ~ WERE TAKING PICTURES OF ME UNDER FALSE PRETENSES!!!

AND NO YOU CAN'T HAVE THE NEGS BACK!!!!!

So glad I took those. Yeah they're her property, but that's a nice little bargaining chip I can hold onto. Aside from knowing that they're safe from her, who knows what PRINTS she made but at least she won't be drooling over any NEW ones.

So wrong and I

Phone again.

You! Nice talking to you lol. Hope you enjoy your bagel.

I still didn't get a shower so I'm hitting send even though I just discussed most of this with you. That's the way it always goes with us huh?

Have fun with your son. MIss you and love you! xoxoxoxoxo maura k

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Re: Take a look at these

2008-02-04T05:52:00.000-08:00

From: "Rita Pressley" (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
To: "Maura Kelly" (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
Date: Mon, 4 Feb 2008 10:02:09 am EST
Subject: Re: Take a look at these

Wow... how pretty.... the colors are so suttle (as Margo would write!). And most amazing thing of all: YOU GOT UP OUT OF BED TO TAKE THEM WHEN IT'S COLD AND EARLY!!! How can you do it??

All of your winter pics make me wish I was there. But I guess we WILL be over spring break.

Actually when I saw the subject line TAKE A LOOK AT THESE I thought maybe you'd gotten in touch with that gross dude at the camera shop and decided to do some FIGURE WORK!!!

I'm fine here... a quiet morning. It's a little chilly here but not insanely cold, so we might walk over to Sam's and have a bagel. I could go for one lately and wanted to go there yesterday but the morning got away from us, so we just chilled around the house. Stayed at home and watched the game here. We'd kind of talked about going up to Gettysburg to my brother's but one, Margo said that Becca was sick (walking pneumonia) and I wouldn't want Dannydan to get anything, plus two, the game is on so late, we wouldn't have gotten back till midnight, and Tony leaves for work at 7 am, so... we just stayed around here and chilled.

But no bagel yesterday... but today... bwah haha hahahahaha. BAGEL!!!

Annnnnyhoo...

Dannydan's better this week, thanks for asking. So WE are better... sleeping soundly.

His teething... well, they're coming in. Some of them seem to hurt A LOT when they come in, whilst others don't seem to bother him at all.

And no I am NOT nursing him anymore... just pumping and bottling it. The lips on the nips were one thing, but one bite was ENOUGH, thank you.

Get this: Margo said "Oh, yeah, Becca and Tony did that too when they started teething. You get used to it." NO, YOU DON'T!!!!! NOT ME!!!!!!!!

Anyway he was really miserable a couple nights last week but this weekend calmed down. I guess when they're breaking through the gums is when it's worst... but the last couple days he's been fine.

I'll tell him you asked.

Tony like I said is gone, and I am sitting here quietly looking at an ANSEL ADAMS book I signed out of the Pratt... that calendar you gave us made me want to see more of his pictures. You know how the thing on the back of the calendar says that St. Martin's is the ONLY AUTHORIZED PUBLISHER for the works of Ansel Adams or something... well, of course the first thing I noticed is that this book wasn't published by them, and there's a LITTLE blurb on the inside that says something like "This book is not authorized by the Ansel Adams estate" or something like that.

Of course it's a LIBRARY book... I didn't pay for it, so I don't feel bad. But still: how can they publish his pictures without it being authorized??? I'm confused...

Anyway... I liked this part....

Of course Adams essential mountaineering equipment always included a camera. It is easy to overlook the fact that in order to photograph mountains, unless one always wants to shoot from the base up, one must climb them. This is easier in today's world of sophisticated equipment and lightweight alloys OK, OK, whatever.... but Adams had a different experience. DUring one expedition in the snowy high country, for instance, he hauled around a camera pack weighing 40 pounds, include his "Korona view camera, several lenses, two filters, six holders containing twelve glass plates, and a heavy wooden tripod"-- in addition to his camping gear!"

What they don't say is that MRS. Adams was there lugging all of the baby shit!!!

But here's the part I liked, that made me think of you:

Some of Adams's most brilliant mountain photographs seem to reflect not only the majesty and splendor of the natural scene but also the artist's exuberance at attaining the perfect roost after a long and often grueling climb.

That's how I feel when I see your pictures. Like you're so psyched to be seeing what you're seeing. I can just hear your voice and you saying "Rita, wow, I just got back from taking pictures and you should've SEEN the light in the pines... wait till you see it."

Tony was saying that the thing that cracks him up is seeing your REJECTS. "I just loved the way she was showing us those pictures and she kept going 'no, no, that's all wrong, it didn't look like this, that's just a bad print, that was a bad shot' and I'm like 'WHAT MAKES IT SO BAD??'" I told him you're a perfectionist and you're trying to capture how things really look, and that it's hard.

"But it looks good enough to me."

Well, that's why SHE'S a photographer and YOU'RE a high school basketball coach, sweetie

BRB!!!

Dannydan crying. I changed him...

Hard to believe it was about 45 minutes for that BRB but it was.

ANyhoo....that book had me thinking of you. We might go downtown this afternoon and see if we can BUY a book of his.

But I think right now I'm going to walk and get a sesame bagel, toasted, with cream cheese and lox!!! And a tangerine odwalla! And Dannydan's bottle... maybe if I pump now and walk really fast it'll still be warm when I get there.

Talk to ya later allitator... thanks again for the pics and let me know how the PRINTS come out... scan and send if you feel like it!

Love
Senorita

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2008-02-04T05:08:00.000-08:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Mom (christyswims@yahoo.com)
Date: Mon, 4 Feb 2008 8:03:18 am EST
Subject: Pictures

Hi mom, here's some digitals I took this am, I had my hasselblad on a tripod but also took along the minolta because I wanted to send pics to everyone now.

Love the way the sky around the mountains look, like someone colored around the peaks with a highlighter. And as usual the colors, the light was changing moment to moment.

I'm feeling a little better, thanks for calling yest. The combo of the wierd letter from Jeannie, the breakup note from Luke, finding out that Todd is attached, all of it just brought me down. Did you ever feel like there's too much happning + that you're not even sure what you think or feel about it, you have something happen, like WIERD BREAKUP LETTERS OR WIERD LETTERS FROM WOMEN WHO YOU POSED NUDE FOR + THE WHOLE TIME THEY WANT YOU TO SLEEP WITH THEM and at first you're like "oh ok, that's no biggie" but then you just feel f'd up for days??? That was how I felt when I came down to see you guys, plus just the whole thing of feeling like I didn't have enough time, etc etc etc.

Sometimes feelings and life are too much to process and I don't know what to make of it, and I am really good at throwing myself into other things (my photography, work etc) to distract myself. But then eventually it all comes to the surface.

Re the Jeannie letter NO WAY am I going to take her up on that and go "meet her for a weekend" (I keep trying to write letters back, I guess starting them out "Are you fn nuts?" isn't the best tact huh?? ) BUT the exhibit she mentioned (Lee Miller) sounds really great and I would love to meet YOU and go see it if you want to. I liked our last trip to Philly to the museum, really fun and I love sharing things with you, I miss you and Maggie (and Martydad too!!) so much + I don't know if you could pull an overnight like that but I'd love to do it, it'd be really fun, so let me know!

Just rambling: what bugs me about the Jeannie thing and also Luke is that here were two people I was FRIENDS with, with Luke it went in a whole nother direction and I think I kind of felt it coming, just didn't want to do it myself, but with Jeannie I TRUSTED her and feel like I was taken advantage of.

Thank god I was smart enough to grab all those negs before I left Morgantown. I can be pretty cool under pressure. They're great pics, how wouldnt they be, she had a crush on me. Skeeves me just typing it.

Speaking of skeeving there's a little camera shop up the road from where I live, they have film for the hasselblad which otherwise I would have to drive to Burlington or Montpelier to get. Anyway I was in there to get film, talking to the owner about my camera and the kind of pictures I'm taking, and the whole time there's this guy Paul standing there at the counter, listening. Didn't say a word about modelling or anything like that, but this is a small town + everyone here knows practically everyone else, so no doubt he heard from someone who heard from someone who shouldn't of shot their mouth off that I have done modeling in my past life. (I'm thinking JENNIPHYR, since I like to blame her for everything!!)

Anyway I've seen this guy Paul before in at Jamie's a couple times, he's about your age, maybe a little younger, and he's one of those Vermont guys who isn't really chill but tries to look that way. Like he wants to look like he's in touch with his feminine side so he can get laid??? Anyway the whole time I'm talking to the owner (whose name I still don't know, I have it on a card, wait a minute) (Tim) this guy Paul is lurking at the counter listening and finally when TIM goes back in the back to get me my film Paul goes "So you use a Hassleblad?" and I said yeah, it's a nice camera. Actually it's not that great but I just didn't want to talk, just wanted my film and to get out. Just had a wierd feeling and of course what does PAUL say next? "Yeah, I use a Hasselblad for portrait work. For FIGURE work" and as he said the word FIGURE he kind of glanced down at my boobs, just like a flash but I got the message, and really !!!!!!

Anyway I just said "I'm done with figure work" and that kind of ended THAT discussion. Got my rolls and just left.

I bet I can guess the kind of FIGURE work he does, "the body as landscape," naked young female bodies without faces. In black and white so it's "art."

At least you could always see my FACE. Ron always said "Don't be afraid to feel what you feel, this is about feeling, I want a FEELING communicated. That comes through your body language and your eyes, your face."

Of course his wife wanted to take it being about FEELING to a whole different level I'm rambling again but it makes me feel better.

I love you mom and glad I can write you these things, I'd write them to Rita but we TALK about them, so now it's your turn.

I'm going to go get a shower and make coffee and then go into the darkroom and see what develops

Tell Maggie Kay sissy loves her and give Martydad a hug for me!! xoxoxoxoxoxo love you maura

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Take a look at these

2008-02-04T04:47:00.000-08:00

From: Maura Kelly (mauraswimgrrrl@yahoo.com)
To: Rita Pressley LeDoux (ritaritasenorita@yahoo.com)
Date: Mon, 4 Feb 2008 07:39:05 am EST
Subject: Take a look at these

Took them this morning with the digital cam as I shot on film, as you can see it was just one of those monrings where the mountains to the east looked like someone drew around the peaks with an orange-pink highlighter. Wow.

I only hope that the film I took came out as nice as these digital prints but had to send them to you.

How's Danny's teething going??? xoxoxoxo love you maura k

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Re2: What a week

2008-02-02T07:24:00.000-08:00

To: christyswims@yahoo.com
From: ledoux67@aol.com
Date: Fri, 01 Feb 2008 7:38:45 pm EST
Subject: Re: What a week

Hmm... sick girl... hot cowgirl grindin' on the couch, then soapy shower lovin' and half speed bed screwin'... I think I'm coming up with a plan for the rest of the evening, lmaaao.

All I have to do is pry Brian away from the piano. He's sitting in there with the candleabbra lit... all he needs is a rhinestone suit and he'd be like Liberace. I think he's writing because he's playing kind of stop and start. I hate to go in and interrupt when the master is at work, lmaaao.

Anyway... yeah, I read that too about women not having an orgasm from intercourse... it was in that idiotic chat on the washington post... and they were partly right, kind of. I've never had it happen in and of itself... only if I've already reached the promised land BEFORE, THEN is when you ride the rollercoaster, as you put it.

It really does all come back to what Miss Deal told us in health class: A man is like a light bulb... but a woman... is like a kettle on a stovvvvvve.

Unfortunately, before Brian, the guys I'd been with took that to mean "a watched pot never boils," lmaaaao.

Anyway... a quiet Friday evening here. The worst seems to be behind us. THANK YOU for calling Becca... that really made her happy, I could tell. Sorry I couldn't talk much longer but I was right in the middle of picking the chikn for soup... then as you heard Brian came in and of course all activity has to then focus on HIM. But she loved talking to you and Maggie... that was sweet of you.

And Brian brought her home a little get well card with a purple iris... she loved THAT. A flower like a big girl. Unfortunately he ALSO brought her home HOMEWORK which I'm not even going to worry about until Monday. She'll be staying home then; we can work on it then. Homework. Yeesh. In second grade. I still can't get over that. I didn't have homework in second grade. (Of course, that was 40 years ago, lmaaao) Did YOU have homework in second grade?? Tony didn't, not that I remember, not regularly.

Anyway, that's way ahead of us. She still isn't all the way better, but the erythromycin seems to be working. She still had a little bit of a fever before supper but at least she's not coughing and she said her chest doesn't hurt anymore. Finally eating: she kept down soft boiled yeggs this morning and felt well enough by supper to have some chikn soup and crackers.

And as Brian said, we'll know she's REALLY all the way better when she complains about how gross the pieces of chicken in it look, lmaao.

No Super Bowl party, by the way... I made the calls this morning. It's a shame, kind of... the house has never been cleaner, lmaaao. I mean, I cleaned like a demon this week, Christy.

Also no school today. I mean, I was already staying home (I called in yesterday) but Gettysburg schools started out with a 2-hour delay and then announced they were closing all together later.

All right... I hear the Beatles playing... side two of ABBEY ROAD, so it's safe to go in and accost him. (He's playing the record by the way... I know because I have the CD at work)

I'll try giving a call tomorrow morning woman... thanks again for your get well call... you're a great friend and of course her favorite aunt (DON'T tell Ronnie or Liz!!) xoxoxoxo me!!

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Re: What a week

2008-02-02T07:03:00.000-08:00

From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Margo Pressley (ledoux67@aol.com)
Date: Fri, 1 Feb 2008 9:16:01 am EST
Subject: Re: What a week

Awww... I hope she feels better. Usually once you get the shot that turns you around. I agree, good move just going ahead and cancelling the party. All you'll have to do is say PNEUMONIA and no one will WANT to come, lol. Seriously, I wouldn't want to come, not because it's contagious or anything, just because when your kid is getting over something like that, you still want things to be quiet, subdued, etc etc. No one wants to make it harder for you when you're getting over something like that with your girl.

Plus it sounded to me like you all were looking for an excuse to cancel anyway, so there you go.

Just feel sorry she's sick and maybe I'll call her today and say HI and get well!

Thank god Maggie only had a slight touch of it, she slept a long time yesterday and when she got up seemed her normal self so thank god it was just one of those things where she could sleep it off.

I'm sitting here on my second big cup of coffee, I usually have tea but when I got back from the pool Marty was up, it is ugly here and there will be no delay of classes etc so he got going early, he's on his way in already, just left right before I logged on (actually he was leaving as I typed, "OK, fine, see ya," lol) Anyway he had made a big pot of coffee (french roast, mmm) and now I'm having my second cup.

Snowy here mainly but a little sleet too, some ice, I talked to mom and she said it's mainly ice down there. Wintry mix.

So, Wednesday night ....................................

Right after I sent that last email to you about I said I'd be right back I turned off the computer and sat down next to Marty, and I was laughing a little at what you said ("Just grab his pecker through his pants") and he said "what's so funny? What'd she write now?" lol, he always knows it's YOU. So I said "Oh Margo and I were typing back and forth about how Maggie's in bed and it's a window of opportunity and she said I should just come over and do THIS" and I grabbed him through his pants and he grabbed me back and started tickling me under my arms, I wasn't letting go though and I was digging in his side, tickling HIM, and we both let go and just started kissing, and AS USUAL we started moving too fast, and I said "Marty you know, for once let's slow down." And he goes "You always say that' and I said "Well you KNOW that when we go slow we enjoy it more. MAggie's asleep, let's just take our time. Whatever we do, let's do it half speed ok"

Well THAT seemed to work. We were pretty bold and while we didn't get naked on the couch still we started to do it there, I was on his lap grinding away and maybe we would've stayed there but it was awkward and I could tell he wasn't totally comfortable so we snuck upstairs to the bedroom, got undressed, took a shower. REALLY felt great to do that and be all wet against each other, Marty always goes on about how great I look, how I'm in shape all that, but he doesn't give himself enough credit, he works out too, I know he has his calisthenics that he does every morning when he gets up.

What was really great about it most of all was that we TOOK OUR TIME. We went a little fast on the couch but then when we went upstairs and got in the shower he was really touching me nice, the whole thing just felt like a big long windup for the pitch, by the time we got into bed I was halfway there. I got off really nice before he even went inside me and then from there it was like a rollercoaster, you know. He went inside me and that was it. You know I read this thing yesterday about how women "don't get off during intercourse" and I don't know what women say that, and normally I don't, but last night I got off a couple times while he was inside me, and I KNOW that was because he got me off BEFORE he went inside me and I just rode the waves, so to speak.

One of the first times in a long time that I didn't want it to END and just felt so good. And I know it was because we slowed down.

And when I got up yesterday I know we only had about 5 hours sleep but I didn't feel tired at all, felt refreshed and like I could do it again. We didn't but now I just feel all warm and close to him, like in the morning I don't want to get out of bed, don't want him to leave the house, etc.

Like when we were dating and before we had Maggie.

So yeah, Wednesday night was !!!!!!!!!! so thanks for writing me and helping me get to the bottom of how I felt about all of it.

I'll call later today and check in. Hope Becca's better and that she's turned the corner... hope you have a good day at home. Later! xoxoxoxoxox love you christy

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What a week

2008-02-02T06:50:00.000-08:00

To: christyswims@yahoo.com
From: ledoux67@aol.com
Date: Fri, 01 Feb 2008 07:27 am EST
Subject: What a week

Wow, Christy... I think she's turned the corner and she's gonna be better... can't tell if the antibiotics are kicking in but her fever was down last night, which is a good sign... but man... pneumonia. That really seemed to come out of nowhere. She was a little sniffly earlier this week but mainly what she had seemed to be intestinal (puking, couldn't keep anything down, not even broth). I didn't hear the COUGHING that you think of with a chest cold-bronchitis-pneumonia until Wednesday afternoon... then she got up yesterday and said her chest hurt and I saw the pink phlegm, so I took her right in to see Dr Richardson.

Walking pneumonia, which is the less severe kind, and the antibiotics should take care of it (they gave her two shots: erythromycin and electrolytes, and amazingly she didn't cry at the needle. Poor kid was so miserable otherwise I don't think she really even noticed.)

It really seemed to come out of nowhere. (I already said that, didn't I?)

Anyway I'm home again today... hoping that the antibiotics do their thing and that she'll feel better enough to go back to school on Monday or TUesday.

Meanwhile there's our stupid super bowl (oops... that's Big Game) party... Brian says we should just call everyone now and cancel it... on the one hand, you know me: I hate to go changing everyone's plans. ANd she's not really CONTAGIOUS, so she's liable to be better by Sunday night. But still... even if she is, do I really WANT everyone trampling around here making noise till the game ends??? Even if she IS well enough on Sunday to go to school Monday (which I already decided I'm keeping her home till Tuesday anyway).

I mean, really, I'm not even INTO the game that much that I need to see it; mainly it's just an excuse to nosh and mingle. And I know Brian's not that into it.

So sometime this morning I'm gonna call everyone and cancel.

So once again he's right.

So... that's been MY week. Trip to the doctor yesterday afternoon... shots and meds for the girlygirl... all she's doing is sleeping... I just went in to check on her and she still feels a little warm but not HOT like yesterday. The Dr said the shot should jumpstart things and that the antibiotics (she has to get up and take one at 8) will take care of it.

I hate when Becca's sick. Hate seeing her puke and miserable... hate that I have to take her to the doctor's... don't want her (or Brian) to ever be sick or anything like that. I'd rather be sick and puking myself.

OK... maybe not puking. But you know what I mean.

Brian feels bad that he's been at work all week, but that's the way it fell. He really doesn't have sick days to use; I do, so I did. At least one of us could.

He's up now, buzzing around, getting ready to ride in to the school. I think he has a class and two private students on Friday morning, then the afternoon is usually his hang out all afternoon at the cafe looking groovy time, but he's going to score us a couple Ernie's dogs and come home by yunch.

So that's us.

So... what happened after we sent all those emails back and forth a couple nights ago???? Did you, uh, go grab his pecker, lmaaao.

Curious and curious...

I'm at home all day... call when you can! xoxoxoxoxoxo me!!

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Re4: Fwd Batch: 074/05/ZY369

2008-01-30T18:39:00.000-08:00

To: christyswims@yahoo.com
From: ledoux67@aol.com
Date: Wed, 30 Jan 2008 8:13:49 pm EST
Subject: Re: Batch: 074/05/ZY369

PECK-ER, PECK-ER, PECK-ER, PECK-ER!!! lmaaaaao

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Re3: Fwd Batch: 074/05/ZY369

2008-01-30T18:35:00.000-08:00

From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Margo Pressley (ledoux67@aol.com)
Date: Wed, 30 Jan 2008 8:13:03 PM EST
Subject: Re: Batch: 074/05/ZY369

I SAID "I'LL BE RIGHT BACK" lol

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Re7: Reply

2008-01-30T18:32:00.000-08:00

To: christyswims@yahoo.com
From: ledoux67@aol.com
Date: Wed, 30 Jan 2008 8:12:53 pm EST
Subject: Re: Reply

Go get him, woman!!! xoxoxoxo me!!

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Re6: Reply

2008-01-30T18:25:00.000-08:00

From: Christine Kelly-Morone (christyswims@yahoo.com)
To: Margo Pressley (ledoux67@aol.com)
Date: Wed, 30 Jan 2008 8:11:24 PM EST
Subject: Re: Reply

You are TOO FUNNY and now Marty's asking me what I'm laughing at.

BTW if I grab his pecker thru his pants then I'M the one who has to clean his underwear, lol, so forget it. Doing the sheets is bad enough.

I'll be back................. xoxoxoxoxoxo love you christy

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Re2: Fwd Batch: 074/05/ZY369

2008-01-30T18:19:00.000-08:00

To: christyswims@yahoo.com
From: ledoux67@aol.com
Date: Wed, 30 Jan 2008 8:08:48 PM EST
Subject: Re: Batch: 074/05/ZY369

NO OUTFITS!!! Just go over and sit next to him... grab his pecker, Christy, I'm tellin' ya, lmaaao. xoxoxoxo me!!

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